"What are you doing?", I asked Keenan who was standing beside my bed staring at me as if he hadn't seen me for years. He looked pale and his eyes swollen which made me think he had been hard on himself too just as I have been.
"I just came to checkup on you ", he responded.
"I don't need you to check up on me, I can take care of myself", I said coldly no sympathy evident in my eyes.
"I'd just get going since you are fine and you don't need me, but I need to say goodbye too…..and just know I'm very sorry", he said and turned to leave when I stopped him. I don't know why I stopped him but I didn't want him to leave either, I like his presence.
"Can you wait a little longer? Can you watch over me while I'm asleep then you can leave",
"I don't have much time, I have to go", he said and with that he disappeared.
"Kee…Keenan ….Keenan!!,where are you?….Keenan ", I shouted his name but nothing changed. He wasn't coming back to me. Unknown tears began rolling on my cheeks making them warm.
"What wrong Ash? Wake up", I heard Ana's voice coming through making me open my eyes.
"Mmm mmm", I yawned rubbing my eyes.
"You are crying baby, what's wrong?", she was giving me that her disturbed stares again.
"Am I?", I asked touching my cheeks.
"Wait, where's Keenan? Didn't you stop him? Why did you let him leave me?", I threw questions at her gaining confused looks form her.
"Ash, you were dreaming. He wasn't here", she tried to calm me down but it wasn't working.
"How can you tell me it's a dream while he was here, right here beside my bed", I spoke tapping the edge of the bed just to make her aware of where exactly he was standing.
"Why are you even thinking about him? He's not supposed to be in your life, just let him go", she said sitting beside me on the bed. I had folded my legs on the bed not wanting to release them for I don't know why.
"He's part of my life now Ana, I can't stop thinking about. I feel so empty without him, Ana, I'm scared of loosing him", I said making her hug me tightly. "Wait a minute, he said he had no time, he said goodbye. Where is he going?", I pushed myself from her embrace.
"I told you it was a dream Ash"
"No Ana, even if it is, it should have a meaning. Maybe he is truly leaving, I have to stop him. He has to know how much I love him and I can't hate him no matter what", I said getting up from the bed. Ana remained quiet gazing at me while I was going through my wardrobe looking for something to where. I didn't have the time to be wearing any fancy or sexy dress. I settled for a blue shirt and jeans , held my hair in bun, slipped my foot into my adidas slides, took my car key and left the room in haste.
"Where do you think you are going?", Ana questioned but that didn't stop me from moving further. "Aislin!", she called out my name making me stop. It has been years since I heard my name been called out like that by Ana.
"I'm sorry Ana but I have to find Keenan, I'd be safe,I promise", and with that, I drove out of the big compound.