I did not speak much to the others because I did not find it necc to make friends who would all soon leave, but Marta was different and I know the other slave would have told the others about her being here today but I did not care.
I made my way slowly to my sleeping quarters waiting patiently for the boss to call me out and punish me for messing with his daughter.
I wondered if she was okay as I walked home, the tall grasses by the mside green and beautiful under the fading light of day.
As I reached the quarters I could see everyone flash smiles at me, and beneath it all I could seee thier mockery poking my skin, I knew they were right to mock me.
I did not associate with any slaves, only the slave's girl whose sister would by now had broken the recent information to her father.
I went into my room and lay on my bed, I wasn't hungry even tough juli had brought food from the massa's kitchen.
I just lay on my back in the darkness watching the sky through the window facing me, I wonder about my homeland, if the people are still there, I wonder about a lot of people and places I have seen over the years, and as my tension of what massa pines would do after she tells him I was with Marta in the river, I wonder what will happen to Marta.
Knock!!
Knock! Knock!!
I don't answer, I wait in silence thinking of which beast to turn to, I think of turning to a grasshopper and hiding under my bird, I think of becoming a leopard and staying to eat the unfortunate visitor, but I wait and listen, I wait patiently until I hear a voice, it is the voice of a lady, a familiar voice which have been bringing me food sometimes, she works in the kitchen.
"Open Kal," she says, "I don't want people to hear me, I quickly undo the wooden bolt and then I pull her into the room, as she walks slow to the side and unviel the piece of pie in a napkin," I saved this for you".
What is that I asked as she pushed it towards me, "here" she answers with a bright smile which is highlighted by the oil lamp she had brought in with her.
She drops it on the table and then sits on my bed, looking at the almost empty room which is decorated by a bed by the window and a table on the other end.
I collect it and take a bite, "I heard from Mulasa that you were with the lady massa,"
I continue to eat and don't reply her, I heard you two went swimming, he is telling everyone the other lady scold you",
I still don't answer and then she says "you can have me, you can be with me and forget her, she will get you killed, I will be here by you whenever.
I hear her but I still don't answer until I ffinish the pie, I then ask her," did he say anything else?
"No, but everyone is talking, they are saying their will be an execution soon and you will be the attraction."
I stand there for a while not moving and then I say to her "you should go now I have to rest for tomorrow".
"Let me help you relax "she adds.
" I don't want anybody right now, I want Marta I say in my head."
I don't tell her this, I know she will not be able to take this, and I need someone by my side, so I tell her to stay, I say" stay ".
She begins to undo her dress and she lies slowly in my bed, I watch her closely, her chocolate skin, I watch the marks in her body from whipping, I watch her mounds and how dark the nipples are, I watch them stand, I watch her eyes and I can see my reflection, I watch her body wait for me, still as mine moves closer.
I take my cloths off too and then I lie close to her and I take in a deep breath, as my hand moves slowly across her body, she turns towards me and our lips meet, her hands to my chest pressing hard against it as her legs circle around me.
I look into her eyes and she pushes slowly at me trying to hold my weight on her hands but I don't let her, I don't put my weight on her, I only let my lips mix with hers.
And then I pull away slowly and ask Her what is your name, she looks at me in shock but she tells me anyway,"shana but massa calls me Julie".
"Call me shana" she adds.
Not that I will remember In a few hundred years but for now, I will remember her in this minute as she guides me into her after a careful massage of my length.
And as I enter I appear at the river where I and Martha are in the water, and we kiss and Martha pulls me close and I am inside her, I stroke gently as I kiss her clavicle and bite her neck, she moans into my ears and hold tight yo my frame calling my name as short breathes escapes her lips.
I call her name, slowly as my hip rhythm increase, my hands by her side as I hear my name fill the room.
I could feel Martha's soft pink mounds in my mouth I I gently circle around it in tease.
Sweating and stroking, panting like I have chased a lion out of the forest but I don't stop, I go harder now, I don't pause until I feel her body tense up, I open my eyes and I see her, I see shana holding my wrists with the both of her hands, her eyes lost like one possessed, her body slowly feeding on the continous strokes that now massage her insides slowly as I hear her say (don't stop).