August 14 1988
They haven't saved me. They left me. They left me to die. I finally see the truth of the situation. Charles didn't care for that old woman. He did nothing to deserve what he has. It's been a year. A year since I have been put in this fucking hell. I've been abused, sexually harassed, kicked, punched, enslaved, whipped, played around with, hunted, and have broke down several times silently hating on my life.
I have had Depression, anxiety, loneliness, suicidal thoughts, ect. They are no stranger to me. No stranger at all. No crying. No sound. No nothing. Because I can't cry. I can barely feel. The only emotion I have left is anger. My sadness is long gone. Depression settled in. I don't feel sad, I feel numb. Like I'm being suffocated but I can live like that. Because I'm now used to having no air. Happiness is long gone. Fake smiles are my specialty, I've become an expert mask maker. Love I've never felt. Anxiety is useless for me now. Excitement is a thing of the past. The only thing I ever feel now other than nothing, is hate. Because. I hate them for this. I hate a lot of people for this.
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I
HATE
THEM.
They brought me to life and made it hell. I don't care if I go to hell cause it can't be worse than this. I want to make them regret all their decisions. All they did to me. I want to hurt them and I want to do it badly.
I want revenge. And I fucking swear to lady magic I will get it. I. WILL. GET. MY. REVENGE.