My closest companion has left, the person that I always thought would be in my corner has run away, I've been calling him, texting him... nothing.
It hurts, I wish that I paid more attention to his silent cries, the forced smiles the lonely voice, I wasn't the only one in pain. I think it's for the best now, I know what he really believes, that I broke up his family... I was only fourteen years old. The same age as him, fourteen when I testified in court, I try to block out that night as much as I can but sometimes the memories come flooding back into my mind like a a hurricane.
I feel as if the world hates me as if it is me against everyone. I won't beg for Jace's forgiveness if he wants me out of his life, I'm out.
Emily drops us off at school as usual, the minute I get out of the car I feel daggers sinking into my skin, whispers being shared. What news did they hear I wonder? I walk over to my locker to open it but Jemma interrupts me.
"Well, if it isn't little Miss Lucy," She snickers, "Mirae told the school how you're a little slut." she laughs.
I squint, "Excuse me."
"Mirae told everyone how you broke up with sweet Andrew just to sleep with Jace." She elaborates, "Poor you, you can't keep a man." She laughs in my face.
"That's not true." I frown at her."
"Yeah, sure." She rolls her eyes.
I notice everyone looking at me, snickering like I'm one big scandal.
"Where's Jace?" I ask sternly.
She squints, "How should I know." She says unbothered.
I shake my head and shove passed her, "Freak." she calls me.
I have one side vision, I'm looking for Jace, he has to clear my name whether he likes it or not. I searched the school asking people if they had seen Jace.
"I have." Gwenn answers. "In the chem lab."
"Thank you," I say in a rush.
I admit, I wish I asked which one I forgot this school is like a mall, luckily for me I guessed on the first try.
"Jace!" I yell at him. He jerks his head away from whatever his writing.
I stared at him for a while, and I almost forgot why I was so angry. "Why is Mirae going around slandering my name?" I ask, all the anger has left my body all that's left is desperation.
Jace gets up from his seat and puts his book and pencil away. He couldn't care less about me. He brushed passed me, "I would have never treated you this badly." I say under my breath.
"Then why did I get déjà vu the day you told me you loved me?" He looks down at me, my heart shatters.
"You were there at the nurse's office," I mutter in realisation.
He doesn't bother answering and just leaves, the rest of the day. I just felt numb. For lunch, I just look at my food, unappetising. So I put it away and just rested my head on my head as I let the whispers pass right through me.
"Lucy." A familiar voice sits beside me.
"Careful Todd, sitting with me could ruin your reputation," I warn.
"I made the A football team as a freshman, no one can ruin my reputation." He says smugly. His face becomes serious, "Are you okay, I figured since you are not Melody's friend anymore, I'd sit with you," I look at him to say is that all, "Well that and the whole school hates you." He smiles meekly.
"Thanks for worrying about me, but I want you to have fun with your friends and not worry about me." I look at him earnestly.
"You're my sister, I'm not leaving you." He states.
"It's fine I'll take care of her," Andrew says from behind me. "And besides I owe her an apology."
Todd sighs, "Not this guy, but I'll leave you two alone." Todd gets up, I give him a smile, his actually always been this sweet. He only shows it when you need it though.
Andrew takes Todd's place, "How are you holding up?" He asks as if he is still my boyfriend.
"Why do you care?" I ask, it came off as rude but I genuinely want to know.
"Fair enough, well I care because I still care about you dating or not. I'm always going to care about you." Andrew looks at me.
"I feel like an outsider, I probably deserve it though. After how I treated Max." I bury my head in my hands and look up at him. I am tired, I barely slept last night, I was so worried about Max.
"You don't deserve this, I don't know what happened with Max. But his lucky to have you as a sister," Andrew comforts me.
"I watch him." Golden retriever boy alright.
"I'm sorry about keeping the truth about Caroline. It's just I couldn't bring myself for you to look at me like how you looked at me the day we broke him. I really messed up with you Lucy." He apologises, "I will forever live with the guilt of what I did to Caroline."
"You didn't do anything, just one rumour. How Jace was treating Caroline." I shake my head at how he can become so cold in a switch. No communication. Nothing.
"She just made the mistake of loving Jace." I got a bitter taste in my mouth after I said that sentence. Haven't I made that mistake?