My mind froze, and I wasn't able to breathe properly.
I called my brother to pick me up from university, he came in no time.
I went straight to my room after I reached home.
My mother became worried about me and she followed me to my room and asked
"My princess, what happened to you?"
I started crying, but I was not willing to tell her what was the matter.
"My head is hurting, just leave me alone I want to sleep," I said.
She turned off the lights and went away from my room.
I was just looking at the ceiling. I was sweating and palpating. I was shivering. My friend Judy called me but I ignored her. I switched off my cellphone.
I could hear the thunder voices, The night was so dark. It was heavily raining.
I have never felt so disgusted with myself before. No one humiliated me like that in my entire.
I wanted to end my life right away.
I stood up and took a very bold step in my life.
That was the time, I was tired of thinking about my humiliation. I just wanted to leave this world. I was not mature enough at that time.
I didn't know how much my family would suffer. I was blind at that time. I thought that if Sol couldn't love me back, there is no motive to live in this world.
I went to the store room and brought a rope then I took a stool and put it below my fan
I hung myself with a fan having a rope around my neck. I threw the table with my feet.
I was hanging with the fan.
I started fluttering.
After a few seconds, my mother and brothers rescued me...
I was just lying on a hospital bed when I opened my eyes.
I couldn't speak or move but I can hear all things. All voices even the "Tik Tik" of a clock.
My mother was sitting with my bead and crying. She was praying continuously.
My father and brothers were tired of giving the answers to unnecessary questions of relatives and friends.
Everyone was asking one question,
Why? Why she did do that?
Some people said that there must be a boy involved,
Or some said it might be black magic.
According to doctors,
I had upper cervical vertebrae fracture and my spinal cord was immensely damaged which caused complete paralysis to me. I have severe swelling, bruising and internal bleeding in my head.
I was just a lifeless body that couldn't move or talk.
I remained in the hospital for 8 weeks, but I was completely paralyzed so the Doctors advised me to shift me to my home.
I was discharged from the hospital after 2 months.
Everyone came to me except Sol.
He was such a stoned-heart person who didn't even come to see me at that time.
But deep down I knew he will come. I thought he might sympathize with me whenever he sees me.
But I didn't know he would be such a cold-blooded person.