I'm Reign Wellington a young american man who was raised at Namwon-si South Korea, I was 16 and was in 4th year of high school when I met Will Marlwel, also american, they moved here when he was 18 and stayed here till now, Will hyung is my lover he was turning 20 this year and was a great man for me, he really is kind. Lots of people says our relationship was wrong as he was older than me and I'm younger, they say he'll go to jail if we didn't stop seeing each other.
I don't want to. I do love him so much.
I may be younger but I'm matured you know, we're a happy couple and I think he love me too.
But you know there was a downside to everything, he was perfect and all but.
he 'assaulted' me.
I might say that but we're lovers and lovers do those kind of thing right?
he 'forced' me.
"It's not rape or sexual assault if it happens between lovers." he said, so I think he didn't break any laws, we're lovers.
but he 'forced' me.
He's probably in some drugs or influence of alcohol at that time that's why he did that to me but I still love him tho, I'll do anything he wants and as I say anything—I mean everything.
"Even if he force you again?" My friend Suha asked, I smiled "Yeah."
That's what love means right?
Love means that you'll do everything to make that person happy and give everything you have to that person.
"If he wants your heart would you give it to him?" Suha asked again, there was a loud pause as I was thinking...
Am I ready to die for him? If that's what love means then...
"Yeah."
He looked at me with a puzzled look "But—nevermind do what you want if that makes you happy." he said, I smiled at him even more with me clenching my hands inside my pocket "I am happy." I said with a smile.
Or Am I?
I too don't know what to feel, I feel so relaxed with Suha and some of my friends but when I'm with Will hyung, I always feel so alert that I couldn't stop myself on noticing every single detail of things we walk passed on, I don't understand why am I being like that around him, is it because I love him so much that I don't want anything bad happening when we're together?
Maybe that's it...