When you arrive at the Moors with the pack, you can not help but feel a sense of peace and tranquility run through out your body and soul. As we run, I can the feel the grip on my wolf slip as I effortlessly shift into my dark auburn form. Stopping for a moment, I allow my body adjust into my form and allow my senses to come forward. I catch the scent of the cool mountain stream up a head. Curling my paws through the damps earth, I lunge through the trees as I reach the silver water edge. I can't help but close my eyes and just listen to the sounds. I can hear the soft water through the stream, the wind in the trees and the sound of all the creatures surround me. Such peace for the soul..
Behind me, I hear rustling from the trees I turn around to see a pair of green eyes watching me from the brush. Growling in warning to the unwanted intruder of my space. He softly whimpers before he crawls forward, silently asking for permission to invade my peace. Growling low I lay to the ground in silent permission. I still keep my eyes on him making sure he doesn't try to pull anything. His ears perk up at the warning/ invitation he gets up and cautiously walks over to lick my muzzle in greeting. He slowly rubs his large obsidian black body up and down the side of mine covering my scent with his. When he is done he lays a few inches away and slowly crawls tome. He pokes the underside of my abdomen with his muzzle, and I know he wants me to transition back so we can talk but I growl a small chuff back in annoyance.
Suddenly I feel the shiver of his transition and I look over at him taking in the bronzed skin of his muscular 6'4" frame, green eye and his shoulder length black hair. With his classic Asian features he truly was a beautiful specimen.
"Ev.. please" looking at me with a sense of vulnerability in his eyes I haven't seen in a long time.
Groaning and get up and look him dead in the eye and transition back. When I finished I could feel his gaze running up and down my body leaving goosebumps on my skin.
"Hey" His eyes finally reaching mine.
"Hey" feeling vulnerable with his proximity to me. I walk in to the water to partially cover myself.
He chuckles at the and I bristle at the sound. "We are adult, Evie its nothing we haven't seen before.." as he to goes into the water waist deep but a few steps away so I was comfortable.
"That was one time and then you dropped me off at home like a common slut."
Snarling at my words his eyes turned black as he looked at me.
"Is that really how little you think of me.. How you remember us?"
"All I know is I gave my love, my body and my trust. You fucked me and left without a word." I said bitterly.
"What the fuck Ev.. I wrote you a goddamn letter explaining what was going on. I gave it Audrey before I saw you and told her to give it to you."
I looked up startled at the revelation.. You wrote me a letter?"
"Of course I fucking wrote you a letter! I was leaving and there was is always the possibility I wouldn't come back.."
"I... I never knew about the letter." I spoke softly as I watched the water stream around my waist.
"I was so fucking in love with you.. hell I'm still fucking in love with you even without the mate bond pulling between us. Did you really believe in us so little that you thought I would leave you without a word." I can hear the slight crack in his voice and it gave me pause before I could respond.
"Even if what you say is true and you did write me a letter explaining everything, it does not excuse you leaving like that. Do you know what that did to me. I felt used and betrayed.. I had no one I could talk too. I couldn't tell Reese and Jace.."
"Don't bring Jace up right now!" effectively cutting me off with the anger in his voice. I can see his whole body going rigid with jealousy.
Breathing in I continue " No.. you need to hear this and I need to let this out while I still can." I close my eyes before I continue and allow the memories and the pain from the last four years to flow through me. This may be the only time I can say this if I truly want to move on. Whether that will be with or without Tate.
"That day meant more to me than you will ever know.." Looking at him I see him go to speak and I lift my hand up.
"Please let me just say what I have to say.. Hopefully by doing this you can understand my side in all this and maybe then we can try to see if we can move past this.."
"Okay Ev let's do this..