Jace:
'I hope that Cam isn't mad I've known him for so long. I know Scar is like a daughter to him, Fuck what am I thinking it will all be fine. He knows that he can trust me to always take care of and look out for Scar.' About 15 minutes from the house my phone starts to ring, I half expect it to be Scar to tell me how it went. However, when I look at my phone, I notice that it is actually Cam calling. 'Shit he must be mad I usually get a text from him never a call.'
"Hey Cam, I take it that Scar told you everything...."
"Jace? Dude Scarlet is really hurt. She...." And just like that my world crashes down around me. 'What the hell does he mean that she is really hurt?' I can't form any other coherent thoughts all I can do is feel as if my whole world is gone.
"Where is she? Where are you? I'm 15 minutes from your place." 'Why does this have to happen to her? She is so good. Haven't they lost enough already?' I hold in a deep sob I can feel ripping a hole through me.
"At the hospital... *sobs* Dude can you please come pick me up I can't even drive right now." 'I can completely understand that.' The hole I can feel in my chest and the pure raw feeling of even breathing about pulls the sob from my chest. 'No stay strong Cam doesn't need to be strong for you too.'
"I am on my way." I hang up my phone and I start driving faster to get Cam and get to the hospital to check on Scar. My phone drops from my hand to the seat and I can feel the tears streaming down my face as I feel more and more helpless. 'She is my whole world please don't take her from me now.' A sob rips through me and I feel as though my chest is on fire and I feel as though I may actually be dead, only I know better than that because I can't die.
Just as I pull up to the Denny's I see Cam and he looks worse than I feel, I wipe my face and compose myself so that I can hold strong for Cam because he needs me now. I screech to a halt right in front of him just long enough for him to jump into my truck. I turn the truck around getting ready to haul ass to the hospital when I see it...Beast is completely totaled...her riding days are over. Scar loved that bike and I already know that it was her fathers and I know that she will be devastated when she sees it again. 'She will see it again, she will see Cam again, she will see Stella again, and I sure as hell will see here again healthy beautiful and smiling.'
I feel sick, the condition of the bike tells me that the condition of Scarlet could be much worse. I know that she was wearing a helmet because she always has. I know that she is smart, but this clearly could not have been her fault she is always so careful. 'Fuck she better be ok. I should have stayed with her. Had I been with her or even just driven her here then this may not have ever happened. I should have just called into work and stayed with her. for crying out loud I woke up next to her this morning and was late for work that should have been a sign.' I start to speed again; I need to know that she is ok. We don't even know if she is alive at this point.
"They wouldn't tell me anything. All they said is that she has been hit by a drunk driver. I mean who the hell is drunk and driving this early in the morning!" He starts to sob again; I have officially gone numb. I reach over and squeeze his hand in an attempt to calm him. I try to speak and tell him that everything is going to be ok, but I can't find my voice and I won't lie to my lifelong friend. We don't know if she is ok or even alive at this point again, I open my mouth to try and give him some comforting words, but nothing comes out. 'Please let her be ok. Please let her survive this and let her be healthy I can't live without her, and I know that Cam can't lose the last of his family I don't think that he would survive that. She is all that he has left...she is too young.'
We get to the hospital quickly both of us quiet now, I can feel his anxiety as potent as my own. I am so scared of what the doctor will say to us, I can only stay strong so long and depending on what the doctor says I feel like I may just crumple and shatter on the floor. I pick the closest parking spot and quickly park; we both jump out of my truck and sprint into the emergency room entrance. Before I can go to the nurse's station and ask about Scarlet, I see Cam has beat me there and he is practically screaming at the nurse.
"I need help! Please I need help." He is pleading with the nurse, and I can feel the pain he is in just by the sound of his voice, 'Maybe I will have enough of my angel power I can heal her, please let me have enough to make her be ok.' The nurse at the desk looks at us startled at the intensity of Cam's voice.
"What can I do for y'all?" She first looks at me and then at Cam. I can see him visibly shaken from this interaction.
"I am Camerone Williams I am looking for Scarlet Williams. She is my baby sister, and I am her only family. She was in a motorcycle accident just a bout 30 minutes ago. Where is she? Is she ok? Please!" Cam is crumbling I know he is close to just falling to the floor, I put my arm around his waist and practically carry him to a chair and sit him down. I walk back to the nurse with an apologetic look on my face, "I am sorry for Camerone, he has practically raised her. Do you know where we can find out some information on her?" I say this calmly trying to keep my voice from wavering and showing how bad this is hurting me, I must stay strong for the both of them. I will crumble when I am alone, I have to be strong for him right now.
The nurse checks in her computer and the minutes feel like they are more like hours rather than just a few minutes as I wait patiently for the nurse to give me any kind of hope. 'Please Baby Girl fight my love be ok keep yourself alive. I am so sorry that I wasn't there my love I should have been there for you.' I feel the lump in my throat growing and I can barely breath, I try to swallow the lump that is growing ever bigger in my throat. My knees begin to wobble, and I feel as though they could fail me at any moment, I lock my knees in place and I try to stand strong. 'God please if you can hear me, save her I will do anything. I'll come back to work I will do whatever you say just please heal her and make sure that she is ok. I can't live without her; Cam needs her just as much as I do. I am lost please let her be ok.'
"She is upstairs, they took her straight to the ICU to check on her vitals and to run some tests. For now, she will be under constant observation till we know how bad her injuries are. I am so sorry for the scare. She is in room 1910 she is on floor 3, you can take the elevators up to the third floor. There will be double doors and a doorbell, ring the doorbell and the nurses will ask who you are there to see and who you are to them, they will let you in. Best of luck to y'all, I hope that she recovers quickly." She gives me a sincere smile.
My heart sinks further in my chest, the lump in my throat threatens to suffocate me, and I can feel a single tear run down my face. I quickly wipe it away before I turn to go help get Cam upstairs to see Scarlet. I help Cam up from the chair and I we start moving towards the elevator, Cam stops mid step and looks at me with a look of horror on his face, "No! Please no. Not the morgue I can't go through that again. I can't see her like I saw mom and dad. He voice sounds as if he has hands wrapped tightly around his throat his words are barely above a whisper.
"Breath Cam, the nurse said that she is alive, have hope Cam. We aren't going to the morgue we are going to the third floor to the ICU. They are still running testes to see just how sever her injuries are. She is under constant observation to make sure that she is completely safe." I practically choke on every word as they fall out of my mouth. The lump in my throat is so big that I feel as though I cannot breathe. The elevator dings to signal we have made it to the third floor. Right away I see the double doors and I hit the doorbell and the nurse comes over the intercom and asks who we are here to see, "We are here to see Scarlet Williams. I am Jace and this is her brother Camerone."
The nurses inform us that only one of us can be in the room at a time, she also informs us that we shouldn't make a lot of noise because if she has a head injury that noise can disrupt the healing process and could possibly make the head injury worse. I look over at Cam and see that he is as pale as a ghost and looks as if he will collapse at any moment. "Jace...I'm not ready...I can't do it. I need you to see her first, that way you can help to prepare me for what I will see when I go in... I don't know if she told you before the accident...I'm not mad about you guys being together. Honestly, I am relieved that she chose you. I know that you will always keep her safe...I feel so responsible for her being here I didn't come out right away she said she was going to meet me at the house and when I did come out all I could hear was screaming and I looked up in time so see her laying on the ground and paramedics putting her in the ambulance." He shakes his head in frustration.
"Cam don't you dare blame yourself. This is not your fault, hell it's not her fault either. The stupid fucktard who hit her is at fault, I don't know where he is, and I don't think that it would even be smart for me to know where the hell he is at." Deep down I know that I want to find him, and I want to do some serious damage, but I know that I can't do that because if I do, I may go to jail, and I won't be able to protect her from there. I feel a ping of guilt, funny that I can tell Cam that it's not his fault and I know that it isn't my fault either, but I still blame myself. I sigh in frustration; I need to see her with my own eyes to know that she is alive.
My breath hitches in my chest and my eyes grow blurry with tears, I hug Cam. I don't know if I needed the hug more if I was hugging him to comfort him, but I know that it was healing for the both of us. After all we both love Scarlet, and we are both very emotional with the current situation. I pull back from the hug and leave him in the small, secluded waiting room as I head to her room...the curtain is closed leaving me guessing of just how damage is done. I am thankful for the curtain for I know that when I go inside, I can close it and let my emotions out and just be there with her with no one's eyes to see.
I take a deep breath to steady myself and I push myself to open the door. Baby steps, once the sliding door is open, I practically hold my breath as I grab the curtain and gently slide it open as well. Step inside the room and quickly turn to face the door and breathe deeply as I pull the door and curtain closed. I slowly turn to look at my Angel lying motionless in the hospital bed. I finally force myself to turn and look at her, in the moment when my eyes finally take in her condition, I feel so many emotions...relief she is alive, sadness because there are so many tubes and sensors crowding her. Guilt because I should have been there to protect her.
My heart sinks to the pit in my stomach, all the air I was holding in my lungs hisses out from between my teeth as if I have just been punched in the chest knocking the wind out of me. I hit my knees no longer able to hold myself up in this moment I feel so defeated I can't breathe I can't see through the tears running down my face, my hands are shaking as I try to get myself up off the floor to go to her, but I can't pull myself up off of the floor.
"Fuck...*gasp* my Angel..." Another sob rips through my chest, "I am so sorry my love...*gasp* I should have been there to protect you..."