'Soon, all will be clear that it was in chaos and everything was led by miscommunication.'
"Dad I need my car?"I say the moment I enter the house after being dropped off by Kai.
I find the living room empty so I head to the kitchen.
"Dad I need my car?" They are all sitting at the dining table with chicken wings, chips with drinks. They turn to look at me.
"Well glad of you to finally join us." I stare at him not believing it is my dad who is being sarcastic.
I shake my head unbelievably as I walk to take a seat on my side of the table.
"Glad that you are home sweetheart. Wait for me and I will bring you a plate." I smile at my mother as she stands up and goes to get me a plate.
"Dad, I need to get my car, I can't depend on that driver because our schedule doesn't meet at all, and let's not consider the fact that I have to share him with my siblings."
"Lily Samantha I heard you loud and clear, you can use your mother's for now till I get you another one."
I give him a big smile because I seriously thought it was going to take me more convincing and more pleading, but damn I didn't even consider my convincing would get him to agree but am not at all complaining about this version of him.
It's like we are back to the days when I was eight and all it took was for me to get the words out of my mouth and my father was in action already. "Thank you, Dad!" I move myself forward and kiss him on the cheek. Our mom comes back with a box of chicken wings and chips for me too. "I heard something that was about me, What was it about?" She asks looking at our father as she sits back at her usual seat.
"Am just lending Lily Samantha your car darling." She turns to look at me and I smile innocently at her. "Ohh!" She forms an O shape with her lips.
"Darling, you can always call me when you need to go somewhere or call Remi?" Our dad tells her and she nods uncaringly about that.
"Actually before I forget I have something I wanted to talk to you but I will tell you when we are alone." Our Dad nods.
We continued dining like usual, I remember that today my sister didn't go to school because she wasn't feeling well. I turn to look at her and she looks kind of better than how she looked in the morning but she is way quiet and so does anyone.
We finish eating and we head to our rooms leaving Mom and Dad to clean up I guess we are all providing them with the privacy that our mom asked for, to tell something our father.
I head to my room and take a quick shower because I need to talk to Savannah, I can't let her deal with whatever she is going through alone not when we've shared a womb nor is she going to share her burdens alone.
I change into my PJs and put on my Duffy Stockings before walking out of my room and heading to hers.
Her room is the first room that is located at the end of the stairs, before I knock I catch voices of my mom and dad arguing.
"Barney you need to understand that this is the well-being of my child and I will not be risking it at any cost!" I hear my mother's raging voice.
"Ivy, you can't just leave me and the children alone? I mean we haven't even tried the doctors here?" Silence is what follows before I hear something shattering on the floor. I flinch but before I get caught eavesdropping, I open Savannah's room door and get in quickly. Am glad for the fact that the door wasn't locked because she usually keeps it locked.
"Samantha what the hell?" I silence her by holding my index finger on my lips to have her calm down. I got on her bed she was lying on facing the side.
"Don't shout!" I hear footsteps and I think it's my mother's or my father's, I don't know who walked away from the other, they reach the end of the stairs. And there is silence for some time, am still holding my index finger on my lips to shush Savannah from making any sound before whoever is on the stairs walks into Savannah's room.
The door opens. "Oh you are together, I was checking to see if you are feeling alright lilac Savannah?" She says while leaning on the door frame of Savannah's room and I turn to my sister who is nodding her head with a smile.
I look back at my mother and she smiles at me too. "Okay great, remember to sleep earlier tomorrow you have classes."
"We are fine mom, it's just a story from school I was sharing with Savannah. Are you okay though? And how is my new favorite sibling doing in there?" She smiles as she puts both hands on her stomach with a grin on her lips.
"Good but I haven't had an appointment yet with the doctor, so I don't know for sure?" I nod understandingly.
"Alright girls, I will leave you two to do your thing and check on your brother too." I blow her a kiss.
"I love you, mom! Goodnight." She comes to us and kisses both of us on our foreheads.
"I love you so much girls, goodnight!" She turns and walks out of the room, I hear as she walks down the hallway maybe to Yarrow's room.
"Sam? What the hell was that? What are you even doing in my room?" I sigh looking at Savannah, I reach forward for her hands and take them in mine.
"Sav are you alright?" She nods her head. I look in her eyes trying to find the evidence that she is lying because I am feeling it. I don't know if it's me who is being paranoid but I've heard that some twins feel each other's worries, and somehow that's what I am feeling now. I am feeling the feeling of unsettled because I feel like Savannah is not settled either.
"Sav, we've always shared everything, right? Good or bad we are always there for each other?" She nods looking at the side. "Why do I feel like you are lying to me then?" She sighs and pulls her hands away from mine as she stands up and goes to stand beside the floor to the ceiling window of her room and it makes me more worried.
Before I stand up and walk beside where she is the door of her room jerks open. "Girls?"
We turn to our father. "Everything alright?" We nod and he smiles.
"Goodnight!"
"Goodnight Dad!" We say together and he nods before turning on his heel and walking out, closing the door silently behind him.
"What is going on with this family seriously?" I look at Savannah before getting up from her bed and going to stand in front of her.
"Sav, I think Mom and Dad are having a disagreement about how Mom wants to leave us, I mean I don't know what's going on well because I had them argue about that on my way here and that's what I was able to catch. Now your turn Savannah. What is it? You know you can talk to me? This isn't like you at all?" She sighs and turns to stare at the lights of the houses of the other estate we live in.
"Sam, I have no problem. Last Sunday I didn't get a good night's sleep that's all," I feel heartbroken by that but I do not show it to her.
"How are things with Damien?"
"We broke up when he heard I was moving," I nod but am not willing to let it go.
"Is it about Leila's brother?"
She turns to pass me a warning look which I catch in her eyes before she moves past me again to go sit on her bed.
"You mean Lucas?" I nod at that because I don't even know if Lucas it's who am talking about but I will just go with the flow.
"The fuck is this Samantha?! Am not up for your stupid investigation or interrogation or whatever this is, look if you have a crush on him then go and fuck him and leave me alone because I do not fucking care." She snaps at me and it makes me flinch but more than that it hurts me like a bitch deep down in my feelings because this is the first time she's talked to me like this.
I look down at my feet hurt by her words. "Goodnight Savannah," I say before I get out of her room quickly as if the room was on fire.
I go to mine and tug my body in my bed under the duvet to mute whatever is going on to me and this family.
I feel like crying but I don't know what to do because I do not want it, I mean why would I? I've done nothing wrong.
Mom leaving us as I heard it's not my fault, Savannah snapping at me while I am trying to be there for her and be present in her life is not my fault but I don't know why it's crushing my emotions sadly.
She thinks I would seriously dream of having a crush on a guy she likes even if I am not sure if she liked him, I will never have myself consider developing feelings for the guy. And above all she wants me to go fuck him.
I let the tears roll down from my eyes and I cry for everyone and everything that is going on, I cry till I fall asleep and wake up the next morning with my alarm ringing.
I get ready for school more quickly than usual and remembering the fact that I have my ride makes me hurry even more, am still hurt from the conversation I had last night with my sister.
Am not bringing myself to admit to the fact that she snapped at me like that, because never in our whole life did we get mad at each other like that, and remembering that I was only making sure that she was fine hurts me even more because I don't think I have ever given her any reasons to not trust me about her life.
I finish getting ready for school and walk downstairs to the kitchen and there is only mom who is making breakfast. "Mom?" I call as I reach for the fridge to get a bottle of sparkled water.
"Yes, honey." She says but maintains her focus on what she is making in front of her.
"Am going to head out!" She turns to look at me.
"This earlier? Why don't you wait for others as you will be having breakfast?" I shake my head but realize she is not even seeing.
"No Mom I have an assignment to finish plus I don't feel hungry, so I need to head out earlier." She nods her head. I walk to her and plant a kiss on her cheek.
"Eh, Lily Samantha the car keys are there beside the door, please be careful Samantha, and do not tire yourself much. Love you!!" I try not to laugh at my mother because it's not like it's my first time driving. Me and Savannah used to have our cars back in America.
"I know Mom, love you too bye. Take care of yourself and my favorite sibling." I yell heading outside of the house. I walk into the small garage of the house walk into my mom's car and get in the driver's seat. Am driving out of the garage when Yarrow pops out of nowhere right in front of the car, Almost knocking him out.
I yell and curse out at him as I open the car door getting out to share a piece of my mind with him in this beautiful morning.
"For fuck's sake Simmons, I could have run you over! What the fuck were you thinking jumping in a driving car?" He winks at me and I groan.
"The fuck were you thinking saying that I am not your favorite sibling. Do you have the nerve to repeat what you just said to Mom right here in front of my face?" I stand right there leaning on the car feeling disbelief run all over me. 'Did her seriously jump in a driving car because he was pissed at what I just said?'
I look at Simmons with my hands on my waist questioning myself as to what kind of piece, is this guy made from.
"Get the fuck out of my way?" Instead of doing what I am saying, he crosses to the passenger door opens the door of the car, and gets in, making himself comfortable in the seat.
I stare at him speechlessly but what else can I do?
I get back in my seat as if I am alone in my car, I connect to the GPS to get to our school before driving away from home.
The drive to the school is quiet because am way pissed off and if I dare try to open my mouth to say something to him, I know it can lead me to jump on his neck and I know my fellow black students don't want to witness the scene of a white girl struggling his white brother in this morning.
We reach the school campus because it's not a long drive from home, it's a fifteen-minute drive. I get out of the car and so does Yarrow, who leaves but not before closing the passenger door with a bang.
I stay behind for some minutes looking at his figure disappearing into the big doors of the school. I mean why is he even angry at me? Him being my favorite what's the big deal in all that?
I prevent myself from going any further into it and let it be as it is, it's not like he is the only one who has a problem with me now.
I keep my car keys in my school bag and head to the doors of the school.
The school time goes by in a blink because I spend most of the free periods on the timetable in the library, not only I am escaping from Savannah, am also escaping from Yarrow. I feel like the drama he caused me in the morning is enough for me for a day and he better has his ass out of his head by the time we meet because I won't be sparing him another second if he is still playing dumb.
Above all that, I also have Lucas. Leila's brother is on the list of the people I am avoiding today because I know the presence means nothing more than trouble but of course, as the saying that states 'think of the devil and you will see the devil himself,' I see him making his way beside the bookshelves and walking over to where I am sitting with a stupid grin on his face.
"Samantha? Or Savannah?" I just glare at him without saying anything back to him. The fuck does he want from me? Whatever sick plans he is making in his stupid head, he better get me out of it because I am not interested at all.
He pulls the chair that is in front of me and takes a seat on it. "Okay by the glare you are sending me, I will just go with Samantha, and trust me I know you are her." I just sit there and pretend like he is not there and keep on going through my book nonetheless.
"Hey, stop ignoring me miss, someone is talking to you." I ignore that too and keep on reading though I can't focus I can at least pretend to.
"I thought twins were supposed to act the same as they look the same but with your case, are you two even real twins?" I raise my eyes to glare at him but before I say something to him the bell rings, I feel like kissing the ground because am finally getting away from this asshole.
I pack quickly my books in my bag and take the one I was using back to the bookshelf where it belongs and head outside, I reach the hallway and look behind me to see if he is behind me but good thing he is not, it's just a bunch of other kids that were in the library and I catch no figure of him anywhere.
I walk out of the school doors without bouncing in any of the figures that I was avoiding the whole day and walk to my car. I almost want to turn around and disappear but when I realize it's my damn car, I wear a dark look on my face and head to the driver's side.
I don't say anything to him as I pretend not to notice his stupid figure leaning on the passenger door and get in the car, am about to lock the doors quickly inside but the devil himself is fast as a flash because before I press the lock button, he already turned around and opening the passenger door.
He gets in and I watch as he throws his bag pack in the back seat before pulling his seat belt. "For God's sake boy, am not your driver! Get the hell out of my car."
"She finally knows how to speak, look if you had spoken to me earlier I really wouldn't be playing clingy now."
'What? He can't be here to keep on annoying me just because I ignored him, is he?'
He pulls his cell phone from his jeans pocket and I purse my lips, I thought phones weren't allowed on the school campus.
"My sister is late Samantha and I figured you were her friend so it's not a big deal helping her brother," I turn my head to the wheel and breathe in and out, slowly processing and cooling myself down before I bust out like an atomic bomb.
"I have other things to take care of....., what the fuck are your names anyway?" I watch as he turns around to me with a smirk on his lips.
"Rwema." I frown because I don't think I can spell that correctly.
I look at him as he is busy chatting on his phone. "What's that? Don't you have an English or French name?"
"It's Lucas,"
I sigh gladly. "Lucas, I know you guys helped me out the first time we were stuck here but I seriously don't have time to get you at your house."
"I don't live far from here and I think it can be the best opportunity for you to see where Leila lives too," What's wrong with this guy's head?
He is busy texting on his phone, he is not even making any sense sitting here. I mean if I had no car was he not going to get home, yes? They helped me and Savannah in our crisis and it's not like am trying to leave him here but he can take a cab or something to go to his home, for God's sake this is his country, not mine.
'You can hurry off and take him before you get late at work for something you know you can't change."
I feel like screaming because I am frustrated.
"Fill in your direction on the GPS and let's hurry I need to get somewhere else," I say as I start the car and drive out of the school.
He locates his house on the car GPS and I take him there, am glad it's not far from the school as he mentioned and it's even nearer the embassy as the GPS shows me. "Thank you hon i owe you." He says while pulling his seatbelt off, he grabs his bag from the back seat and pauses to look at me before he gets out. "What?" I ask him.
He leans into me and I lose my senses thinking for a moment as I wonder what he might be going to do, I start panicking that he is about to steal my first damn kiss and am frozen to stop him but when I feel his lips on my cheek, from the left cheek to the right, to the left cheek again. I breathe out a sigh of relief. I don't know what I would have done if he were to kiss me on my lips.
He pulls away with a grin on his face that I don't know where it is coming from.
"That's our tradition, to express that we are glad and I am for the ride," I nod understandingly still dazed by his sudden actions.
"You kiss each one's cheeks thrice?!" He opens the passenger door.
"You just touch your cheeks with the other person's cheeks together thrice but in my perspective, I touch my lips with cheeks," I want to laugh because he is stupid.
I mean what kind of a person makes their perspective in a tradition?
I look at his proud face and I want to smile but I hold the smile from making its way to my lips because something tells me that this guy is trouble and that's the last thing I want to add to my list for this one year in Africa.
"Bye Lucas," I say to him to dismiss him and he nods his head with a smirk on his lips.
"But if you want I can introduce you to more traditional cultures of this country and trust me you may find some interesting like the touching cheeks." I finally let out a chuckle.
"Lucas, I wasn't impressed in case you are wondering."
"Touché," he grins touching his chest just above his heart dramatically. "Next time I need to work harder then," I shake my head at him.
"Bye Lucas and there is no next time FYI."
"We will see about that Samantha." He closes the car door and I drive away.
I drive away wondering what the hell was that.
I just chatted and flirted with Lucas the guy who hurt my sister and who I think was the cause of her snapping at me last night when I was checking on her and I was all smiling here with him.
He was about to kiss me and I was about to let it be. Since when have I been dirty to my sister?
Samantha Lily Adams, What is Rwanda bringing to you seriously?
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