'I wonder how I sleep at night, knowing that am only asleep with my body and that my mind is all screaming at you.'
I stand in the open doors and see my sister, smile, laugh, and fool off with Lucas. She takes off with him with a car blowing up with songs and I realize I feel nothing but annoyance towards her and all those they are together.
"Those kids are wild," Lucas says beside me and I turn to glare at him.
"Did she tell you where they were going?" I ask him but he shakes his head.
I want to hiss in annoyance but I realize why should it bother me so much. I have my ways to keep up with that slay girl.
I walk inside and up to my room feeling annoyed with what my sister just did.
Why did she have to show off in front of me like that with Lucas?
I hate how every time I try to make things right with her she always does something like this.
"Arrhh," I say feeling like am gloating inside of me.
I reach for my phone and track her down.
She seems to be still moving and I wonder where she is heading at.
One thing is for sure, I know she is not going somewhere with the Rwema. She is using them like bait to go and sneak around doing things she is been doing with men I don't know who they are yet, like she did last time.
But I wonder why she would pull Lucas into her sneaky sketchy life.
It's clear she isn't into him, why can't she leave him up to me?
Thinking of my sister angers me a lot and I reach forward and throw my comforter and sheets away.
"Damn little bitch."
Why did my life have to turn like this and not Samantha's?
Where did I go wrong?
There she is having a time for herself while I am here being the loser that she's always been.
I don't even want to be here and keep feeling like a loser, I realize even though she is living a life that used to be mine in America, she is still neglecting our family.
Which can be a tool that I can use to get back to her.
I walk out of my room and go look for my mother and Yarrow who are in the living room talking.
"Hey, guys," I say to them.
"Already bored?" Yarrow asks and I nod my head.
"Yeah, for how long is Samantha not going to be here?"
"She is coming back Wednesday?" I nod my head and walk to sit beside my mother.
"That long?" I ask turning to my mother.
"I thought it was only for the weekend." She smiles at me.
"I know, I know my sweet lilac. I don't think I will also survive that long without her too because I don't know why, but sometimes I crave her cooking."
"You guys stop acting like you spent so much time with her. Would you be exaggerating about Dad if he were to leave for those days? Sam has also not been here with us. It's like she found a new family in her work." Yarrow says and I narrow my eyes feeling angrily and annoyed at him.
What is it with him always defending Samantha?
"Don't say it like that Yarrow, because if you asked me. I see much of Lily Samantha than I see much of you and your sister here." Mom says and I frown.
"Mom," I say trying to argue a case and she shrugs her shoulders.
"It's the truth." She says and I sigh defeatedly feeling the annoyance eat me alive.
Why is she still ruining things when she is not even here?
I turn to my mother and smile at her.
"Then let's do something to make up for the lost time, let's do something with you now that we are here." She looks taken back but she regains her composure self before she offers me a smile.
"With this little one here in here. I do not think there is much we could do. But I would love it if you guys did the cleaning over here and in all the rooms." I have my lips almost touching my nose as my mother finishes speaking.
"Am out of here." I don't have more to say.
I can hear her and Yarrow laugh at me but over my dead body would I do home chores.
What? Who am I really to do that?
Am fucking lilac Savannah. The only place and things I deserve is to be in the middle of somewhere and be the attention of everyone and everything.
Like a real lilac in the garden.
I head back to my room and change into a beautiful pink silk dress with some heels before I head out.
Now I am going to have a life of my own with the people that I would rather not be seen with under different circumstances.
But well people, I did mention under different circumstances.
"Charlotte, grab everyone, and let's get young and dumb girl," I say through my phone and I receive a lame-ass squeal from my so-called best friend.
"The usual?" She asks and I roll my eyes.
"Of course."
"And you will have everyone on your tab as always?" She asks again and I roll my eyes for the second time.
Broke selfish bitch.
"Yes c," she squeals again but I pull my phone away from my ear because she is being so loud and annoying to my eardrum.
"Let me spread the word."
"Do it quickly and meet me there," I say and hang the phone.
Samantha is a bitch for having me going out to drink this early but I know I will have to make sure she pays for the little show she pulled up in front of me when she left.
I sigh before I start the car and drive out of my family's property.
At least this country is also lame enough to not ask for IDs while going for a drink.
Something good coming from its shitty self.
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SAMANTHA LILY ADAMS
I know am getting naughtier and naughtier every passing day that I keep dating the most amazing beautiful man I have ever seen apart from Shawn Mendes.
But I think no girl out there can blame.
After our shower together we headed out for dinner.
We took it outdoors. Glancing at the view beside us.
This place is so beautiful, it always amazes me to get it in my head that it's in Rwanda.
Well, this brings me back to the person that said. True beauty relies upon the neglected.
That night, Kai at least doesn't put on a fight in us sharing a bed.
He holds me so close to him that I use his chest as my pillow.
"Do you usually sleep with night clothes on?" I ask and he doesn't move.
"Yeah. Is it a problem for you?" He asks.
"No, I thought I was being a bother to you," I say to him.
"You are not darling, never was and never will." I smile at his words and just like that. I allow myself to fall asleep in his arms with just the sound of his heart beating as my sleeping lullaby.
The next morning, am up alone in bed but I know my man is doing his morning yoga.
I head in the shower and as I come out Kai is in the room.
I smile up at him.
"You know I can easily get used to this?" I ask as I walk to him and he takes me in his arms.
He leans in and kisses me before I pull back and say.
"And I wouldn't have a problem with it." I chuckle because it's pretty funny how he doesn't know me yet.
I giggle in his arms before trying to pull away.
"Get in the shower, I will go find us something to eat." He kisses me on the lips again before he frees me from his arm.
"Get working for the role darling." He says and I frown.
"What role?"
"Wifey role." I laugh out at him.
"Oh, no way in hell Kai," I say to him and he stops walking to the bathroom and turns to smirk at me.
"We will see about that darling." I shake my head at him.
Is he seriously wanting to joke around by calling me names like that and telling me I will be doing chores for marriage?
I make my way out of the room and head to the living room.
I hear noise from the outside so I know Leila and Lucas are there.
The siblings are sitting on the porch with breakfast on a picnic mat in between them.
"Guys," I call them trying to get their attention because they are laughing at God knows what.
"There she comes," Leila says and I frown.
There I come.
"Guys, why are you having breakfast without waiting for us and of all places here?" Leila laughs some more before turning to me.
"What's wrong with here?" She asks with a frown which makes me frown too. when I see she doesn't see what is wrong with where they are.
She is crazy if she thinks my man is about to have breakfast from the floor.
There are so many beautiful places here to have breakfast, lunches, and suppers, which are not sitting on the floor of the porch of the house.
"It's so unsurprising that you guys are even siblings. Have fun with your breakfast on the floor."
"Hey, Samantha. It was Leila's weird idea." Lucas yells over me as I walk back inside the house and I roll my eyes.
"Yeah, whatever," I yell back and walk to the telephone in the living room to make an order for another breakfast for two.
I ordered it to be set at the back where and Kai likes it.
I go sit and he comes just in time as the staff are bringing food to the table.
I take my time appreciating him walking to me.
He is wearing orange shorts with a black long-sleeved men's t-shirt.
He smiles at me as he leans in to kiss me. "Where are the others?" He asks.
"They already had breakfast." He nods.
"So it's just the two of us. Me and my sexy underaged girlfriend." I feel butterflies feel me when he calls me sexy.
Am I really in his eyes?
"It's just the two of us," I confirm it for him. He reaches for my hand and kisses the back of it.
He keeps it in his big warm one as we have breakfast like we normally do, peaceful, and sweetly as we get to know one another much more to another level.
They day I asked Kai that we go to visit Gwiza because I miss her so much and because I want her to meet my friends.
He allows and we spent most of the day there.
Every time I meet with the gorilla girl, I come back feeling tired because boy. she takes me all over the place and then plays with me for a long.
That I feel the breath draining out of me.
I don't pull back because one, I love her so much, and second she is so cute and fun to turn away. And the love she shows me and showers me with once I see her. It's not something I can take lightly or easily ignore.
That night I feel good and so safe like am living a fantasy as I lay on Kai's hard chest.
I have my one arm tightened firmly around him while he is also on my back.
I held on to him tightly as I could feel the sleep take me over.
"What is it darling?" I guess he can feel that I am holding on to him like my life depends on him but I am worried that it's starting to depend on him.
Kai is becoming a piece of my life that I can't miss and still be able to live and sustain my life normally.
I hold on to him and say.
"Please Kai, please baby don't ever, never. Let me go away from you, not even under harsh circumstances." I don't know why i suddenly have that fear deep down in my pit.
It came when we confessed to one another last night that we were falling for one another.
I feel his lips on my forehead and it brings a rush of soothing in me.
"It's my vow and promise to you, sweetheart." He says and it brings me a smile. "I will always be by your side as long as you want me to."
He kisses me again on the forehead.
"Now Goodnight darling, I know you are tired."
"Goodnight," I mumble back to him and he kisses me again on the forehead.
I hold on to him tightly and fall asleep with a smile on my face.
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