Naalimpungatan ako dahil sa sikat ng araw na tumamasa mukha ko. dahan dahan ko dinilat ang mga mata ko.
Nasaan ako? piliy kong inaalala ang nangyari ngunit sumasakit lang ulo ko.
"Mom! Fairen, is already awake"
hindi ko pinansin ang pinanggalingan ng boses. may mali, parang may isang bagay ako na nakalimutan.
"Princess!, are you ok?"
That's the voice of the Empress, sa hindi ko malaman dahilan ay kusang tumulo ang aking mga luha.
Ang ala ala ng pagkamatay niya, kung paano nila siya pinatay ng walang awa.
"Doc, how is she? why isn't responding?" My mother angrily asked the doctors.
"Because of what happened, she experienced extreme trauma that's why her inner self still not here, and i think she had a memory lost"
mula sa onting luha ay naging sunod sunod na pagpatak nito.
Since then, everyone keep looking at me. they tried to make me better. but it's no use. It's already been 5 months since then.
Habang nakatanaw ako sa labas ng bintana, sumagi sa aking isip ang sinabi niya. 4 na tao ang mawawala sa akin, Isa na dun si kuya. Isang luha ang muling tumulo sa aking mata. Ibig sabihin ay may 3 pa na mawawala sa akin.
Ang imahe ng aking kuya na kung paano onti onti mabawian ng buhay ay nanatili sa aking isip. kailangan ko maging malakas. malakas upang maprotektahan ko ang Pamilyang ito. hindi lang ang pamilya ko kundi pati na den ang mga tao. kinuyom ko ang aking kamao.
Hindi pwede na ganito lang, na hahayaan ko lang na patuloy silang kikitil ng mahal ko sa buhay. hindi ako makakapayag. maghihiganti ako.
Dali dali akong lumabas ng aking kwarto upang pumunta sa aking Ama. Tumakbo di alintana ang pag tawag nila sakin.
"P-princess! don't run"
Binalewala ko ang mga sinasabi ng mga nadadaanan ko. Mas importante ang gagawin ko.
Nang makarating ako sa opisina ni Ama ay agad kong binuksan ang pinto. bakas sa mukha niya ang pagka gulat na makita ako.
"P-princess, what are you doing here?" tanong ng Empress.
Lumapit ako sa aking Ama. "Please make me strong" kita ko ang pagka gulat sa mukha ng aking Ama. "I want to be strong, I am the Crown Princess of this Country so it needed for me to be strong" Buong tapang kong sinabi.
Hindi pwedeng isang lalampa lampa at mahina ang susunod na mamumuno ng bansa.
A smile form in his lips, "Very well"
Father train me using all kinds of weapons. He gives no mercy, ang bawat pag sugod niya ay may katumbas na malakas na atake, kung hindi ko sasanggain ito tiyak na mapupuruhan ako ng malala.
"Even though you're my daughter, i will not get easily to you" he said while holding a sword in his hand.
Napangisi na lang ako sa sinabi nya, "Please don't be easy on me, Father"
"I know it's a traditional to use a strength, but be mercy on our daughter, she still a mere 6 year old" The Empress said.
Father didn't mind her and attacked me aggressively, i quickly deflected his attack. a smirk form into my lips then attack him back and wounded his cheek. a small blood flow out, a black aura came out from him.
"Oh! i wounded the Emperor" I said with a mocking tone.
That make his expression went into a scary one. he attack me again and again. I defense myself using a two sword.
our training last for 5 hours. I'm out of breath, i glanced at my clothes they all worn out.
"Let's end this training for now"
He put down his weapon at the table. He look at me.
"Gumagaling kana"
Nagulat ako sa sinabi nya, The Grimoire is a Spanish Royalty. kaya nakakagulat na nagsalita sya ng tagalog.
"You still remember her huh?"
Referring to my biological mom.
"Of course, i always be"
He look at me then smile.
"You really resemble your Mother, but all of your attitude are resemble to mine"
My father and my real mother has a cliche story, The Grimoire was cursed, no woman in this family will be born, but after 500 years later, when my Father is still a Crown Prince a prophecy has appeared. it said that Father will fell in love to a woman and will give birth to a girl.
My father visited the Philippines for the treaty, for the peace of the two country. they don't know, Father has a different agenda for coming to my birth country. while he's in his business he met my Mother from his friend's hotel. My mother was drunk and enter to my fathers room, thinking that it's her room, Father, fell inlove with her and take the advantage my Mother, the result? of course, Me.
I look at him na parang hinuhusgaan buong pagkatao niya. dahil malakas ang pakiramdam niya ay tinignan nuya ako na may pagtataka.
"Why?"
"Rapist" i mutter
Isang nakakainis na ngiti lang ang sinagot niya sakin ngunit bumalik sa pagkaseryoso ang mukha niya.
"How are you?"
Sumeryoso ako sa tanong niya. ayoko na pag usapan pa ang bagay na yun.
"I'm fine"
Yun na lang sinabi ko. gusto ko ilihis ang usapan dahil hindi ko gusto ang aura na meron ngayon.
"I want to say sorry"
hinayaan ko lang siya magsalita at nakinig lang ako.
"Sorry for making you a girl and give you too much pain"
Napangiwi na lang ako. naka takda naman talaga ako isilang na babae kaya hindi ko siya masisisi. alam kong madami pang padating na problema kaya kailangan ko maging handa.
"I don't think that way, instead of think of everything? i rather do my duty as the Crown Princess of this Country."
He pat my head like he's saying that he's proud of me. then he walk out and leave me here in the training ground.
Walang magbabago kung patuloy ako magmumukmok. may mission ako na kailangan gawin. hindi lang buhay ko ang nakasalalay dito at ayoko mapunta sa walang bahala ang mga buhay na mawawala sa akin.