I woke up feeling nauseous so I hurried to the bathroom. When I got there I immediately knelt down and there nausea. I felt like I was dizzy so I massaged my forehead first. The pain made me close my eyes because my stomach seemed to be turning upside down.
"What is happening to me?" I irritated question to myself.
I was held in my mouth as if I would feel nauseous again.
"Shit!" I whispered.
I covered my mouth and stood up but I hadn't stood up yet when I almost fell down. It's good that I'm holding on to the wall. I looked at myself in the mirror.
My eyes have big eyebags and my face is lifeless. I was also dizzy. I sighed weakly and took a shower.
I feel different now, and now I feel dizzy and nauseous again. I don't even remember that I ate anything yesterday that would hurt my stomach.
I swallowed and adjusted myself. I did my morning routine and then I packed my clothes. I don't want to stay here long or I might not be able to cope and become vulnerable. I love him, but I'm tired. I was tired of loving him over and over again, but he always feel me nothing and useless woman living here in the earth. I'd better just stay away. I had better stay away from them. Because first of all I feel I am the only obstacle to their romance. I'm stuck in their lives so it's better to just stay away than look like a fool to stay here. Maybe I can forget him too. I can ignore him as much as he does me. Maybe so, this is right. Three years of making stupid of him was enough.
I sat down on my bed and closed my eyes bitterly. I did not notice that I was crying already. I laughed softly and wiped the tears that kept flowing down my cheeks.
I promise, this will be my last cry. That's enough, I'm tired. My eyes are tired of tears every time I see him happier with others, every time he shows me that I have no right to love him. Maybe, he can't really love me. Maybe it's hard to love me.
I laughed and looked up. I sighed weakly and continued packing my things. But I quickly stood up as I felt like I was going to be nauseous again.
"Fuck!" I muttered weakly.
I feel really bad. I don't seem to feel like moving right now. I was also drowsy, and dizzy.
I sighed weakly and looked in the mirror. I closed my eyes tightly and calmed myself. When I felt better, I went out to the bathroom and picked up my cellphone. I dialed the number I wanted to call.
Why do I feel something bad is going to happen today? I feel like someone will try on my life.
I tightened my grip on my cellphone because of my thoughts. I feel that my predictions that something bad will happen today are true. It is known that only three ring, have already answered the call.
"Yes?" he wondered.
I smiled because it was only three years ago that I heard his voice again.
"I miss you." I said smiling.
I miss him, I miss my best friend, my cousin.
I smiled when I heard him shout.
"Chacha? Is that you?" he asked excitedly so I laughed softly.
"Yes, Yanyan." I said smiling.
"Hey! I miss you too, baby." he says on the other line.
I smiled when he said that.
"How are you? Are you okay with your husband? Is he hurting you? Just tell me I will kill him by myself." he asked.
My smile faded when I heard his questions. I smiled bitterly and shook even though he couldn't see.
"The number of questions you ask, that hasn't changed." I laughed telling him even in my heart I wanted to tell him everything that had happened to me.
"I'm just happy because we talked again." he says.
I smiled and bowed. I don't know if I will tell him everything I went through at the hands of my husband or not. Because when he finds out everything I'm sure that he won't stop until he can kill my husband. Yanyan is so short-tempered but overprotective when it comes to me.
"Btw, when are you going to visit here? I'm sure they'll be happy when they see you, Queen." he added.
I was shocked because he called me Queen. I miss who I used to be. I smiled.
"Coming soon." I said with a smile even though he couldn't see.
"All right, goodbye. I'll just call again." I smiled and goodbye.
"Bye, Queen. Be careful there, always take care of yourself. Always remember, you're strong." he was saying goodbye to me.
I smiled and dropped the call. I looked at my cellphone while still smiling.
I miss going back to where I used to be. I also miss being with my friends.
"How are they? I know they are okay. I know they are just fighting." I said in my mind.
I smiled and just shook my head. I just continued to put my clothes in my bag and when I was done I put them away.
Maybe this is the day I go back to where I used to be. I used to be weak, stupid, insignificant, and what else do they think of me. I looked around my room and just smiled bitterly. I sighed weakly and left my room. It's my last day here so I have to go for a walk before leaving this mansion.
While on my tour I accidentally passed Kibb's office and overheard them talking with his mistress.
"Babe, I have good news for you." said Tiffany cheerfully.
"Really, babe? What is that?" Kibb asked in return.
I smiled bitterly as I listened to their conversation.
"I'm pregnant, babe!" Tiffany's words were so unfortunate that I stopped.
"What?! Really?! Yes, I will be a daddy!" Kibb shouted.
I could feel the excitement in Kibb's voice when Tiffany said that so I smiled bitterly. Maybe I made the right decision.
I was about to leave when I heard what Tiffany said that stopped me.
"Yes, babe. You would be a father, so you should get rid of your flirtatious wife. I don't want to have a rival. That bitch! " she said angrily.
I waited for what Kibb would say but I hope I didn't listen.
"Don't worry, babe. He is also leaving here. And I will make sure he never bothers us again, ever." said Kibb.
"Well, it should be. Wait, what do you mean by what you said, babe? that she will never bother us again, ever?" Tiffany asked in astonishment.
My forehead frowned because of what Kibb said. What is he planning? is he planning to kill me? The hell!
"I ordered one of my men to kill him, it was time for her to get out of this mansion. There seems to be no obstacle to our love." said Kibb as I stopped.
So, he's planning to kill me? what a ruthless, man. Does he think he can kill me just like that? You don't know me yet my dear husband, maybe you will die earlier than me.
"What? are you serious, babe? that's good idea." her flirtatious mistress agrees.
I smirked and turned away. Let see, if you can kill me. You may regret not killing me. I left that place and went to the garden. I'm leaving here tonight, and I feel right. Something bad is going to happen today.
I smirked as I thought about what other plans of my dear husband and her mistress might have.
A bitch and a jerk. Wow, perfect combination. They look good together. I shook my head while laughing.
I'm sorry my dear husband because the woman you planned to kill will kill you. Not right now but I will make sure you die in my hands. Because I'm not just an ordinary person. I'm the person you wouldn't think I was like that.