What a tiring day… I didn't manage to see Dohyung today...
Well, it's good cause I really don't know how to face him after all the er... Events lately...
But of course, I still want to see him. I will never get tired of his pretty face and voice!
It's just...
I wonder what's he doing today. The manager said he only has meetings with the new production team and cast he's joining. Then he is free to go.
Well at least, he's getting a new project. This makes me happy and proud of him as a fan. And excited too. I wonder what kind of project he's getting. What kind of role? I hope it's a leading role.
This brings a smile to my face when I think about it.
My contract with his company will end soon and I am glad all my hard work is being paid off. I am glad I help the person I looked up to so highly.
And I will miss being around him...
It pains me that I might be the cause of all of the commotion in his peaceful married life. I didn't know Ji-Ha will like me that way!
I hope they talk about it peacefully. Or better he doesn't discover the deeper details. I just don't want him to hurt more...
Haaa I shouldn't worry this much it gives me headaches and a pit in my stomach. I'll just hope that they fix it soon.
I took a rest on my chair and stare at my computer.
I'm glad Ji-Ha hasn't Tried to contact me now. At this time she will text me and ask how's my day and such. And if there's time she will invite me to hang out somewhere...
And then we will just chat just in her car, driving somewhere…
…
I feel her soft touch in my arms.
She came closer and I can smell her sweet perfume. There's this shivering feeling and heat in my stomach. Her soft touch on my legs. Then she grabbed it and open it wide. I can feel her smooth skin and soft breast...
…
I slapped myself. God, why would I imagine dirty thoughts with a married woman?
Of all the thoughts I must think of! It will be much more acceptable if it's a married man right... WAIT! The married part is the worse of all!
I must shake all these thoughts.
Where ever you think about it. Everything is wrong already...
Haaa I must be crazy.
I reached out for my phone to distract myself from these thoughts. Without knowing it, I already scrolling through the Quack app and I immediately saw Dohyung's post.
'Date with my family <3'
And with photos of delicious food from a restaurant. And I could see Jeremy's arm on the right side then poking chopsticks at the left. That's probably Ji-Ha's.
Dohyung never shows what his family looks like because he is an actor and probably protects them from paparazzi or such. And even tho I know who they are now. As a decent fan, I quietly vowed to protect their image.
I wish I could see more... But that's all he posted today. I'm glad they are having family bonding today.
The next day...
It's just a normal day at work.
Except for... Me avoiding him the whole day.
"Sarah, good morning." He greeted me just like the normal days.
"Oh good morning Dohyung." And greeted him back like it was a normal day.
"So uhm about the..." ah crap does he goes. I don't want to hear it now.
"Ah, the manager is calling me. I'm so sorry gotta go." I wave to pretend someone is calling me from afar. Then run away from him.
Lunch...
I am walking into the lobby while looking everywhere, looking for any signs of him.
Until I heard someone sneak up at my back said. "Hey, Sarah. Wait up!"
My hair went up. He's at my back and runs off again.
And yeah it's like a cat-and-mouse chase. Im so sorry Dohyung I really can't face you right now. My heart squeezes when every time I see you. I can't hide this guilt I'm carrying now.
....
The Eun tapped my shoulder after his shoot. "Good job today! The lighting you did is so amazing! It shines my charm at the camera."
"Good job there. I just noticed that you didn't get enough light so I just tweak it for you a bit."
"Aww thank you for considering me. By the way, Sarah, why are you avoiding Dohyung?"
I hold my breath. I knew I am too obvious. "Is that too obvious?"
"Yeah too obvious. You always run away like a mouse seeing a cat. You should be honest with him."
"I'll try..."
"Don't worry. He is one of the nicest guys here he will understand. One time I accidentally poured my coffee on his suit. He just laughed it off and goes around like that in the office. Telling everyone he accidentally poured it himself. So there's nothing to worry about."
Bro, I fuck with his wife… if you only knew. Ah god, I don't know how to explain this so I just stared at him.
He suddenly looked guilty and scratch his head. "Er.. you can do this Sarah. Whatever happened between you? I am still your friend ok?"
"... Thanks, Eun. I really should say sorry too."
"Good Now, let's go look for Dohyung!"
"He already went home." the manager sneaks up behind us. His poker face is staring at us. And both of us stared back at him.
"Why? I thought he gonna stay here for a while for my photo shoot," Eun asked.
"He said he has to help his family over something. He is lucky he is free now so I just let him be." Did just something happen? Now I'm worried.
"Aww... Well, family first. look for him tomorrow, ok. ALSO, Don't forget to say sorry."
"Yes, of course. I'll do my best."
After that, we have our own separate ways. I made a reroute today, but for some unknown reasons I ended up on a familiar route. I end up in the streets where the Kangs lived.
I hit my head lightly. "Aaaahhh Sarah, I already told you to not cause trouble anymore."
I took a deep breath.
"It's ok no one will see me here..."
When I am about to turn around someone grabs me in my arms. I hold my breath from shock, I forgot how to scream. Then that person pinned me to the nearby wall. The scent and heat envelopes me. I am so scared of what will happen next so I close my eyes firmly.
I definitely did all the things I shouldn't do due to panic.
I breathe deep breaths trying to calm down. I felt their face come closer to mine. I am scared of what he will do to me. I am glad I don't carry valuables also.
Hold up, my life is In line here!
"I finally caught you."