'I would like to hear it all, whatever bothers you ,everything.' he was all determined to listen up and get to a solution. I looked at him and wondered whether it will be a wise decision to tell him all about me ? will he stay after hearing what i had to tell him or is he going to runaway like others, those on whom I trusted to stay but as they figured out how fragile and vulnerable I was all of them diverged their paths from me .of course any ordinary person would do so as everyone has thier problems and wouldn't like anyone to just add on to it, consume thier time to get someones frustration out .as i was a kind of preson who would never open up to someone very quickly or easily but when i trusted someone i was more like a book to them which is hard to open but easy to read , you need to dicepher the code to get full access .that was indeed dangerous for me , it was like giving someone the key to your lifeline they know where you stand stronger and on what grounds you could be pulled down, but at some point it was my strength too since I had nothing to conceal for the person I believed in ...I just respected their prescence in my life ....that's what friends are right you can share everything with them that you may not be able to share with your family , cause you can't show them that you are not well off by yourself ,they worked head to heel to make you strong ....sometimes it's hard to tell them that you need support or you are jaded.
the experience for my past hovered over my shoulders restricting me to communicate what made my heart heavy with it's weight .time lapsed Ken was waiting patiently with no comparison to any worldly being still i couldn't gather the courage to tell him the truth as I couldn't risk to lose him .'My family is typical Indian family with every decision being discussed with the elderly in case of marriage all they need is that thier children being married to someone who is good in nature ,money , belongs to the same community or atleast to same religion . you fit in first two critera but last one holds immense improtance to them Ken .'I could say no more thus , tied my lips after what i said .how could i do this even after knowing what things were like I loved someone who was firstly , out of reach and if by chance came nearer then secondly ,my parents would deny .all these thoughts were sickening I felt that dying was more easy than letting my parents down. 'So, what do you advice? how are we going to take our first step, cause I'm not going any where until you say that i mean nothing to you as well as you owe it too.'Ken mustered out his remark.
After a lot of hither n thither we decided to first make a vedio call to my parents and i would inform them about Ken, in Second call will bring up Ken to familiarize him with them and then go to meet them in preson but before we execute this plan I needed to have one preson in confidence that was my sister as in case if anything pops out of place she will be there to help me get things racked up. In all these years of stromy days she was the one to help me heave up the umbrella against hailstones hitting on me.Thus we called her and told her everything , without even skipping the tiniest details .'you did all that without even telling me anything about it . I thought that we would have to fix you with someone but atleast you did this on your own . I'm glad .'She sounded normal at first it was a good sign cause if she panicked i was doomed.'Ahhhhhh....' she screamed to release the stress i gave her 'don't you dare say anything to papa and mummy now , first i'll go there and see how things are then i'll talk to them about it saying that Ken is known to my husband , so let me put this as an arranged proposal .'she started in yelling fashion then came back to normal understanding tone .' like we did for you.'I menifested in a mocking way .'yeah di, like you did for me , happy to know that .' she answered in an annoying sense .so, the master plan was set ;Ken, me ,my sister Vari and her partner Sarvin .all four of us were streadfast to make it work on all account .and story was threaded to present in front of our parents . this wasn't right but this was what we could do .
the story which was going to be presented in front of my parents was that i met this guy named Ken at my friend Cassie's wedding , we started meeting and i told to Vari about it she told to Sarvin he informed us that he knew him and he was his acquiantence , .even we liked each other so, he thought of discussing it with my parents as i should be married as soon as possible .