Somehow the school had found out I had been attacked but still considered it to be skipping. Nott sure how they would have found out; unless Dean told someone, like a teacher or maybe even the principal. I was even considering it, not sure I can handle her much longer; even knowing that this is my last year of high school.
Bringing me panic in it's own way, not really thinking on what my future holds; Julien adding to how unknown it all was. How he would change whatever that future was going to be. Or I suppose he was always going to change it one way or another.
''Hello Julien.'' My mother greeted Julien with a smile, as my dad should had done too; giving me a smile too. Not just jumping straight to it and not to mention how he used the word skipped. As If I have ever just skipped school.
I smiled at my mother before I looked back to him. ''It was Rachel.'' My personal torturer, almost worse then Daven; I've had to deal with her for years. He should know that. ''Besides we have a guest so let's focus on that.'' I told him referring to Adeline but he looked to Julien.
Still getting him to realize he had been a bit rude none the less, despite him being the wrong guest I was referring to.
''I'm sorry Julien, hi.'' Julien nodded but he was the only one who did not know exactly what I was talking about. Julien a guest of course; well far more then that but Adeline being the guest this time.
''Adeline; dad.'' I spoke up before Julien could, not needing him to have yet another person who knows it all before he does; having to deal with my mother and I to do it for him already. Besides with her around it does add another person.
He glanced between the three of us. ''Adeline, she's here? Where?'' He asked and I looked upstairs to where she is washing up; changing her clothes and hopefully getting both comfortable and calmed down from her previous state of the opposite.
I truly wanted everyone to have peace; even people like Rachel, even Daven.
''She's showering and changing, she's been running since long before Alaska.'' I put a bit of emphasize on running; letting them both know what it really meant. Not just from Daven. My father nodded, understanding he should hold off on questions and any sort of bombardment.
Something that he had learned to master without having extra senses. But for now it's best to just let her adjust and settle in. The first questions that should be asked, should be hers anyway.
My dad thought It would be best to head back to the office; knowing I am okay now and give her time with one introduction at a time. He would just finish up a few things then be back by dinner. Which Julien unfortunately wont be able to stick around for; needing to leave before sunset.
''Adeline?'' I knocked on my bedroom door, no longer hearing the shower but not going to just walk in. She only requested a few moments before shouting for me to come in. Upon opening the door I saw her by the bathroom door; tossing her wet hair to dry it in within a towel.
''Thank you for this; I really needed it.'' She gestured to the bathroom; referring to the shower and I didn't enterally know how to react; no one has ever thanked me for a shower before.
I took a moment but nodded, ''Yeah; no problem.'' It truly was no problem but I knew first hand how cruel this world is to anyone different; without my family and Dean, I would be lost. Where is her family, the side that she came from?
''Do you think your mother would mind if I asked her some questions? Daven was right, I do have questions.'' I nodded, sure this was just as strange as It is for her. How much had her side told her; been able to tell her?
''She would be happy to answer anything she can.'' I told her, seeing her hesitating in even asking. She turned her head at my response; seeming to realize something.
''You were encouraged weren't you; to use magic I mean?'' She asked, clarifying after a moment to be clear on just what she meant by her random question but I turned my head now. Had she not been?
''Well yes; hide it but....were you not?'' I asked, stepping in the room and closer to her. Not sure how that would have changed how I already see it all and myself. She nodded, not having been encouraged but still had some impressive skills.
After a few moments she pulled herself away; shutting any emotions she may have been feeling out, I recognized it. As natural empaths that was something that needed to be learned quickly in order to get breaks; to survive all we can feel, including our own emotions.
Which were not always easy to determine which were my own and which I was only feeling because some one else was feeling them. Miserable at first, still miserable if not done right.
I nodded and sighed, none the less understanding it. ''She's in the craft room.'' I told her, knowing my mother would be ready and willing to answer all her questions; having many of her own too.
She nodded before mumbling a thank you and brushed past me. I remained standing there for a moment before I sighed and turned; seeing Julien waiting just beyond the doorway, having made his way up during our short conversation without a sound.
I smiled as soon as I noticed him; getting him to look up before I began to walk to close the small space between but he closed the rest of it by meeting me as well within the room.
''How's it feel?'' Julien asked as he placed his hands around my lower back and to avoid any further interruptions I closed the door before locking it; using my magic to do both.
''How's what feel?'' I wasn't sure what he was referring to but reached up to hold my hands around the back of his neck, looking up as it helped me lean up a bit. Although he did most of it; supporting me against him with his gentle hold.
''Winning.'' He smirked, referring to Daven and his capture; our victory indeed.
I smiled before he captured my lips with his, enjoying more then the win with it. I moved my hands slightly forward and held his lower face a bit; the kiss easy to deepen as he pulled me closer. Flush against his body, both of us leaning into each other as he both pulled me further up but leaned down a bit too.
His lips led mine effortlessly before I felt a rumble within his chest, feeling it through my chest this time; the sensation caused to me take a breath in between another kiss before the kiss turned a bit heated. Julien pulled back only slightly to kiss my jawline before kissing just under it; lining an array of them along it.
I naturally looked up, giving him better access before he kissed my neck and I sucked in a breath; hearing the moan I made he smirked against my skin but pulled back. Holding me still as he supported me for a moment longer, doing so more then I noticed.
''Why'd you stop?'' I asked, opening my eyes as I spoke and looked at him. At least he was still holding me; stark contrast to what I was just very much enjoying, the things he was doing and how they felt.
He was already looking at me but that intensity was there too; leaving me even more question as to why he would stop when we both were enjoying it.
''Do you want me to continue?'' He asked and reached back up to gently stroke my cheek; just below my eye and I closed them once again. ''All you have to do is ask.'' He told me and let his hand fall away but I quickly opened them and nodded. Not good enough for him though and he looked for more.
''I want you to continue.'' I spoke after a few moments; my want over ruling my fear, he wants it-me too. I know that just by looking at how he was looking at me; how he had changed our kiss to him kissing me.
With my words he smiled to himself before a shocked breath came from my lips as he lifted me up, my body, legs naturally once again moved with him and found themselves moving with him as I wrapped them around him. One hand holding my back and his other hand under me. I felt his breath as he walked us to the bed, kissing my neck once as he sat at the end of the bed. He adjusted me on his lap; getting us both comfortable before he pushed my hair back, making sure he got it all to the back before he smiled at me.
''Use your words; your body can tell me different things.'' He mumbled, his voice deep but low as he glanced between my eyes and my neck; wanting to continue as well. When I only nodded again he made full eye contact; making absolutely sure I heard him.
''My body is pretty in tune with what I want.'' I told him though; using my words as he wants and moving to hold his face as we spoke. More then willing to do so but he can make it so hard to make them come out. The thoughts of letting him take control were strong; more so then ever when he knew just what to do.
''I'd disagree there.'' He raised an eyebrow as he recalled something I was unaware of; had my body wanted something when I didn't really want it. I licked my lip before biting it and sighed.
''Kiss me again.'' I told him; growing impatience with whatever he was referring to either way, I just want him to kiss me and made that as clear as I could for him.
That smile that graced his lips changed into a smirk before he did exactly that and leaned forward; kissing my lips once again. I leaned into him as he ran his hands up my back, pushing into me as well. I felt my body heat up just as he moved to kiss my neck again; going straight to it this time and he kissed where he had pointed he would mark, making it ever clear that it is the spot for him; much stronger then just his touch.
A moan, another new sound to me came from my lips; louder then the one before as it felt so utterly right. I stretched my neck out for him even more as I did so and felt him smile at the reaction; the moan.
''Julien.'' I spoke his name in a breathy moan and he stopped planting kisses to look up at me. ''I want you.'' I told him as I opened my eyes and looked back at him, Julien blinked before looking down; those words not doing what I thought they would. Not the reaction I expected either.
He sighed but looked back up at me as his hands moved back down to my lower back. ''I would have to leave after and I don't want to do that; I want us to have all the time we need.'' He explained and moved to hold my face as my hands had dropped.
He doesn't want me.
I nodded and he rubbed his thumbs over my cheeks. ''Pax.'' He made me look directly at him once again; looking past him at his way of saying no. I finally found the courage to tell him I'm ready and he doesn't want to. How could he do all those things if he didn't want to do anything more, kiss that spot?
He knew he would be teasing me if he kissed me there and he did it anyways.
''What's my body telling you now?'' I asked him and rested my hands on his chest, feeling each muscle that laid under them.
''That you're mad at me but...'' Julien smiled a bit and turned his head slightly before looking down for a moment. ''You still want me.'' He told me, telling me everything he had sensed from my body; seeming to have no issue reading exactly what my body is saying.
''When will you want me?'' Since we both know I want him; that I'm ready it's on him to decide now. No more my choice when he just denied what I wanted. Even after the moment has passed I still know; I'm ready, at least so long as he still is. I would have to rethink a lot of things if he isn't ready.
''I'll never not want you Pax.'' I sighed and looked away; that not true or he would take the time, or what's the point of being an alpha. I thought we had won and deserved to celebrate.
I pushed his chest with my hands as I moved to get up and off his lap, his hands fell from me with a sigh of his own and he got up too.
''You don't want me now.'' I mumbled, barely even saying it but he heard me and grabbed ahold of my hand to stop me from walking any further; spinning me back toward him and into his chest.
''Don't mistake me wanting to take my time; enjoy it all, every inch of you.'' He bit his lip, thinking on the reality of his words before he spoke more and wrapped one of his arms around me to press me into him. ''For not wanting you; ever.'' He nodded and his eyes held a new intensity before he leaned down to kiss me in his most meaningful long kiss yet.
Julien pulled back and I struggled to open my eyes right away at the words he didn't need to say behind a kiss like that. Once I did open my eyes I did so nodding, understanding how he truly meant it.
''When will you have the time?'' I rephrased my question, still wanting to know. When will he make time? Being the alpha and all; I would think he could do exactly that, for something so important between the two of us. What will start the process of me being a Luna.
It is not just about me wanting him either; it's about the mark too. The thing even Dean had agreed to before he found out about the whole process.
''After the pack meeting I called for later today; tomorrow, the next day or the day after that.'' He smiled but wasn't getting it; he had made it so it was my choice again.
I just nodded this time and placed my hand onto his chest; not needing a decision now, if he says soon then I'm sure another moment will come up just as this one did. The way he was looking at me made it hard to doubt.
After I nodded, Julien leaned down a bit to kiss my forward. ''I'll make it worth it the wait.'' He said before placing another kiss on my forehead and pulling back to look at me. ''But I think you'll want to do it at the pack house.'' He told me and I raised an eyebrow at his statement.
''Why?'' Julien smirked at my question; really smirking at my lack of knowledge of it all. I suppose he knew what to do because of what comes with it. Not to mention he would be the one doing it.
''You moan...and I'm sure it'll get a lot louder.'' He stated as if that was a simple totally normal and not embarrassing thing to say. I nodded and tapped his chest with my hand; trying to act as though it is normal.
''Right and doing that in a house full of werewolf's; no one will hear us.'' I gently pushed on his chest and he released so I could move to my closet; the heat I felt from him still making me hot within my sweater.
We'd be better off doing it here, most likely to have the place to ourselves; no one to hear anything and the pack house would guarantee us being heard. I glanced back at him once I got to my closet and after I opened it I took my sweater off. If he could tease me then I was certainly going to return the favor.
I pulled a tank top from my dresser before slipping it over my head and turning to face him once again. Shock on his face at my actions; it was funny, how I imagined he had felt earlier. When he had been amused by what his actions had caused me to feel. How I had reacted to them.
I smiled at him before I looked down to hide it as I pulled my hair from my shirt.
''When exactly are you leaving for that meeting?'' I changed the topic for both our sakes and made my way mostly back over to him. Keeping a bit of distance since he will be leaving, the sooner this pack meeting happened the sooner he would be free to come back.
Free for prom and us to mate; for him to mark me. After prom was still looking like our best time; whether we do that at the pack house or not. I really didn't care where as long as I'm with him.
''Well I can leave now; If you're trying to get rid of me.'' He smirked at the notion; as If I would ever want to get rid of him. I smiled though and moved a step closer.
''No; of course not.'' I took a seat at the end of my bed and looked up at him as I crossed my legs. Hoping my asking of when he leaves doesn't mean he'll leave at this very moment. It was starting to seem like he was always leaving; the time we spent together short unless at the pack house.
His smirk turned into a smile and he sighed before looking at his watch that I just noticed on his wrist. I was too distracted by him; his presence to even notice. Maybe wearing it only to keep better track of the time for that meeting.
An important one; to tell the whole pack Daven is going to trial, a relief to many.
''You do have to leave now don't you?'' He wouldn't have sighed if we still had time. I nodded at the change in how he looked at me; hearing how it hurt me but I knew one way or another it hurt him too. ''When you have everyone's attention; could you ask if their ready for me to become Luna?'' I added on after a moment of thought on it.
Julien turned his head at my question, my doubt on it once again. ''The pack has been ready for a Luna since my mothers death.'' Julien closed that small distance between us and reached up to brush my cheek with his thumb.
After a short goodbye, I told Julien and would tell my parents at dinner that I'm going to skip tomorrow; earning it after today. Then I would also tell them both about Davens trail before prom. Despite him being caught a good thing I was nervous to tell them about the trial; being close to Daven once again but how it would go too. They had to make the right decision with him.
I also suggested we bring Nick at the very least too; the more witnesses the better. Katy, Luke and Ben would be great as well but with everything just about coming to an end; I figured they could use the distance and time to gather themselves. Going to get the news any second and they can decide if they would like to come or not.
Not invited as I was directly by the elders but unknown as witnesses; and If I'm invited then I will be coming as myself, a strong coven leader. I will do what's best for my coven and future pack.
Well I gave Adeline and my mother time to talk about whatever questions either of them may have, I remained upstairs after Julien left until my dad returned home from work for dinner. I had a bit of homework I could do and caught up on that well I tried to not think about everything else that could go wrong on our prom date. I needed Rachel to not ruin it or may just have to ruin hers too.
To give my mom a break; he just brought home dinner from the diner. Easy and good for us all. He even got extra for options since he didn't get a chance to ask Adeline what she likes to eat.
It was a strange dinner, good but strange; she clearly was not used to sitting down at a table kind of meal. During dinner though; I realized I was free again. Free to sit outside safely If I wanted, which I did and something I missed doing every night without fear.
Tonight I could walk out there to my normal spot and enjoy the stars; It felt like I haven't done it in such a long time. Once dinner was finished I helped my mother set up a temporary bed in the craft room for Adeline before quicky grabbing a sweater and going outside to do exactly what I wanted; to sit under the stars and enjoy the fresh night air.
With a breath of relief for finally being able to be out here, alone; safe I sat on the rock before I moved back to lay flat on it. Looking up at the stars. Even being safe; I still wanted Julien beside me. He too loves nature as I do, hard not to when a whole part of you wants to just live in it.
I suppose though, I've wanted to just go off into the woods; live peacefully there without human intervention or fear. Just to use my magic, be exactly myself. One day I can do that; Julien's house- the pack house not just far from humans but with other people who don't belong among the general population. Despite begin even more different then I; they still seem to fit in better.
After some time that feeling returned; the one that had come with Daven and although I returned inside, I figured it just had to do with how I had become used to him being in the back of my head. The thought that he could be around any corner; behind any door.
Like he had been behind that classroom door. I just hope today prevented my vision. My curiosity on that knowledge got the best of me and I got my crystal ball out; working with water last time so maybe this thing really will work.
I set it up on my bed and sat across from it, taking all my thoughts away to only focus on the crystal once both it and I were still. The crystal itself held energy; a small amount but enough to give a boost; just what I needed for a vision to come out. It happened with a gasp for air; feeling it so deeply every time.
I had no real intention behind what future I saw, just to see the future. Deep down I had wanted to see something from my future and the crystal sure helped me in doing exactly that. I pulled myself from it; not expecting or liking what I had seen, worse then the one with Daven. The one I had dreaded for some time now held no comparison.
I could prevent this one; just as I prevented the one with Daven.
During the reality I felt within my vision; I had begun to cry and felt the wet tears on my face now. I pushed myself up and wiped the tears away before hurrying to put the crystal ball back where it had been sitting on a shelf; most likely going to sit there for some time after this too. My visions of the future still only bringing bad. Bad news, events and people.
But they only come to me when they should; I knew that deep down, whether I had sought it out or not. That vision would have come one way or another. How could I tell Julien about it when all he does it worry about me; about anything that could happen. He may never touch me if he finds out about this one.
A miscarriage; I'm going to have a miscarriage, and it looked like it will happen soon. Not much older then I am now. If I were to become pregnant with his child; I know I would have to keep it. Maybe Dean is right; I- we should wait a bit longer before we mate. Just to avoid it all; the bad that comes with it.
If I started birth control though- I thought but nodded with a sigh. These vision bring more stress then good and for now I did my best to forget it; knowing means I can change it and for now that is good enough. It had to be or this gift of mine would never let me get any sleep.
Although I'm not going to school tomorrow I still needed rest for the day tomorrow. Having rescheduling the finale fitting with Cordelia and going to need to be filled in on whatever questions and answers there were between my mother and Adeline. I also wanted to try a couple different hairstyles for prom since my morning and most likely afternoon on Saturday will most likely be occupied by Davens trail.
I still wanted to look good; even on the off chance Rachel might ruin it all. That part was for Julien and him alone. I knew how good he was going to look without even seeing what he choose to wear. More excited to see him then how I'm actually going to look; although with Cordelia's dress I know I'm going to look pretty good, but only thanks to her.
Once I got ready for bed; I convinced myself to get to bed pretty quickly once I texted Julien goodnight, going to see him quicker once I can wake up tomorrow. Going to have to start using it more often; on the days he's busy and can't run all the way here to see me every night, even though that sounded pretty nice.
Before It was midday I had both my prom things taken care of and coven business; with time to spare for me to study up more on the grimoires; but this time with the help of Adeline. Who was very interesting in seeing one for the first time. I was glad to see that even though she wasn't encouraged as I was, she still held interest.
...To Be Continued In The Next Chapter.....