Ji-Ha's pov
While I am still recovering from a hangover I heard someone outside the apartment, ringing. So I slowly get up and walk to the door. I still feel groggy.
And the ringing continues...
"Hold up! coming" then I opened and I immediately freeze. My headache suddenly disappears. The first person I see is Sarah.
"Oh hi why the sudden visit..." Then the person hanging at her shoulders, it's Dohyung and he is terribly drunk. It's been a while since he come home so drunk... I know he's a hard drinker and can control himself but if he is like this when something is bothering him...
And I know the reason...
"I am terribly so sorry for the trouble he caused... Please come in, i-"
"Don't worry. I'll not stay longer..."
"But-"
"I'm so sorry I think we shouldn't see each other anymore." Then she pushed the half-asleep Dohyung to me. The sudden weight shocked me, and my legs almost gave up. Luckily I lean on the door frame for support. And lifted Dohyung on my shoulders so he will not fall.
When I looked back again for her but she's already disappeared. I didn't manage to say something back to her... Her not wanting to see me anymore is inevitable, especially what I did to her... Also to Dohyung...
"Im so sorry..." I whispered at the empty halls.
"Mama? sorry, I just finished taking a bath. Who's that?" Jeremy appeared behind me.
"Ah, nothing just a friend who brought your papa home."
"Papa smell like alcohol! Ewww! First, mama, now it's papa? I swear, I will not drink when I grow up"
I smiled. "I'm sorry Jeremy, let's bring him inside. It's too cold outside."
"I'll bring the soup"
I laid him gently on the bed and he suddenly murmurs. "Ji-Ha..."
I came closer so I can hear more. Then he suddenly grabbed my wrist and pull me beside him. The strong scent of alcohol surrounds me and he started to cuddle me.
"Dohyung, stop it-" he puts his lips to my neck. But I gently push him to stop.
"No... I love you… please…"
"We can't, Jeremy is here..."
Then Suddenly something pushed between us. I feel relieved a bit.
"Jeremy?" Dohyung said under his breath.
"Mama, papa please don't do this again I love you both. Don't get too weak." Then he hugs us tighter.
I looked at him. His eyes are tired and he almost falls asleep. But he manages to eye contact with me.
"Don't worry it's just today. I'm sorry" I tried to relieve him by patting his head.
"...And I also feel like you will leave me alone soon... I don't like this."
I'm surprised by what he just said. "Why?"
"I don't know, I just dreamed about mama leaving me alone last night... Also, you are so busy lately that we don't talk much anymore..."
This is bad I didn't notice I am neglecting my son now... I hug him to comfort my child.
"I'm so sorry baby. Mama will not leave you."
There's a tighter hold at my back. Dohyung holding both of us.
"And papa love you both and will anything to- Zzzzz"
"Right we will never leave you alone so don't worry. Mama doesn't have work tomorrow how about we go play outside?"
His eyes lit up. "Really yay! Papa is joining right?"
"Well, it's up to him if he doesn't have work tomorrow... Dohyung?" I looked at my husband and he was already sleeping soundly.
"I guess we have to wait for him tomorrow"
"Aww..."
"Good night Jeremy" I kissed his forehead.
"Good night. I love you Mama" and he yawns and sleeps.
Guilt is eating me up. I just feel like I am reading a script when I say these things. And I feel bad I can't commit and give all my heart to them... I'm such a terrible mother. And a selfish one. They are the sweetest people that unlucky and end up with the most selfish person that can't love them well.
Dohyung's pov
Woke up seeing Ji-Ha and Jeremy sleeping in my arms. I smiled cause it's a rare sight. I don't want to leave the bed now.
But my peaceful moment is gone when I heard my phone ring. Probably my manager is messaging my schedule today.
Come on... Just five more minutes...
"Hey, good morning. So how's your hangover?" Ji-Ha greeted me. She's already wide awake.
I blink and realized I didn't know how I get to bed or even at home... All I remember is I drank a lot at the restaurant... Heck, I can't remember who brought me here. None of my coworkers knew where I currently live.
"Good morning, I'm... Fine sorry about that. did my phone wake you up?" I tried to change the subject so she won't ask for more.
"No... I just feel bad waking him up if I moved." She looks at Jeremy who's still been sleeping soundly between us.
"It's been forever since we slept together like this..."
Jeremy moved a bit and slowly opened his eyes. "Hmm... Good morning papa, good morning mama" he's finally awake.
"Good morning baby. Did you sleep well?"
"Yes! I got to sleep with mama and papa."
"That's great!"
"Yeah... Oh right. Do you have work today? We talked last night. He wants to go to the park today." Ji-Ha said.
Ah, this is an opportunity but crap I think today is the meeting for the new drama I'm staring at. "Sadly... Yeah, I have to meet my costars at the new drama today..."
"Oh ok..." And Jeremy pouts.
I close my eyes really hard. Now I feel bad I must find a way to join them!
"Uhm do you know where my bag is? I just need my phone to check my schedule today."
"Pft clumsy as ever. It's just here I'll grab it for you." She smirked at me. She opened up my bag behind her and grabbed my phone and gave it to me.
I checked my phone and lucky I only have a one-hour meeting in the morning. I can still join them!
"How about I joined you at lunch? Once the meeting ends I will to the park. How it does sound?"
"Really? Yay thanks papa" his face finally lots up.
"Of course, for my baby" I hug them both. All my worries and insecurities melted away. I hope days are always like this. I hope Ji-Ha is always like this...