one thing I love about myself is the fire in me not to be a weakling, I always do opposite of most things because I believe in my faith and the fact that there's hope, even when I'm told not to carry some loads and other stuffs, I keep doing them, I feel like I should prove that I'm no weak child and all that though later on I get the side effect of been stubborn maybe with pains or rather aches but yet I still didn't let that weigh me down.
I felt I have lots of weaknesses that my man might get discourage about so I decided that the ones I can handle I will do so with all my heart not withholding maintaining myself for him. Apart from health issues which I still see as an attack, I feel I'm the best girl any man would have or maybe close to the best. I'm smart, good looking, God-fearing, educated, I'm not the best cook though but I can sure cook and I'm open to learn, I've got zeal, I'm really not a boring person, name it, I might not be that woman that's totally the best but I believe I wouldn't be far from it, trust me. But what if he needs more than what I stated, damn, I feel like I'm thinking too far.
I might be the only one looking down at myself this way though because everyone sees things differently. okay, I didn't state that I can be sometimes very annoying, I kindof find joy when talking alot, I'm kindof a psycho. what if he doesn't want that. what if he wants to change me completely and I don't want that.
what if because of my weaknesses he decides to treat me bad and feel like he's doing me a favour. No, I'll rather remain single, No, I can't, I need to be loved. I don't know why I feel this way but I just can't help it.