"Reign! are you going home?" Suha asked as he walks by my side, I smiled and nod at him "Yeah, I still need to get this homework done." He nod and waved bye before going at the opposite direction as mine.
I was skeptical about going home as our house we're, you know full of plastics, I don't know what's wrong in there but the only thing I know is...
My mom hates when we didn't smile at each other even tho we're mad or have some problem with each other.
I walked inside the gate taking a deep breath every step I made, I'm nervous and I don't know why, I keep on walking while looking down on my feet. As I approach the main door I stopped and sighed deeply before putting a smile on and walk in.
"I'm home!" I yelled and my mom walks in and give me some kisses "How was your day?" she asked as I was putting my things down at the couch "It was okay." I said with a smile before walking in the kitchen to get something to drink.
I opened the fridge and crouched down to get the water "You fucktard!" My sister Anna yelled as she walks towards me and slammed the fridge hard almost hitting me "Why did you fucking touched my stuff?!" Anna yelled out of anger, I just looked at her feeling confused as I never gone to her room or even touch anything that's hers "What?" A loud sound of two skin meeting each other rang the whole kitchen and then was filled with a loud sound of silence, my left cheek hurts at the impact of the slap she gave, I don't know what's wrong with her but, she's always mad or irritated at things.
"Anger issue alert." my brother Micheal said walking inside the kitchen and sitting at the island table, I turn to him holding my left cheek "Where did you put it?!" My sister again yelled this time holding my collar, I'm not scared of them because I'm used to it, I never show any emotion to them when they're hurting me because as everyone says if you show any emotion to the one who's bullying you they'll think that it's fun and all "I don't know what you're saying." I blurted out calmly, she squinted her eyes out of ranged, I can see she wants to kill me here and there, I knew it.
"What is happening here?!" my mom walks in she's also mad "Anna! Get your little brother down!" She stormed towards Anna and hold her wrist as Anna still doesn't want to put me down "He stole something from me!" Anna argued, mom looked at her with ranged in her eyes sending shivers down our spine even tho she's not looking at me but her.
You can get all the people inside this house mad but not mom, her eyes was scary like shinigami ryuk's eyes but more terrifying, she was so intimidating that all of us are scared of her. Anna slowly put me down, mom still holding her wrist tightly, I know to myself that hold hurts as you can really see Anna's wrist turned red and the surrounding of it was swelling in real time.
"You know what's the rules in this house is, right?" Mom asked with a sweet but intimidating voice, I just watched as Anna nod in submission "Y-yes mother." She stuttered, as she looked down on her feet feeling little at our mom's gaze "Good." Mom let her go roughly making my sister hiss in pain, you can clearly see her wrist that mom hold turned pale white like the blood just stops coming into it at how tight mom holds it "Now apologize." Mom ordered, my sister looks at me with an anger look, she look pissed "I'm sorry." she said before storming out of the kitchen.
Mom only had one rule in this house, it's all love in here, no arguing, no yelling, no physical harm, and no verbal harm, it was simple yet terrifying to us, as her kid she never really listen to anything but herself, she never believe that my sister is using drugs and was sexually assaulted by our father, she never believe my older brother was self harming himself inside his room, I told you she never listen to anything.
Mom grabs my shoulder, looking at me directly in the eye "Did you fucking steal something on your sister's room?" she asked sternly, making me feel so little at how her voice turned twisted "N-no." I stuttered, not knowing what to reply next, she'll never believe, they'll never believe me, they always just listen to themselves or to the sibling they liked the most, mom take her hands off of me before fixing her composure, she cleared her throat before speaking "Okay, you two go to your own room." she ordered, me and my brother Micheal stormed to our own rooms, not forgetting to get my stuff at the couch because if I do forget, I'll never going to see it again.
Everyone thought that my—no our family's life is great as we are rich and always has something to eat or somewhere to go to, but it's not, they think I'm lucky at how I'm the younger one at the family means I'll be loved by every family member, but they were wrong.
Since I was a little kid every relatives are always discriminating me as I was the youngest and also gay, they can see it through me, by how I act and all, they call me tranny as they say I'm a transgender who wants to be a girl in and out, but I'm not, I just like boys and I don't want to transition my body to something, I'm comfortable at what I am, and they all think that I'm too kind to everyone around me, so they treat me like a pushover, they make me do something that only maids do, oh and also, our maids treat me like a beggar too, I was kind to them that they thought they can just step on me, but it's fine, I like making everyone smile or them satisfied, so I'm fine with it, I know to myself they are kind too and they will just return the favor when the time comes, but I don't really want them to pay me back at the kindness I did, because I want to do it because it makes me happy, not because I want everyone to owe me.
Even tho my relatives, and our maids are like that my older brother and sister still treat me with kindness, they love me and protect me, we trust each other, back when we we're kids tho. Now, I think we just go with each other if we want something out of our chest, like one time my sister told us that she aborted a child, the seed of our father, it was disgusting how our father had sex with her even tho she's his own child, my older brother was so mad back when we first knew that our sister was assault by our father, that's why we three lost our connection to our father after that, we ignore him every possible way we can.
I jumped on the bed face first before sighing deeply, my cheek still hurts at the slap sis gave me, I then turn to my back looking at the ceiling.
When was the time we three turn our backs to each other? I can't really remember, but back then we never lay any physical harm to each other because we think that, we only have each other to run into, but now, we make us like a teddy bear where you let your anger and all the secrets down.
They made me like a teddy bear.
They went to me just to hurt me physically or letting their anger out, yelling and screaming at me, slapping me, punching me, they even once spit at me just so they can let their anger out, and then hug and apologize to me after.
It was exhausting. But I love my siblings, I want them to feel at ease any way possible.
I just sigh, before reaching to my phone, I need to text Will hyung.
I open my phone then went to the texting app and clicked his name, he still hadn't seen my text since like 4 days ago.
He was always like this, ignoring me for weeks then came back just to let his frustration out, but it's understandable as he was in college and I'm just in 10th grade.
He was turning 20 at 25th of December, it's cold at that time, what should I give him? should I give him something that will remind him of me? or something that he will really like? I think anything I gave he'll be glad because it came from me right? I don't know, I think I'll just asked him.
I typed 'Hyung, I'm at home now, your bday is coming' I send it and typed 'what do you want for Christmas and bday gift?' I send it again, I stared at it for some time, thinking he's busy and can't read this now but he read it.
Will Hyung|
Oh hi babe
Sorry, I was busy at school and didn't know you texted me.
Me| It's fine, don't worry about it.
Me| so what do you want for Christmas and your bday?
How much is your budget lol 😆
Me|Idk, just wish what you want, dear
Ohh, you got a lot of money in your hands don't ya?🤞
Me|lol, yep you know me.
Then how about you just gift me some money?
Me| That will do, money then?
Yep^^
I was smiling the whole time we are talking, he really has a positive impact in me, I really love him.
At some time passed and he says he'll be busy and might text me tomorrow, so I just bid him goodbye and didn't bother him anymore, I forgot to asked him why would he want money as his gift tho, I think he needs it to buy some text books, I don't know.
I told you he was kind and a funny guy also, I really felt so good after talking to him at some time. I put my phone down and stared at the ceiling again, I really need to get to work and finish my homework.
I get up and opened my bag getting my homework out before putting it at the table that was beside my bed "I really hate this subject." I blurted out, I really hate history as our teacher is an old man who talks too slow for our liking making us sleepy and dazed all the time, but I need to learn and study this to get a straight A+ no one wants an F ruining their perfect card.
I was sitting at my study table before a knock had ranged the whole silent room, I yelled come in softly, staring at the door slowly opening and a female body in a baggy clothes walked in, closing the door before leaning on it, I look at Anna with a doe and confused eyes "I'm here to sincerely apologize." She says hugging herself before looking at me straight in the eyes "It's fine." I replied straight ahead showing her a big smile, she stared at me with a teary eyes making me worry about her, she then ran towards me and hugged me?
She sobbed at my shoulder letting all her tears out "I'm really sorry Reign." she blurted out in a high pitched tone "I really am sorry." She said again, I hugged her back and rubbed her back softly, she's such a softie, you might see her as a tough strong woman but she was soft in the inside tho she never let anyone see her as what she is now, me and my older brother was the only one knew about this side of her, she might me rough at you but she'll reflect on herself afterwards and would apologize to you too "I told you it's fine." I said softly, she was our only girl that's why me and Michael would do everything to protect her even if she act tough you can still see in her eyes that she was soft and wants something to rely on.
After she calmed down, I let her seat at the bed "I-I see the thing I accused you on stealing inside my room, it fall under my bed that's why I didn't see it." she explained, I smiled at her and chuckled a little "You know you don't have to cry like that again right?" I said, looking at her fragile body and posture, she was thin and wear baggy clothes to hide it "I was just swept by my emotions okay? Because you look so sweet and you're too kind for your own good and I felt guilty on what I did to you." She said looking down, she was scratching her arms as she says those words.
"Did you drugged yourself again?" I asked with a serious look, she looks at me and look back down before nodding "But it was just weed." I just sighed and grabbed my phone before texting Michael to go to my room, minutes passed of me and Anna just comfortably sitting at my room in silence, before the door open up and Michael walked in "I was with mom at the garden you know? it's hard to get the fuck out of there." He explained in defensive tone, me and Anna laughed at his over reacting story, Michael always bond with mom if he gets the time to just tell her story and all the funny things he have done in school and all, Michael is always this bubbly and funny person but deep inside he was a broken child who only wants attention and pure love, so me and Anna always tries to understand him on every way possible.
If you bond with mom at the garden or anywhere in the house, it was hard to get out of that conversation because mom might asked you a several questions before letting you go so, yeah, it was really hard to get out of their "So what's this sudden meeting about?" He asked, making himself comfortable at the floor "Anna is using weed again." I said with a sighed, making Anna look down and scratch her arms again, I then look at Michael and signaled him with my eyes about Anna scratching her arms and all, Michael sighed and went out, then coming back in with first aid kit he keep inside his room, Michael always self harming himself but he never forgets to treat it after because as he said, he doesn't want to leave me and Anna alone in this hell.
Michael crouched down at Anna signaling her to stretched her hand out Anna give her hand to Michael.
Michael pushed her sleeve up revealing all the fresh deep scratches she gave herself "Why would you even do this to yourself?" Michael asked, as if he's not doing the same thing to himself, Anna look at him with a sad eyes "I just can't help it." Anna says, me and Michael always observe how Anna act as she never treat her wounds even back then Michael was the only one who treat our wounds.
Michael cleaned the scratches first before wrapping it on bandages as it was too long for someone who only use their nails, I stood up walking towards my cabinet to get the nail clipper, I then went to Michael and hand him the clippers "Cut her nails." I said, before settling down at the chair again, Michael did as I said and after that we all went back to our spots.
"Should I buy you a scratch post?" Michael blurted out of nowhere, making me and Anna looked at him in shocked "What?" Anna asked with a confused look on her face "You keep on scratching your skin, what are you a cat?" Michael said in a sarcastic tone making me chuckle a little, well Anna looked so offended at that "Bet your poop smells so bad." Michael added, I laughed at how Anna's face turned from annoyed to disgust look, she was squinting her eyes, one brow raising and her lips turned into check upsidedown pose.
"That's so fucking disgusting." She said making Michael and me laughed at her face "You look so fucking ugly!" Michael added, making Anna even more annoyed at him "What?! we're literally siblings!" She yelled, Michael laughed even more, welp she's right if she's ugly then so Michael and I.
Several minutes passed of the three of us just talking about random stuff until we fell into a real loud silent as we get to the point of the story where Anna was sexually assaulted by our dad, we're just getting to our childhood memories but then Anna bring it back and now she was silent, we three look down with the awkward atmosphere.
"Is it still murder if I give him a heads up?" Michael asked, making Anna and I turn to look at him.
"That's literally called a threat." I replied.
Michael looked at me with a disappointing look "Damn." He muttered, silence then again filled the room, making me chuckle a little, Anna then laughed so hard "That's so dumb!" She exclaimed, I laughed with her making Michael feel like a moron at this time cause he doesn't get why we are laughing "You're going to tell him you're going to kill him!" I added still laughing.
"What are you going to say? 'Hey dad I'm going to kill you tonight!'" Anna yelled, laughing hysterically at what Michael just said.
Michael just realized what he said and laughed along with us, this is what I'm saying, we three are still rely on each other even if we just stop hanging around, sticking around, never left each other's side, we three are still comfortable with each other even after those traumatic things have occurred in our lives, we still get the time to laughed and smile when we're at each other's side.
To be Continued...