"Have you got pebbles to throw?"
"Here they are." I swung my hand, holding a plain rock in my hand, and– splash! It made 5 jumps on the water and drowned in. And another rock with 4 jumps, another with 2 jumps and I finally ended up squatting down with a long face.
"There's a saying once said by my best friend, no matter how many stars you have, be brief in choosing your star. If once the Moon loses its star then there will be no star to have the Moon. That's why the Moon is often alone."
… Huh? For a moment, I forgot to give a reaction. I was like those blanks given in exams said to be filled with suitable ones. I was so lost in that saying… maybe there's a chance…
"That's my father's saying!" He suddenly veered around with a smile on his face– the breeze was swift and crossed the pathways of my hair, blowing my eyes. As if I… have nothing to guess or I don't eventually wanna do.
By chance, is Uncle Ren my Father's friend… or best friend?
"You can't understand people without knowing their story. Is this also your fathers, Moon?"
I was almost on the edge of the mountain, seeing the huge ocean beneath me. I might surely end my breath if I fall into it, right? Puzzled me, answered nothing, of course.
"Yes, these all are your fathers. A best friend's adages to his best friend."
Once I would think that a man's calmness is nothing but natural matter but when the same calmness I got to hear through his lips is out of something called sweet. He truly has magic in his spells. Though they all were once said by my Dad to me and him. Still, his version has done a spell on me with his kindness which was invisible to me for all long.
Spells were yours, side effects were on me. Sweet suffocation you have rested on me for the rest of my life. Is this how you tempt others, Uncle? Might stories be different. I had experienced you without adventures all this long here on a pond side.
"Can you see these pebbles?" Though his eyes weren't on me, mine were. "Learn how they are doing themselves even when knowing they are gonna drown anyhow. Same in our lives too." He slowly down himself to me and continued emotionally,
"Enjoy every moment of your life, who might know when you leave with no saying? Right."
And in final, his eyes were on me. Watching my blown eyes. Both our heads were on our folded knees, catching a glimpse of the sweet curves of our lips into smiles. He merrily lightened the burden held on my heart for a long while. It feels far better now.
Maybe… I can finally rely on you about my family and die without any concerns.
"Don't think you should open your heart to remove those concerns?"
"There's held in, Uncle Ren. I'm feeling good now. Thanks to you…"
Nothing sounded further but ended with a smile. Even a smile has a lot to describe. Isn't a smile enough to say how far the opposite person is satisfied by your answer? I feel… all he did till now is just to lose the weight of my burdens and concerns. Few people are just perfect. Like… Dad. Uncle Ren. Cherry. And the main Mom.
Is it the right time to open up? The feeling I often get tensed off.
"Will you ever… accept me if I have a girl in my mind? Uncle Ren."
"Huh? What are you talking about?! Moon!"
This is what I already foresaw if I opened up my mouth. I know… if not today then tomorrow they will somehow come to know about the feeling or great desire I'm grazing day by day. Heretofore any outsider passes about this to my parents I should be the one to open up with them. Not together but at least one in the beginning of the story.
Though this is just an affection, I wonder what if it multiplied into a wanted desire or a real thing that might matter to me the most in the future or…! Just shut up, Moon! These thoughts won't stop if I don't stop them now. They are like unlimited data on my phone, non-stop the data is producing and my head is blasting. Sh*t!
"Are you driven crazy, Moon? Or do guys get less that you have a girl in your mind?!"
"Uncle… I thought you support every gender but… no problem, I understood that even you're the same as community people's minds."
After this sentimental dialogue, of course, he is gonna fall into a deep thought. He will compare himself as a father and a member of society. By this loop, he will surely head to his position as a father and surely take my support. A sentimental dialogue is enough to drag a person's mind into a loop.
"I… No! I'm not like community people! Of course, I support you, Moon."
That's what I actually need, Uncle. You just made the work simple for me.
"How foolish am I? How can I forget that as a human I should respect every gender? No matter if it's a female gender or male or lgbtq+. I must support everyone. right."
I smiled and gave an emotional speech, "You're such a supportive person, Uncle Ren." I suddenly felt a touch on my head. My eyes welcomed a glint as my sight caught Uncle Ren's half-moon eyes, ringing an exquisite wind in his background… What is this…aesthetic feeling? Can I give him a space in my heart… mention him as my Dad?
Could he be able to replace himself in my heart? I'm not certain, "That's enough. Let's go, Uncle Ren. Mom might be waiting for us." He smiled softly and nodded his head.
"Sometimes, I just end up laughing when I get trapped into a loop of your Dad's and mine weird childhood. We never liked each other but later we became best friends. Now… I miss those beautiful days."
Never liked each other…? I sniffed out a smile recalling how badly I detested that stupid Cherry Fowler. However, she never stopped following me, disturbing me and making me reluctantly move on with her stupid words.
But I actually have special moments with her… that we're lovely
My first fan was her, someone who never felt embarrassed to cheer me up though she was the odd one out of all. The first person to see me as an idol was her. The first girl to confess her love but made an act of fake girlfriend. The second girl… I'm lately cultivating feelings for.
"... Huh? Why are you smiling for no reason, Dear Moon?"
"Just by knowing about you and Dad's relationship."
Though it was a lie, it was the only reason I found it unexpectedly. But… deep down I was missing someone who I thought was troublesome in my life rather than a troubleshooter. I said what is true, isn't it?
Cherry… Cherry Fowler was far better than the real Tangwen Alfie… I should have realized her love in the pure state now it's in an impure state… How am I supposed to refine it? I might just end up living a fake lifestyle if I couldn't refine the impurities. This chemistry into another chemistry causes, therefore, confusion in me.
"We're not back home!"
"Say you're back home, Moon!- Huh?" My Mom massaging Milo abruptly paused after I made a wrong sentence. "You guys are back!!!" Did she think we disappeared? Just in the blink of an eye, my eyes flashed when I saw my Mom running towards me, strengthening her hands to hug me. That's gonna make me emotional now!
Eventually, my hands raised emotionally to hug her and get drowned in her warm hug and have a smooch from my Mom. But- "Honey, I missed you!" She hugged Uncle Ren! Is her daughter even visible to her? Everything just vanished like ash! Spoiler, Mommy! Humph!
"Ha, done hugging your sweet husband, Ms. Lilly? Or do you need any more after-lives?"
"Oh~ Someone is jealous here, ha~?"
"Humph! There's no one, Ms. Lilly-" Goodness. I blushed and shined when a smooch flew onto my cheek and put a blush on it. My lips curved gradually into a childish croissant smile.
"My kid is growing older, huh? Don't be jealous, Madam Moon. Mom had kissed you, no?" Uncle Ren caressed my hair swiftly and I just endured it politely. Just parents and children talking, haha. With a cute smile, my Mom looked passionately at her husband.
Oh-oh! Are they falling into each other's gaze day by day?
But I'm a good daughter so… "Mom, Uncle Ren, and I had dinner at a traditional restaurant!" So I shouldn't let Uncle live in peace, right? See how Mom is going to burst out. Hohoho!
Poor Uncle Ren. Heh! "What?? I was worried for both of you and you took her to a restaurant!! Why are you like this, Ren?!!"
"Moon!! Idiot, I will never take you out again!!"
"Stop screaming on Moon, Ren!!"
They are just kids in their puberty. Sure their love will not fall apart because of such a stupid fight, their love is my inspiration towards love and affection but the most I admire is my Dad's and Mom's relationship.
… ah? Did I leave my door unlocked before? The slight opening of the door was adjusting the light rays out of it on the floor. That flash is of high eye-flashing rays. Just a slight push to open the door,
"Little Monster…? Over here?"
With light steps, I walked to her and paired my hand with her soft curled hair. Hash, how beautiful! A kind smile and then my hand caressed her hair. This girl horribly troubles me, being naughty the whole day and never being quiet in the first place.
See this girl, how carelessly she's sleeping. "Today was my last day. I guess I might disappear before you could meet me tomorrow morning, Little Monster." I don't wanna leave this house but… it's the only way I have. And made. At least I'll be going with a light heart. All burdens, worries, and painful moments took off behind… I'm gonna walk further with empty hands.
Little Monster.
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