The DOER COMPANY is a Finnish foreign company engaged in the Energy Industry. The production is Power Generation Machines for Industrial purposes, not for Household purposes. Many factories, malls, and power plants spread across the country use generators made by The Doer Company. So the customers are divided into Private and Government companies such as PLN/PLTD*).
The DOER COMPANY Representative Offices are spread across 170 countries, and Doer Indonesia is one of the Representative Offices.
Monday is meeting day. Only Monday Sales Managers are allowed in the office. On the other days, they travel to visit customers in their respective regions.
Luna left the meeting room near the lobby and returned to her seat on the 3rd floor. She looked at her watch, and it was late. She read some unread emails in her inbox before turning off her computer when someone passed by and greeted her.
"Cinta, home?"
Who else, if not Buddy her long-time co-worker? Only this guy calls her Cinta, which means Love.
"May I join?" said Luna while tidying the desk.
"My pleasure," replied Buddy excitingly.
"Until Traffic," claimed Luna.
"Anywhere for you..." Buddy didn't continue his sentence but looked at the girl. Luna laughed. The sequel must be terrible.
Buddy walked ahead, he must pick up the car in the parking lot beside the office building first, while Luna waited in the lobby after the toilet. Not long after a white metallic sports car approached her and stop in front of the lobby.
"Btw, Have you gotten a price quote from Italy yet?" asked Buddy as she sat on the chair beside him.
"Yes," replied the girl quickly. "A short answer, with a long seduction," she continued.
"Oh?" Buddy turned his gaze from the road into her eyes. He slowed down when the security at the exit gate stood up and waved his hand. And the car slid smoothly into the industrial lane.
"They gave a Price list with the subject 'You are the beautiful woman of my dream,' what's the connection, huh?" explained the girl, amused.
"Oh, that's not seduction; that's true." Reply Buddy, calm.
"Rags." She hissed
"Serious!" said the man.
Luna smiled.
"Oya, how's the weekend? Have you gone to the workshop?
The girl turned her face surprised that Buddy still remembered her weekend event.
"What's about?" asked him back.
"Learn to be a little God." Answer Luna shortly.
"Little God?"
The guy was curious.
"Yes, writing a story is the work of little God; they create various characters, turn their life on, create their path, and turn them die."
"O, I see... a fiction story?"
"Even Fiction must also have logic." She emphasized.
"Still have time to write?" asked Buddy again.
"Honestly, it's tough to manage the time, but it depends on the intention."
"Was it accompanied by Bintang?"
How could he mention Bintang? The woman thought.
"Yes, he takes me to the bus stop, then I continued by bus to the event"
This guy doesn't seem willing if she's complicated. Buddy wants to be angry when someone makes Luna uncomfortable, even though it's Bintang, her husband.
"Why?" he asked again.
"That's what he wanted after all."
"How about you? What do you want?" he insisted.
"We are practical."
"Have you tried asking for help?"
"Tired, a lot of reasons."
"Oh, I'm so sorry for you, Luna." long sighs.
"It's okay. I used to. Don't worry."
"If you say it's okay, you're not honest with yourself. Deep in your heart, you don't like it, do you?" chase Buddy curiously.
"I always try to find a way to like it. How to turn conflict into comfort." Beuhhhhh... so heavy.
"Hmmm..." Buddy hissed. "... But have you ever listened to your heart? You should understand your needs once in a while."
"Ah, not a matter of principle."
"Maybe it's because that's how you are. So, that's how he is."
"After all, he has all kinds of reasons to say No!"
"Serious?"
"Well, maybe you're right. Because that's how he is, so how I am. And I think this our the best, and we never fight, never make a fuss."
"Then if he is like how he is, never cares about your interests, never knows your wants and needs. And you keep quiet, accept it, and give up, then what is your existence's meaning, Luna? For you, how important is yourself? What is more valuable than you? Why don't you consider yourself necessary enough to be reckoned with?" Squeeze the man.
Silent.
Luna doesn't know the answer. She had always believed that it was for the best all this time. But now, there is another argument that shakes her belief.
The words kept ringing in her ears.
So what is the meaning of your existence? For you, how important is yourself? Why don't you ever count yourselves? Why do you never trust that you are a matter?
AM I IMPORTANT?"
***
After Sales Meeting, Week 2
"Wanna join, Cinta?"
"May I?"
"Sure thing."
"Okay, then"
"Where's Bintang?"
"I do not know."
"How come you don't know?"
"Do we always have to know?"
"Of course"
"Nope"
"Why?"
"Why not?"
"Don't you worry if he cheats on you, for example?"
"Maybe"
"Why don't you care?"
"Neither."
"Do you love him?'
"I won't marry him If I don't love him."
"How long have you been married?"
"Long enough."
"How old are you now?"
"Guess!"
"Forty'
"Ouch, cruel."
"Mmm.. thirty-nine."
"You are so bad!"
"Don't blame me. Whose fault?"
"Well, I guess I don't have to answer."
"Why?
"It's not important."
"Alright."
Silence for a moment
"So, why do you love him?"
Hmmm, Luna is amazed by Buddy's persistence in extracting info.
"He can make me laugh even when I'm crying. He can turn my frown into a smile, make a bad mood go away, he was funny." Finally, Luna gave a long explanation.
"That was then... What about now?" Buddy chased.
"The opposites. He makes me cry when I laugh, turns my smile into a frown, and puts me suddenly in a bad mood at a good time …" Luna paused and stared at Buddy; the man didn't move, "Hey, I'm telling a joke. Why aren't you laughing?" she protested.
"What's to laugh at..." the boy hissed, half groaning.
"I admire him because he is never patronizing, controlling, never jealous, not emotional, not easily influenced, not easily provoked... he is the most persistent person, not easy to give up." Luna continued her story.
Buddy shut up
"From his point of view, I'm the most difficult person to beat. I am the biggest challenge for him. So we fit each other needs actually."
"Sounds beautiful. But make sure you don't hide your true feelings. Aren't you lying about your feelings?" Investigate Buddy
"What for?"
"Please, Luna. Get in contact with your body! Listen to your heart! Please don't kill your feelings! What do you feel? What exactly do you want?"
"I'm sorry, Buddy, I don't want to hear pearls of wisdom anymore. Why do you always think that I'm not happy?"
"Fine. It's your life. I'm just asking a simple question, why are you so annoyed? What do you want in your life? I'm not sure you know what you want. You just let your life flow. Don't numb your feelings. What do you want?
WHAT DO YOU WANT, My dear?
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*)PLN/PPLTD, State Electricity Company/ Local Power Company