I walked around the street not knowing what to do. I left the sanctuary and I just don't know. Leaving was so easy because I had nothing. Those clothes bought are from them so it is not mine. I looked forward to see a truck driver. I wanted a ride but I wasn't going back that way so I looked behind me. Didn't see any cars at the moment. So I just kept walking. It's a long way to go to reach the city. I didn't have anything. Just my phone and my cards. Social Security and ID. My birth certificate I usually have a replica so I don't mind getting a new one to whatever location I move next.
I looked down to the street as I feel like I forgot something. But what is it? A very familiar face pops to mind. I stopped walking and looked back. I was already so far away. I have been walking for five hours now. The sun is barely rising. But I left Scarlet behind. Would she be ok? Will she notice I am gone? 'She'll be ok... She has Sarah who is glued to her side and that man... He had such loving expression...' Just like Luke had. But all that comes to mind is his angry expression. His back facing me. I fucked up everything.
What I made things worse is still being curious and making stuff up in my mind. I should have stayed quiet. Suddenly a car screeches behind me and I panicked. I thought I was about to die but then I recognized the car. It's Ashton. He looks pissed off. Nobody was with him. Did Luke tell him? Oh fuck seems like he didn't like it. The moment he got out of the car and the truck passed us. I started running away from him. I ran as fast as I could. I should have left sooner. I should have known. Ashton is the first one to tell me breakfast is ready and checks on me in the morning to see if I am ok. My wounds are still healing but I didn't care.
I don't want to see Luke's disappointment anymore. I don't want to see him angry at me. I made him mad. It's my fault he is mad. I don't want to see him mad. I shut my eyes as I started crying. I felt something grab my arm and it made me stop in my tracks. What strength. I struggled to move but I hear his groaning of frustration. It's hurts so much what I have done. I don't want to face him.
"Please... Let me go..." I pleaded I didn't want to look at him I didn't dare too
"Why should I?" he asked mad
"I made him mad..." I said through tears
I tried pushing myself forward but he wouldn't budge "You are acting like a child... We were worried about you!"
I froze at his words as I say "Worried?"
~FLASH MEMORY~
"YOU FUCKING BITCH YOU SHOULD HAVE SHUT UP AND OBEY!" mother screams at me as she smacks me as hard as I could
"Am sorry..." I say as I laid on the floor
"You should have kept quiet... Don't ever ask stupid questions!" mother stomps on my hand
I cried in pain as tears had gotten worse. I looked at up to her hand. A book. It was the book I was reading two days ago. It was about politics. Tears streamed down as I saw the movement of her hands. I knew she was drunk and with a man. But how should I have known they were about to do something nasty. She looks very angry with barely clothes on as the man just smoked a cigarette looking at his phone. This man wasn't my father. But I came to talk to mom. I was curious about something but now I know. I should have never asked. My hand was hurting so much it feels as if it is about to be broken. She presses her foot on it harder and I stared back at her crying hard.
"A woman is to never be curious! You should shut up and be a fucking shadow!" she smacked me with the book this time
~END OF MEMORY~
This reminded me of that for some odd reason and it made me cry even more. I was curious and I got someone angry. I didn't mean to make anyone angry. Ashton is angry at me. Luke is angry at me. It hurts. I am afraid. I don't want to be hurt. The moment I felt Ashton's hold on me loosened I took the chance and tried to run away. But he was faster than me and grabbed my arm again. I slip a bit and land on my knees. I was shaking like crazy. Will he hit me? Will he yell at me? The memory of my mother throwing the book to my face still fresh in my mind.
I felt his get close and I flinched while saying "Please... Am sorry..."
He stops and he releases my hand "Why did you try leaving?"
I hugged myself as I cried more my heart wrenching in fear "I was afraid..."
"Afraid?" he asked confused
"I m-m-ma-ade him ma-ma-mad... I d-didn't mean to get him m-m-mad..." I say through hiccups
"Who?" he asked confused
"I a-a-angered Luke... I di-didn't mean to a-anger him" I say again through hiccups
I heard him sigh out and I felt his hand on my shoulder and I shrieked lowly. My trembling body worse. I was so tense. Afraid of getting beat up again. Getting yelled at. I didn't mean it. Any of it. I got picked up and I was shocked. I looked at him as he looks hurt. He looks so worried about something. Is he worried about me? He walks back to the car. I am going back? Why is he taking me back? Luke doesn't want to see me. What if he yells at me again? What if he locks me up? I am over thinking things again.
I hid in his chest as I felt very much afraid. I know walking distance is really far away but I expected to have at least reached the city. A place where I can hide. But I am too slow. I took too many moments to rest. I am an idiot. I sniffled and I am placed in the passenger side. I looked at him crying as I didn't know what to do or say. He closes the door and walks to the passenger side. I looked to the side and noticed a man. He looks very angry. Did Luke send someone to hurt me? I have never seen this man before. Suddenly I heard Ashton yell in anger.
The man looks terrified and runs away quickly. He knows Ashton. Ashton gets into the car and he looks really pissed off right now. He turns the car and speeds off. A drive that usually takes an hour and a half would turn into a thirty minute drive.
"Don't you ever leave the pack understood!?" He snaps in anger
I shut my eyes terrified "Am sorry..."
"You could have gotten hurt... Seeing how that man kept staring at you made my blood boil in rage!" Ashton yells as he grips the wheel hard
"Am sorry!" I cried out as I covered my face
I knew I made him angry. It's my fault. The pressure of the vehicle had gotten worse and I knew he started speeding even more. For some odd reason there was no officer or anything. He is speeding. We will get killed if he keeps it up like this. A gentle growl is heard right beside me and I tensed up. Somehow I recognized that growl. I looked forward expecting to see the black wolf but I saw nothing. The growls felt so familiar. But nothing like that black wolves growl. I looked at Ashton and the moment he glanced to me I looked away in fear.
I could literally feel his anger radiating off of him. I felt the wheels with my feet. I swallowed a growing lump in my throat and I just started wiping the tears away. I hear Ashton groan out and I knew he is getting tired of me. I feel like I am getting into so much trouble but I thought they would enjoy me being gone. I expected them to feel more relaxed with their own home instead of me being there. Maybe they acted like they like me. Maybe as a new comer so I wouldn't go away. But I wasn't even working for them.
'...I am falling in love with you...' His voice echoes in my mind and my heart skipped a beat. I started to cry more as I knew I ruined everything. Completely everything. Will he yell at me more? Will he still be angry with me? Will he yell at me when I return. I did so much wrong in just two days. I ruined so much. My heart hurts so much. I think he will just yell at me and then kick me out. I could never find a job ever again. He has so much connections. I am going to live in the streets. Regretting everything I have done and have said to the man I started to actually fall in love with.
Even though I was not suppose to fall in love with him as we barely know each other but I have been falling in love with him so badly that I did this. I hurt myself. I hate myself. I should have stayed quiet. My heart feels so heavy.
Am an idiot.