'Oh, the future we dreamed of is fading to black.
Oh there is nothing more painful, nothing more painful.'
After we headed in the car, I knew I was not going to need to be home tonight.
I feel emotionally drained.
Gorillas are such rare animals for sure, they are the type of creatures that would make you want to be with them all your life.
One thing I noticed about them and got to learn today is the bond they share among them as a family.
They love one another so adorably like no other animal that I have ever seen.
We get back to the villa so late, when the sun has already set.
We walk in quietly because I want to lie down and just feel my emotions all over the place.
Kai walks me to the living room and sits me down on the sofa in there.
"I will order some quick dinner and request for the helicopter to take us back to the city." He says and turns to walk away but I reach for his hand.
"No, order for food but the helicopter don't bother, I want to stay the night with you." I want to be with him because apart from the new love I have developed for the gorillas, Kai is the other thing to me that is making me feel things I haven't figured out yet, so I feel like being with him would be my best option to calm my all over the place emotions.
Plus he promised to take me back to the gorillas tomorrow.
"What?" He asks and I frown.
"You don't want me to?" I ask back and it would kill me and break me down if he was to say yes.
I look up at him and watch as he brings his hand behind his head and scratches the back of his head.
"Where are you going to tell your parents that you are staying the night?" He asks.
"I already told them, am staying at Leila's."
"And it's fine with you to lie to them?" He asks and I look away.
'Will he feel great by eating me up with the guilt?'
I do not like lying to my parents because it's something I don't take much pleasure in.
"I don't Kai, but I want to be with you, is that a bad thing to want? Plus you promised me tomorrow we will see the gorillas again." I say trying to point out as many options as I can for him to see that we have to stay the night.
"We could always fly, it's a twenty-minute flight."
He says and I get on my feet and stare at him.
"You don't want to stay the night with me that badly?" I ask not being able to hide the hurt in my voice.
'Why is it he keeps neglecting my desires like they don't matter?'
He steps closer to me puts his both palms on my cheeks and brings my face to look up at him.
"I want to stay the night with you darling, but not at the cost of you lying to your parents baby." He says and I know he is right.
"So do you want me to tell them that I have a boyfriend and now I want to stay the night with him?" I ask and he looks away.
He tried to pull his hands away but I held them back with mine.
"Please don't feel bad about me lying to them, I know it's hard but am capable of doing so, so please do it for me and be too, because if you make me go home tonight, it's them or me. One of us will be feeling bad tonight." I say and he looks into my eyes again.
"It's you, baby, I can't feel great knowing I made you sad." He finally says and I smile.
"So we stay?" I ask excitedly with a hopeful smile on my face.
"As you wish baby." I squeal happily and do a little happy dance before I get on my tiptoes and kiss him.
"Oh my God thank you," I say as we pull away and he smiles.
"Don't thank me." He says and pulls my head to him and lays a sweet kiss on my forehead, then down my nose, and keeps going to both of my cheeks before he brings his lips to mine.
He kisses me a sweet beautiful kiss that makes my knees feel weaker but am grateful for the hold he has on my cheeks that helps me keep up with him because if not, I would be on the ground by now.
He pulls back and looks at me.
"I will order some dinner for us, what do you want?" I smile at him.
"Anything and everything," I say and he chuckles at me before he pulls away.
"What type of food is that?" I shrug as I wink at him.
"Tell them they will know what I meant."
"Okay." He says and it makes my smile grow bigger as I watch him walk around at the top of the fire pit for the telephone.
I stay behind smiling at myself before I remember something.
I walk to where Kai is pressing some order, he hears me turns his head, and raises his eyebrow in question.
He pulls the telephone down from his ear and asks.
"What do you want?"
I smile as I reply.
"Wine."
I watch as the look in his eyes instantly changes before he replies.
"No."
I puff my face and purse my lips as I say. "Please Kai, please." I hold my palms together and beg.
"One glass please, I promise it won't make me drunk but I want to let some steam out."
He still quirks his eyebrows at me.
"By drinking?"
"Please." I keep rubbing my palms together.
"No, you are not drinking while underaged on my watch." He says and just like that, he brings the telephone back on his ear and continues talking to whoever he is talking to.
"Fine, I will go and shower but tell whoever on the other side I want the table set outside where we have a view of the moon and stars," I say and turn my back dramatically on him and walk to one of the rooms that faces the living room to go have a shower.
I didn't have what to change into because we came with just what we were wearing.
I shower and just keep on wearing the bath towel.
I walk back to the living room and reach for my phone before I walk outside.
The place would look scary if I knew I didn't have company and at the top of that, the company that is my hard-worked, sexy boyfriend.
Kai is a toned man.
He worked out and his body was gracefully enough to prove it for him starting from his well-built chest, to his muscles and all down the abs and strong legs.
So I freely walk out to go look for a place where the moon is and it's where we've had breakfast from the last time we came here.
I walk to the grass where the table is set pull one chair from the table leave the other for my man and walk back to the side of the house and set the chair there.
I sit on it bring my legs up on it close to my chest and hold them by my arms.
I reach for my phone and go through some of the pictures that I took with the gorilla but more with Gwiza.
She is an amazing gorilla woman and I feel sad that I will have to leave her here.
She could be a great woman and make a great best friend If she was to be a human.
The time she saw me she clung on to me and touched me everywhere which I am going to say she is a one touchy gorilla.
We bonded and when she started moving, the tour guide explained she wanted to take me somewhere, and surprisingly as it surprised me she took me to her family.
She has a big dad, a mom, and a brother.
She stayed by my side and played with me in the trees but I don't have to feel bad about it because tomorrow I will see her again and her family.
I stare up at the sky wondering if she also sees the sky and how beautiful it is.
I click on the camera app on my phone and raise it at the sky to take a picture of the moon above the trees.
It's so beautiful and I wish Gwiza would appreciate it with me too.
I post the picture on my Instagram story with a caption.
'Wished, we all living creatures had a chance of seeing and appreciating the beauty within the world all together.'
I scroll through the app for some time before I get out and just play Shawn Mendes's song and just keep on appreciating the beauty in the surroundings around me.
It's on the second song that Kai comes to me.
He is also wearing a bath towel.
"Well, seems like you found the perfect place with the view of the moon you wanted." He says and I nod.
"Bring that table and your chair to sit on," I say to him and he nods.
"Yes, Your Highness." I shake my head with a smile on my face when he says that to me again.
'So much of him being a Royal.'
He comes over with a table before he goes back for the chair.
He sets it beside me and when sits down, I turn to look at him and ask.
"Who is your favorite artist?" He looks at me and smiles.
"That's a tough question." He says and I chuckle.
"You are kidding right?" He laughs too before he shakes his head.
"Unfortunately no."
"What?" I ask setting my legs down on the floor.
He nods his head and I shake mine.
"You are lying to me," I say and he shrugs.
"What would I get in lying? It's just that kind of entertainment is not my thing." He says and I realize I don't even know what his thing is.
"What's your thing then?"
"Books." He says and I try so hard to stop myself from rolling my eyes but I fail miserably.
He catches it and asks.
"Why roll your eyes."
"Because I think that's the last thing I think I would ever want to do."
"You don't love reading?" He asks and I nod my head with a smile on my face.
"That's a first." He says and I laugh.
"Is it your first time meeting someone who doesn't read?"
"You could say so." He says but something else just took my attention.
I clap my hands excitedly and cheerily when my favorite song by Shawn Mendes plays from my phone.
"This one is my favorite," I say to him and he just looks at me.
"But it's a sad song." He nods his head but I don't think he gets it.
Am going to have to admit too because this is my first also meeting someone who doesn't have a favorite song or artist.
"Oh, that is my favorite part in this song," I say and I sing the part with Shawn.
'Oh, the future we dreamed of is fading to black.
Oh, there is nothing more painful, nothing more painful.'
I sing the part looking at him but I wish nothing being sung in this song to us.
I love it because it does reach my soul but it's a sad song that I wouldn't wish what be sung to anyone.
"It is a sad song." He says but before I reply there is a knock on the door.
"I will get it." He stands up and goes back inside while I pull my legs back up to my chest and keep singing the song playing on my phone while staring at the sky.
Kai comes back not long with a cart of food.
He puts the plates of food on the table and I start smiling when I see him set the wine glasses on the table.
"You ordered me some wine?" He looks at me and just shakes his head.
"It's a non-alcoholic champagne." I feel bad but well. "It's better than water," I say a little sadly and he shakes his head.
"How do you even love wine when you are underage and don't drink?"
He pours some champagne into the glasses and sets the bottle back down before he sits down.
We start digging in our food and I smile. "Well, it's a very funny and long story."
"Well, we have the whole night." He says and I smile back shyly. "It's embarrassing."
"Come on, it can't be that bad." He pushes and I keep the smile on my face as I say.
"Am telling you only because I like you a lot."
"Lucky me."
"Shut up," I say slapping him lightly on his shoulder. He just grins at me.
"So dad has been in the politics since I and my siblings were little, well before we were even born I guess. So you know the political family gatherings happening now and then?" I ask and he nods.
I smile at him as I keep going on.
"Dad used to hold those types of gatherings a lot, you know when you want to increase connections in there and so me and my sibling and the other kids of the people that would come, we would sneak some alcoholic drinks and did some gathering of our own pretending we were some royalties."
"You are not saying the truth right?" He asks and I smile.
"That is not the worst part."
He nods his head.
"Am all ears."
"One time, one kid got drunk and when his parents asked him how he got in possession of alcoholic drinks he sold us out."
"What did your parents do?"
I laugh remembering how scared we all were at that time.
"Yeah well, they grounded us and sent us to the countryside to our grandparents and we spent two years there." He shakes his head.
"Your parents are merciful." He says and I nod.
"Yeah, we too expected the worst."
"How old were you then?"
"Nine." He shakes his head unbelievably.
"So you've loved wine since then?"
I nod my head.
"Yeah, other alcoholic drinks were too tasteless or too strong for me," I say and he smiles.
"Sorry then, you won't be drinking or throwing yourself another political gathering party under my watch."
I smiled up at him shaking my head at once because it was not like I expected something else.
We have a beautiful dinner out there, making small talks about us and our past with Shawn Mendes' songs playing in the back.
The night becomes one of the first nights with Kai that I don't want to ever forget.
It becomes the first night we get to bond like never and get to know each other much more and much better.
We finish eating up and take our talks to the bedroom.
I find myself putting up a big fight when Kai tries to say we get different rooms.
I win him up with an excuse that I can't sleep alone, I always sleep with my sister or brother at home for him to finally allow me to share a room with him.
He tries again going for the floor but I put up another fight saying I can't fall asleep when I don't cuddle and he again falls for it.
We change into the night clothes he was wise enough to order for us before we get in bed.
He pulls me closer to him and rests his arm on my waist and the other on my back while I use his chest as a pillow.
Our legs are tangled in one another and the feeling is way past mutual.
I would have liked to keep talking to him and get to know him more but I felt tired and suddenly fell asleep in his arms with nothing but a smile on my lips because,
A life like this I would never want to wake up from it.
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