Damn...
I came like a fucking beast.
The first two rounds were fine, but the third one nearly killed me.
If you exclude the initial stupid shit we did trying to intimidate each other...
The second and third times I came were just mind-blowingly good.
The first time was just an accidental nut, but from the second one, I started getting into the groove, filming some extra footage for the video.
Thank god Juha isn't some sadistic bitch...
Apart from filming, she didn't seem to have any real urge to torment me, beat me up, or punch me.
She said choking me was just for the aesthetics of the video... what a crazy bitch...
The first time I came while being choked felt like I was literally crossing the Jordan River...
The second time, hugging her close and cumming deep inside felt like I was fulfilling some primal urge to savagely impregnate her.
But the third time was just forced out, and it hurt like hell.
Did something trigger her during sex? She was crazily pounding me so hard I thought my back would break... treating me like a goddamn dildo...
"Fuck."
Juha was sitting next to me, just in her panties, blowing out smoke from her cigarette.
Her tits jiggling when she moved her hands...
The human body is a fucking mystery... how do those massive things not sag and just sit there like perfect water droplets?
"Damn. I want to touch them."
Even after three rounds, I wasn't thinking about sex, but...
I just wanted to fucking grab those tits.
I feel like I'd get hard again if I touched them...
For some reason, I just want to keep playing with them.
But it's not like we're in that kind of relationship where I can just touch her whenever... even if it's allowed during sex, once it's over, no freaking chance. Well, we're not dating or anything...
What the hell is Juha thinking?
I'm curious about what goes on in her mind.
How can she be so casual about sex, yet not allow anything once it's done?
Maybe she's just a robot who only feels when something big happens.
I can't figure out what's going on in her head normally.
'...'
At first, we were fighting like cats and dogs...
But during the second sex session, it was honestly amazing.
It felt like real lovers' sex.
Kissing while glued together, smelling each other, fucking her like a madman...
When I was holding her waist, pounding away, and burying my face in her tits, it didn't feel like she was some delinquent gang leader and I was her lackey.
We were just two bodies fucking each other.
I only thought about devouring her body, and she only thought about devouring my cock.
During the first shoot, I didn't feel shit.
It was more about the complexity of losing my virginity like that.
Sex was good, but it was more like I was just going through the motions, not really enjoying it.
Juha didn't seem to care much either. She just had sex for the camera... that's it.
Even after I came inside her, she just washed up and went back to her phone, not giving a fuck.
During sex, all she did was check the camera angle and make sure it looked good.
But this time, it was different.
At first, we were concerned about the angles and the camera...
But during the second session, we were just like animals, bodies intertwined.
Before, she seemed indifferent to our relationship...
But this time, something must've triggered her because she was all over me like glue.
It was so intense, it felt like we might melt into each other.
Even during sex, I wanted more sex. I wanted to hold her tighter, pinch her harder, dig deeper.
Juha wasn't just going through the motions either...
She seemed genuinely into it, mixing our tongues and thrusting her hips like she was enjoying it.
If we weren't lovers, it would be hard to imagine this level of intimacy.
"Fuck, fuck."
But looking at her smoking now, she seems completely uninterested...
Was it all just an illusion?
Was the sex genuine, or was it just sex while our relationship remains the same old bully-lackey dynamic?
Just because the dildo was good doesn't mean you love the dildo...
Maybe it was just the sex that was good, not me.
"Fuck."
I can just imagine Juha sighing if she knew what I was thinking.
Sigh, this is why virgins like me... don't understand boundaries.
Does experience teach you to separate sex from human relationships?
I don't fucking know.
I'm not saying I've fallen for Juha...
But do I expect some subtle change in our relationship? Maybe.
Something more real, deeper... not just animalistic sex for the camera.
"Fuck."
Am I asking for trouble with these pointless expectations?
Maybe I should just be happy we had sex...
But I can't help remembering her, wrapped around me, moaning deeply...
That look on her face, like a woman in heat, was something I'd never seen before...
"Fuck."
...I'm getting hard again. Goddamn it.
It's a semi-boner, but still...
I looked at her tits again.
I want to touch those tits. Even after touching them so much, I want to do it again.
Hmm... maybe it's not Juha I like, but her tits? That makes sense.
Loving her face? Nah... that just reminds me of our fucked-up bully-slave relationship.
Let's stop thinking about this.
If I try to touch her again, she might fuck me in the ass...
That was a shitty experience... made me vow never to challenge her again...
"Wow, over 6 million won."
Juha muttered.
OnlyFans... already over 6 million won in sales.
It's hard to believe. Is this why everyone's doing OnlyFans?
Apart from that, it's surprising how much attention we're getting with so little content...
"What are you gonna do with the money?"
Juha said, blowing out smoke.
Hmm... I guess I'll get around 300, even after taxes and fees?
I dunno what I'll do with it.
I didn't start this for money.
"300,000 won..."
300... 300... that's a lot of money.
It's almost my yearly allowance.
Maybe that's why it doesn't feel real.
Though I've thought about investing in stocks or Bitcoin. Wouldn't that be good?
With a regular job, buying a house is tough... so I've thought about financial planning.
"I might try stocks."
"Stocks?"
Juha tilted her head, surprised.
Guess she didn't expect that answer.
Of course, they don't talk about stocks or investments... just about spending it.
Though some of them might know about Bitcoin, since some delinquents do day trading. But they mostly lose their asses...
"You good at stocks? Like... Bitcoin too?"
"Umm... never tried it."
"I thought you had."
She seemed to lose interest, turning away.
Actually, I did try it.
Just mock trading... I was curious about how stock trading works.
But since it wasn't real money, it wasn't fun, so I stopped after a few tries.
But now that I've got real money, I kind of want to give it a go.
"What about you? What will you spend it on?"
I asked out of obligation.
Juha, puffing on her cigarette, seemed to ponder for a moment.
She's practically breathing smoke instead of air...
"Living expenses, buy a bag, maybe go on a trip."
...there's a lot she wants to do.
What kind of bag is she talking about? Probably a luxury one? I wonder if 300,000 is enough.
Maybe there are some cheaper ones under a million?
"Buy a bag and go on a trip."
Thinking about it, Juha isn't really into luxury brands.
She just buys one to keep up appearances with her crew.
She doesn't seem obsessed with luxury itself.
Some of her friends are obsessed with luxury to the point of near death without it...
But Juha just buys it to save face...
She won't blow all her money on luxury. Though, if she does, it's her choice.
...as long as she doesn't get hooked on poker.
"Where are you going for your trip~."
Juha hummed, lying down to search on her phone.
Her ass sticking out with her panties on.
Her well-defined cheeks and wide hips. And those firm thighs.
Even her tits spreading out on the floor.
Fuck, does this make sense? Her body, her structure, it's just not fucking normal.
I just want to rip those panties off and take her from behind right now. ...though, if I tried, she'd probably fuck me instead.
"Jeju Island, maybe."
I've never seen Juha go on trips like this.
I heard her family isn't well off...
That's my memory. She's not rich by any means.
Jeju Island...
I've never been there either. Honestly, I never thought about traveling. It would be lonely by myself...
But if Juha asked me to go with her? Hmm... umm... umm... I'd rather go alone. I'd probably get my ass kicked the whole time. Just be her pack mule.
"Jeju Island, Jeju Island, Jeju Island~."
Just don't ask me to go with you...
I leaned against the wall, staring at the ceiling.
After showering, I felt so damn lazy.
Maybe I'll just nap for a bit... then study.
I remembered I need to study for exams...
I dozed off leaning against the wall.
For some reason, it felt so comfortable. How long has it been since I felt this?
This place feels like home now... just lazy, quiet, and warm.
The atmosphere, the air, everything in sight feels like paradise... maybe it's the afterglow of sex...
'...'
I felt like my consciousness was fading out in a good way.
I slid down to the floor without realizing it.
'Click.'
I heard the light switch off.
...did Juha turn off the light for me?
'Thud.'
Then, I felt a blanket being thrown over me.
...I feel like I'll have a good dream. As my consciousness faded, I sank into deep sleep.