...No reply.
I sent a KakaoTalk message to Juha last night, even if it was late... but there's no reply by lunchtime today.
She's the type to stare at her phone all day, so there's no way she wouldn't reply...
Maybe she's pissed?
Did she get all worked up because I didn't reply to her messages for over five hours, even though I'm just her bread shuttle?
I quietly turned on KakaoTalk again.
[Juha: Are you in or out, dude?]
[Juha: Reply, you fucker.]
[Juha: You ignoring me?]
[Juha: Did you fucking die while walking or something?]
[Juha: Seriously, did you kick the bucket?]
[Juha: -_-]
The last message was just '-_-'.
She probably thinks I'm ghosting her since there's no way I'd get into some random accident...
Maybe I should've made some bullshit excuse.
Like, "I rolled down the street and ended up in the hospital, couldn't reply..."
But since I'm not hurt at all, she'd see through the lie instantly.
I replied last night at 11 PM... and it's already 1 PM now.
I'm starting to think she's either pissed or sulking... should I call her?
Calling her is fucking scary. More than that, I feel like she'd ignore my call too.
...But I guess I should try calling.
I took a deep breath and pressed the call button.
'Du-ru-ru-ru.'
The monotonous ringtone without any color rang out.
For a while, it was just the repeated sound of the phone ringing.
'Du.'
But the call ended without being picked up.
A moment later, a machine voice said, "Connecting to voicemail..." and the screen went black.
"Hmm..."
Uh... what do I do now?
I've never been ghosted before, so I don't know how to handle this.
If this was high school, I'd definitely get punched in the stomach the next day, turn into a human chair for an hour of atonement...
But not now.
Unless I go to Juha's place, I won't run into her, won't talk to her, won't hear from her.
If she doesn't answer my calls, my only option is to go beg at her door.
Honestly, I don't even know why I acted like that yesterday.
Just thinking about Juha getting NTR'd made my head boil, and I didn't want to reply.
Thinking about that guy makes me fucking furious.
"What do I do..."
Do I really have to go find her?
The exam scope came out faster than expected, so I could take a day off...
Maybe I should wait one more day?
"Sigh."
Meanwhile, the money transfers are still coming in regularly.
If the money wasn't coming in, I'd think she's really pissed or has cut me off...
But she's sending exactly half, which makes it even scarier...
Juha with her business-like expression... fucking scary. But at the same time, she reacts to the juice...
"Oh, right..."
And then, finally, the third video was uploaded.
The much-anticipated third video, where Juha poured her heart into it... or rather, she alone poured her heart into it.
The reaction was explosive. In many ways, explosive... I opened the homepage again.
[Holy shit, this is insane!]
[This is the epitome of peak]
[But it's a bit of a letdown... why not keep hitting the male actor until he's dead? It would be even more satisfying if he was bruised and crying.]
-That's a bit much;
[This is so fucking hot!]
[I came five times because of this...]
[I came one more time while writing this comment...]
-Are you gay...?
The problem is that the negative reactions were also explosive.
[Fuck, what are you shoving up his ass?!]
[Are these femdom fucks out of their minds? They should know when to stop, but now they're doing ass play because everyone keeps praising them.]
[If you want to kill all the femdom lovers, hit recommend.] (Recommend 550 / Dislike 850)
[What's with these downvote ratios?]
Meanwhile, the number of Korean comments has increased a lot...
Maybe because of some rumors going around, Korean comments now take up a significant portion.
[Seriously, the choking should be moderated; I could see the guy's eyes rolling back, it was creepy as fuck to watch, you sick fucks.]
-That's the charm; you don't get it.
-Go die, you crazy bastard.
Why... why has this turned into a battleground?
The comments exceed twice the number of the other video pages, and I see why...
The pro-femdom and anti-femdom factions are in a fierce battle.
[What the fuck is that dildo belt? Why is there a belt on the dildo? Is it really that? Are they planning to fuck the guy with a dildo next? If that's the case, I'm never watching again, I'll curse them till I die, fuck.]
[Shit, was there something like that? It's more surprising that someone found it.]
[Fuck, my ass feels scary now.]
[Seriously; it gave me chills lol]
-Chills, chills ♥
-Fuck off.
[These fucking faggots, I swear...]
- Why is getting fucked by a woman considered gay?
-Fuck off, seriously.
The reaction is really intense.
But thanks to the buzz, the sales are overwhelmingly good...
We're set to make over ten million won with just three videos. Is this good? For a short-term sensation, it seems good...
However, if it keeps escalating into hardcore masochistic play like this, it might become dangerous.
The love-hate divide is getting so strong that viewers might start dropping off...
So far, the positive feedback is still dominant.
But if it gets any crazier, it could backfire.
I kind of expected this, though. As the play gets more sadistic, male viewers might start frothing at the mouth.
The key is Juha's reaction. Seeing the viewers froth might make her realize...
Oh, maybe all-female-led videos are a bit much.
Maybe we should switch to more male-led, male-oriented videos.
Tsk. It's a shame.
Isn't she going to think that?
Then my opinion might start to matter more.
With the guy taking the lead and directing the shoot. Hehe.
"..."
Of course, the priority right now is to smooth things over with Juha...
I scrolled down a bit more in the comment section.
[とても良いです.これからもよろしくお願いします.ദ്ദി´･ω･`) (This is very good. Please take care of us in the future.)]
[大好きです.焼身まで撮影お願いします.ദ്ദि´ω｀) (I love it. Please shoot until self-immolation.)]
[とても良いです.??(This is very good...)]
The Japanese are generally more accepting...
Or maybe it's just the kind of content Japanese men want.
Of course, these Japanese dudes might also froth at the mouth if it gets too hardcore...
I'm kind of curious. Seeing these tolerant guys lose it...
[I want more intense play. I really want more creative femdom play in the future... Please shoot according to your convictions, ignoring the comments.]
[It's good up to this point. This is enough. If you go any further, I'll shit in front of the filmmaker's house.]
-Fuck, what a Scottie;
-Seriously, now the Scotties are into femdom too?
Let's stop here...
Clearly, opinions are very divided.
I can handle the play up to now, but it might be too much if it goes further...
You don't need weird tools to make female-led sadistic play entertaining.
Half female-led videos, half male-led, that should be fine, right?
"Sigh."
I turned off my phone and looked out the window.
Beyond the bright sunlight, storm clouds were gathering.
It looked like rain was going to start soon.
I let out a sigh.
I need to focus again...
***
Exams are right around the corner.
With exams so close, the vibe at school has changed a bit.
Even the kids who usually don't study are now studying because of the atmosphere around them.
With only about a week left, everyone seems more focused.
Unlike usual, I see students in casual clothes with worn-out expressions...
"How do you solve this?"
Somehow, I ended up studying with Jo yeon and Kim Myung-jun.
.
These days, we've been sticking together to study, like a trio?
I help Jo yeon with what she doesn't know, and sometimes other friends come to ask us questions.
Even seniors occasionally ask questions, though not as often as when I studied alone...
Maybe they feel embarrassed with three of us together.
But it's more comfortable with Kim Myung-jun around.
The barrage of questions that used to be solely directed at me is now split in half.
If it wasn't for him, I would've had to escape to the central library to study.
'Park Ye-young also hasn't contacted me...'
It's been quiet since that day.
Not even a single call.
Well, with such a massive exam load, she must be busy memorizing. Maybe she'll contact me after the exams.
It's a strange feeling.
Somehow, I feel closer to my friends during exam periods...
Before, I spent more time alone, but with exams, we ask each other questions, teach each other, and it feels like we've grown closer.
Even with seniors I barely knew before, we're now on greeting terms...
Of course, they might all disappear once the exams are over. I have a strong feeling that'll happen... Ugh.
"Hmm..."
But that's not what's important right now.
The important thing is that Juha still hasn't replied. The numbers disappear, but no reply... she doesn't answer calls either.
[Hey...]
[Um...]
[Hey...]
My lonely KakaoTalk messages just float in the void...
Maybe my first reply was too weird?
'I only want to go to the shoot' seemed too brazen, so I nixed it.
'Can you not go?' sounded too clingy, so I nixed that too.
I just sent, 'Shall I go alone and check it out? I don't know the atmosphere there, it could be dangerous...'
But there's been no reply since.
It's probably not the content of the message.
It's more likely because I ghosted her and then replied late at night.
"Sigh..."
Juha isn't the type to get upset over this...
If she was pissed, she'd call me up, "Why the fuck aren't you replying, you piece of shit?"
But she's just ghosting me without any reaction, and I don't know how to respond.
Since she's sending money regularly, it's not like she's in trouble.
Should I call her sister and ask if she's heard anything?
That might be too much.
Maybe just going and knocking on her door would be the most straightforward.
'Pout.'
My lips pouted without reason.