Cyrus' POV
Ashley is finally home after being in the hospital for three weeks. I was so worried. Because of her longer stay at the hospital, it just proved how critical her situation was.
I overheard her parents talking one night when they came back from the hospital while Ashley was still there. They said she had shingles and apparently the doctor told them that if they didn't catch on till later Ashley would've died.
I would've lost my soulmate. The thought terrifies me. I can't believe all this time I've been thinking about rejecting her when I should've been sympathetic. I should've accepted her when I met her but I didn't all I could think about was myself.
While I've been here I've grown to love her and how could I not fall for her. Her cute little laugh she does when she watches funny movies, it's adorable. She's kind, has a big heart, loves animals which is great cause I'm half wolf. She's so brave it's impressive.
I feel so guilty, since day one she has done nothing but take care of me and give TLC (Tending Loving Care) it's only right I return her love. For now on I will treat her right. Once she's done chemotherapy I'm taking her to my pack and she will be my Luna.
I will help her build her muscles up again and make sure she gets all the help she needs mentally and physically. I can't even imagine how much this journey of being on chemotherapy would've done to her sanity.
I can't wait to introduce her to everyone. I'm so proud of her and I'm gonna show her off once I get the chance. Who can say their soulmate had cancer and beat it, not many and I'am so lucky she's still beating it and I hope will continue to beat it. I don't know what I would do if I ever lost her.
We're currently laying down in her room with my head on her stomach while she runs her fingers through my fur. It feels like heaven.
I'm about to doze off but I hear a sniffle. I open my eyes and look towards Ashley's face and notice she's crying. I let out a little whine, I hate seeing her cry it breaks my heart.
"I can't do this anymore Alpha." She cries. "I'm sick of being in pain ALL the time. I wanna die and finally be free from this pain I'm in."
"I don't know why I keep fighting to stay alive because in all honesty I wanna die, my soul is so tired I just wanna go to sleep and not wake up." She sobbed. She continues crying for three hours and it breaks my heart all the more.
Her words struck a cord in my heart and I find myself wanting to cry. I haven't cried since I was 8 when my mother died from a rogue attack. My father didn't handle her death very well and ended up killing himself when I was 18 and old enough to take over the pack.
I layed with her all night, scared she would do something that would grant her wish of wanting to die. I barely slept a wink, I was worried I would wake up to find she committed suicide. I was so tired that I ended up falling asleep.
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Authors note:
Sorry it's small but it's better then nothing.