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Chapter 11 - I feel so useless as a brother

Clarrisa's P.O.V,

"Please no more" those words came out breaking through my trembling lips, tears blurred my vision unable me to see the fierce monster who was next in line to rape me.

I continued crying and begging the man not to do it anymore but he kept coming and seeing his dick poking out, vividly staring at me, the enormous size of it gave me strength to help myself—I starts shifting back on my butt.

"Be a good girl and let's do this peaceful girl" the man growled but I kept begging him to let me go at the same time shifting back.

Again he paid deaf ears and next, he dragged my legs making me lie flat on the bed. I screamed and starts struggling with him with all my might.

"Don't fucking make this hard for me you bitch. I didn't pay those brothers of yours for you to give me a fucking hard time." He screamed at my face but I didn't oblige.

When I kept struggling with him, he gave me hard a slap. With the excruciating sting I felt, I was pretty sure his hand prints were there.

His face dwindled off and formed into two faces. They now happen to be two of the best in my life.

Samson and Jake.

They were both chasing me around the garden.

Already my legs were too weak so I gave up and fell.

"Please no, forgive me please I'm sorry. I won't do it again" I screamed on the ground as my brothers caught up with me.

Jake smirked creepily at me, he yanked me off the ground with my shirt. "Why the fuck did run you away Huh!!!" Jake screamed at my face and landed a blow on my face.

I fell back and land in Samson's arms. He pushed me down to the ground roughly making me graze my kneel cap.

They brought me off the ground and kept tossing me to each other like football. Laughing and had fun beating me while I kept crying and begging them to stop.

Blood was running down my nose, and my entire blood was bruised, I felt so shattered and I just couldn't take the pains anymore.

Suddenly, the scene changed and I was in the kitchen this time. I was struggling on the floor and Dennis was slowly walking toward me like a demon. His eyes were red. He was with a hot pressing iron and he was going to slam it on my stomach.

"Nooooooo!!" I screamed with the loudest voice and my eyes flickered open.

This was new!!

My eyes opened and I didn't feel pain anymore. I found myself on something soft. I sat up and starts panting.

I looked around the atmosphere and it dawned on me that I just had a dream—or so I thought until my eyes struck the silhouette of some people right in front of me.

Everywhere was dark so I couldn't see them but with their figures, I know they are males. And they are probably going to have their way with me. I trembled with fear as they starts approaching me, getting me traumatized by the horrid dream I just had.

I start shifting with my butts. "Please stay away from me...please..please..." I was crying and begging at the same time.

The men were saying something while still approaching me but I didn't hear any of it cause I kept on crying and screaming for them to stay away.

When my back landed against the wall, I stopped.

"Cmon baby it's me, Liam. Don't be scared" I finally got to hear the words and I was more (confused).

Liam?

"Turn on the light. Matoe" The voice spoke and next light illuminated everywhere.

I was now able to see clearly.

Mateo was behind Liam while Liam was way close to my bed.

They were both giving me a bewildered stare. If not that they look naturally fierce I would be falling for the fright etched on their faces.

"What happened? Why were you screaming? Where are you dreaming what did you dream about baby?" Liam starts rambling as he moved forward to cup my face in his palms.

Matoe too was sitting beside me on the bed.

Suddenly the skin contact and close contact gave me goosebumps. I felt disgusted at their touch.

This was how some of those men sarcastically tease me with their hands and only end up raping me. I grew instant anger for These two boys who were before me right now.

What if they are here to rape me? It could be possible.

After all, I don't trust them and that thought scared the living hell out of me. I can't take in any more pains. I've to save myself.

Deciding on that, I didn't bother to tell them to stay away from me. I manage to slip out of the bed before they could stop me.

I didn't know what to do but thankfully, I found a knife. It was shoved into the dish of rice lying on the desk. I didn't bother to think about how the meal got there, I grabbed the knife.

"Clarrisa why did you do that and What are you doing with the knife ?" Mateo asked in (shock).

I initially took it for protection but What can I do to two grown-up boys with just a knife?

Plans changed, and I decided to use the knife to relieve myself instead.

Ignoring their questions, I turned back and took to my heels.

Matoe screamed at me asking where I was going, I didn't reply to him. I didn't even know where I was going but the moment I saw the restroom door open, I ran into it and shut the door.

While I leaned at the door trying to calm my heartbeat, I could hear Liam and matoe screaming my name and ordering me to come out but I blocked their voices.

Flashes of how I've been sexually abused, violated and broken came flashing in my head which worsen my heart race. I dropped on the toilet seat. Tears from nowhere blurred my vision and I let them flow

I raised the knife I was holding up to my blurring view. After staring at it for a while, I did one slit at my thigh.

I felt the sting but didn't measure up to the emotional pain and trauma I was feeling. I wanted to feel more of the physical pains so I kept doing multiple slits on my thighs.

Blood was beginning to flow down my thighs and a normal human will cringe at the amount of blood oozing out of me but not a messed up girl like me. It instead helps me relax. The physical pain was just the drugs that I needed.

"Baby?" I became aware of my surroundings again. That was Liam's soft voice, followed by a gentle knock on the door.

"Clarrisa baby?  come out of there or you might hurt yourself"

"You are making us scared already!"

"At least talk to us Princess"

I swallowed multiple gulps and another thought dominated my head.

Running away from people is a crime. I don't know about others but for my brothers, each time I run away from them, it's as good as asking for free pouches and all kinds of horrible punishments they made me go through. I don't even want to Remember all those horrible things they did to me but one thing I know is that I've just committed that same crime to Liam and matoe. 

But I still don't get is... why they are calling me those pets names instead of yelling at me. They should be angry right?

Well,  What if they are planning something more gore and gruesome against me?

What if they are being soft to me just to get me to come out and punish me? I know they'll certainly punish me but just what are going to do to me?

Did the group beat me? Throw me out in cold? Cut me? Send me to men to rape me? Probably worst. Those guys out there look more ruthless than my ex-brothers and since I'll no one to protect me, will give them a free pass to break me.

I missed Mum so much. I know Mum doesn't protect me from my ex-brothers but she was the only one I runs to for comfort back then.

More tears pours down my eyes as they kept urging me to come out.

"What's going on here?" That was Antonio's (growling) voice which made my heart suddenly come to a halt.

"I heard a scream earlier on from this room"

"Yeah, took you long enough to show up though" I heard Mateo sigh.

"I asked a fucking question and hold on... where's our sister?"

My heart picked its pace when I heard that question.

"He's inside that restroom," Liam said.

Antonio then asked with a confused tone. "Doing what?"

"That's what I don't know. She ran in with a knife and we are trying to get her out.."

"What??" Was the thunderous voice I heard and next Antonio started yelling my name, accompanied by a thunderous knock on the door?

He seems like he was going to break the door and what if that happens?

Others may pity me but with that (fearsome) voice of Antonio  I know I'll be a dead meat

God...please I know I don't often pray but for the first time save me from these people!!

"Clarrisa?" Antonio's voice goes gentle this time.

"Baby?" Pfff!!! I know that's a trick to bribe me to come out but I'll rather die here than face those... those fierce-some boys.

"Rissa I know you are there and you can hear me right? I'm going to say this once, come of that place or you are going  in real trouble later."

That does it. I don't need anyone to tell me he'll punish me but just what are they going to do to me?

My tears upgraded into sobs. 

I started regretting not listening to Liam and matoe when they've peacefully asked me to come out. Now I'm screwed.

"Clarrisa listen. Open the door now or you don't want me to open it trust me." Antonio spoke again. I sucked in a breath. "On the count of 3 if you don't open the door then I'm doing it myself."

"3..." my heart resumed its pace, beating faster.

"2..." Bracing myself for my fate, I stood up to open the door but I suddenly couldn't do it anymore.

"1"

A loud thud was heard and the door slammed open. Before I stood three fierce men, my heart jumped and my legs suddenly couldn't hold my weight, I stopped breathing and crumbled right to the floor, I passed out.

Antonio's P.O.V,

It was 11 pm, I just left my office heading down to my room. Settling issues with clients in the mafia business isn't fucking a kid's play. I was officially drained, I'd mind having a beauty sleep but then in the hallway, I heard voices and sounds.

Who could be fucking constituting a nuisance in the middle of the night? Was my thought as I trailed the sound which took me down to Clarrisa's room.

When I got there, I was shocked to meet Liam and Mateo banging on the door. I was asking them what happened but then something dawned on me, this was Clarissa's room and she was nowhere to be found. I asked about her and for their sake, prayed that they don't tell me she was missing— hell I can't go through the double stress of searching for two sisters.

Thankfully they didn't tell me that but I arrived at my boiling point when they told me she was in the toilet and with what? A fucking knife? I didn't bother to say a thing to them, I gave them glares which will warn them ahead of them being a lump of dead meat later.

In as much as I tried to shun any negative thoughts, I couldn't stop the fear bubbling within me at the thought of my kid sister locked in a room with a knife. I tried my possible best to get her to come out.

Not like I wouldn't have gotten in myself, I just wanted her to come out herself safe and unharmed but I lost all patience as I didn't hear her voice instead what I heard was tiny sobs.

With one kick from my foot, I sent the door flying open. For someone who'd been trained in the mafia right from infancy, that was just a piece of cake.

Opening the door, I was met with drove a dagger through my chest. Before I stood a paled-looking girl who was stained with so much blood on her white gown, her hair was messed up, her eyes red and swollen—in fact, she described as an eyesore. I've experienced different tortures in the mafia world but none ever hurt as the pain of seeing my baby sister this way.

And what hurts most was the way she gasped in terror at the sight of me, matoe and Liam. She was terrified. My baby sister was fucking terrified of me and as if that wasn't enough, she dropped down and fainted.

Liam and matoe ran in to carry her up but me... I stood transfixed traitorous tears blurring my vision.

"What are we going to do now Antonio? She's bleeding seriously" Liam said in panic while carrying her in her arms.

I took out my phone and sent a text to doctor Chris our personal doctor that there's an emergency. "Lay her down on bed. I've texted chris. he'll be here soon."

After making comment that, he should better hasten up, Liam laid her on the bed.

"Now tell me how the fuck did everything happen?" I shouted at both matoe and Liam as Clarissa was now laid on the bed.

They both shared glances for a while.

"Well, She came to us earlier to help her prepare dinner. I and Liam went to the kitchen to get the food done while we asked her to wait in her room. Minutes later, we were done. We came to her room to serve her food but we met her struggling on the bed, mumbling some words. We tried to wake her but she didn't budge. Suddenly she screamed and woke up. She was so scared when she woke up. when we tried to ask her what was wrong, she suddenly ran away and took the knife from her food. Before we could stop her, she ran in the kitchen and locked herself" Mateo explained, patting his feet on the floor.

"Can you hear your fucking self talk? How could little girl be able to run away from the presence of two grown idiots with a fucking knife..." I spat. I don't usually swear at my brothers but they fucked up big time.

"I'm sorry Antonio but she took us by surprise" Liam intervened.

"I don't fucking care how it happen but you should have done everything to stop her. You better pray nothing happens to her. Now for your fucking punishments you'll have to watch

clarrisa for the whole night after Josh is done treating her ." I yelled and turned my back against them to leave but I suddenly stopped when something dawned on me.

"Where's Jayden?"

Don't tell me he didn't hear all these noises?

"I don't know... I haven't seen him." Liam shrugged.

"Me neither" matoe sighs.

I swear if  I catches Jayden snoring while a heated mess took place without his notice, I will chuff him.

"Antonio..." Liam called me back while I was leaving the room.

I turned to face him.

"Don't you think there's something wrong with our sister? I mean you could have seen the way she was traumatized earlier..." Liam cooed. "we need to find out what happened to her and help her"

Yeah I've since thought about that... for little girl of her age to self harm that isn't ordinary.

She's definitely gone through a rough life but this isn't something I wanted to discuss with matoe nor Liam, for now. I was still fucking angry with them hence, I just sighs and walked out.

I went to Jayden's room to check up on him but to my dead surprise, he was no where to be seen. I tried calling him but his line was dead. Fucking urgh!!! these brothers of mine will be the end of me!!

I didn't let him bother me instead the thought of my baby sister was what dominated me as I paced around my room with a glass of scotch in my hand.

I've earlier tried to sleep but...How can I sleep knowing fully well that my baby sister might be suffering from depression, trauma and anxieties. How can I sleep when I don't know the people who made her that way?

I'll make them regret messing with a de costa.

Well I may not know this yet, but I'll find out and when that happens, I'll make sure I paint this city with the blood of Anyone who must have hurt my sister.

where could my other baby be by the way. What's happening to Rechel right now?

What if she's in danger right now? Jess I feel so useless as a brother.

"Arghhhh" I screamed and slammed my fist against the wall.

I brought out my phone and texted Jace to ask update about his findings on my sister. He told me he was still on it.

A/n

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