Camerone:
We are back at the hospital with Scarlet, 'How could this happen to me again?' I look at Scarlet and see not the women she has become but the fragile little sister that I raised. I sigh sadly not able to understand why this happened, the very same thing that took our parents away damn near took away the only family that I have left. I think of what Jace said, 'I tried to heal her, but I can't, I'm a fallen angel now I don't have the powers I once did.' I pounder that sentence a little longer, 'Huh Angels? Maybe mom and dad were able to protect her and maybe that is why she is still alive. I mean if Jace can be a fallen angel and could heal people, and even force thoughts into other people's minds then maybe.... just maybe mom and dad can be angels protecting us. Crazier things have happened.' I look at Scarlet again, I feel anguish, pain, sadness, and hope all at once.
I remember one of the days before my parents' fatal accident, Scarlet was so little, and I was so mean to her.
"Bubba, Bubba tea party? Pwease Bubba? Mommy made cookies, she said that we could have them at our tea part!" Scarlet claps her chubby dimpled hands together excitedly with the cutest smile on her face.
"Go away Scarlet, get out of my room." I push her out of my room and turn on my tv. "I don't want to be a part of your stupid tea party. Go find someone else." I know she is still looking at me, so I turn to face her, she has her lip jutted out and silent tears running down her face, I feel guilty for a second, either way I slam my door in her face. I hear her start sobbing ad running away from my room. I feel even more guilty.
I know that she went to tell our mom and I quietly tiptoed down the hall trying to hear what she is saying.
I hear my mother's voice soothing her, "It's ok Scar bug, Bubba is a little grumpy. Here we will have our own tea party. How does that sound?" I can hear Scarlet whimper,"Mhmmm mommy. And we can still has cookies with our tea party?" Mom chuckles, "Of course we can have cookies." I go back to my room and working on my homework. At least this way I won't get in too much trouble.
I hear a knock on my door, and I already know it's my mom and dad. "Come in." My dad enters first and then my mom, they both sit on my bed. My father is the first to speak, "Cam I understand that you are older than Scarlet, but she really looks up to you. I seem to remember a time not so long ago when she was a baby, you would spend all day with her. Helping mom with her bottles and throwing away her dirty diapers. You would even take naps with her, I know that you are older now, but she loves you very much, you're her best friend not just her older brother." I nod my head in agreement along with my mother.
Now it's my mother's turn to speak, I will never forget her words, they will stick with me for the rest of my days. "My sweet Cam. I know that as the older child that sometimes you need your space, but your father said she does look up to you. One day a very long time from now she will be all that you have. Daddy and I won't live forever, and she will need you more than ever. Just please my sweet boy, keep in mind that she doesn't know what it means when Bubba needs space." She kisses my forehead gently.
"I'm sorry mom and dad, I never thought of it that way." I look at my hands and I know what I need to do. My mother speaks once again in her sweet as honey tone, "We love you Cam. You and your sister are our miracles, you and your sister mean more to us then anything in this world. You guys have given us so much to be thankful for in this lifetime." My parents go to leave my room, "I love you mom and dad." My mother and father smile at me as they leave my room.
I walk to my sister's room; she is at her little table drawing. I look over her shoulder to see that she is drawing our family in stick figures, in the picture she is holding my hand. "Scar Bug" I kneel down beside her, "I'm sorry sissy. Can we have a tea party tomorrow?" She looks at me with her big, beautiful hazel eyes with their mystic purple flakes.
"Yay! Bubba wants to have a tea party with me!" She has a smile from ear to ear and I know then that she has forgiven me for being mean to her.
The nurse comes into her room to check on Scar's machines pulling me from the distant memory and my mother's words. She does a quick check and leaves the room. "Come on Scar Bug open your mystic eyes. Let's have a tea party baby sister." I rub her hand willing her to pull of this.
I stand up and pace the small room for a moment lost in thought of my mother's words, 'Mother never knew that her words would come true so soon after she said them, she couldn't have known...I need to get out of this room.' I feel as if the room is starting to close in around me. The nurse comes in again I don't even know how long I have been pacing the room for. She distracts me again, "I'm really sorry that she didn't wake up today, Cam. Unfortunately visiting hours are over and it's time for you to go home." She looks at me with sadness. I had hoped that none of my coworkers would ever see any of this. Sarah is a great person, but I don't want anyone unknown to my special situation to be this close.
"Thank you, Sarah. It's ok I am just ready to have this nightmare behind us. Anyways have a goodnight." I look at my baby sister again still feeling the anguish knowing that she still won't be coming home with us again tonight. That makes two nights now that she has been stuck here and I am sure another night of no sleep. "Be safe Scar Bug we will be back tomorrow morning, till then keep fighting. I love you." I walk out to the waiting room where Jace is sleeping, 'I suppose he didn't get much sleep last night either.'
"Hey Jace wake up man it's time to get going. The sooner that we get going the sooner that we can come back. I really hope that she will finally wake up tomorrow, the walls are starting to come down around me and I am starting to feel as though I am suffocating." Jace looks at me with a knowing look as if he is able to completely understand the feeling, considering that he is also going through this with me. He gets up from the waiting room chair and we slowly make our way out to my car quietly as we are both far from here in much better memories.
"You look like you have seen a ghost...You ok dude?" Jace looks exhausted and concerned all at once.
"Ya, I suppose I am doing ok. I have just been reminiscing of everything that has ever happened. Hell, I just was remembering when my mother basically predicted the future. To this day her words still haunt me. Either way we should probably eat something...McDonalds good for you?" I look at him patiently as I turn on my car. I know that I am not hungry but either way we need to keep our bodies mostly healthy.
"McDonalds is fine. I'm not to hungry. I'll just take a McChicken and some fries, honestly, I feel like death which I know that you understand. We need her back and healthy I can't take this anymore I feel like she is slipping through my fingers and there is absolutely nothing that I can do about it, and I can't lose her." Jace has a tormented look on his face with his confession. He has kept himself so well put together; I didn't see just how badly this was affecting him. I didn't realize that he was feeling the very way that I am in this situation.
"I know the feeling all too well. Hopefully we will have her back safe and sound." I order our food and we sit in the parking lot not speaking and eat our food with no emotion whatsoever. I begin to drive home, and I notice a tear slide down Jace's cheek and he does nothing to hide it, he doesn't even wipe it away he just lets it fall. He looks straight ahead as we make our way to my house for another sleepless night.