Kaiya
I open door number 1001, we walk through it together.
This is the reality where my mother doesn't die. She and I finally move in together. Dad though never forgives her.
I try to make it work, but I could never really be happy.
The door closes before us.
"See, door number 1001. I'm a great mother." Mother holds her hand out very excited.
"Door 1001 is great. I am happy to find out that after 1001 tries you could actually be a better mother, but this is just me trying to make you happy. I am miserable. You never get to really know me."
She takes my hand, "Kaiya, I was thinking more like I get to carry you inside me all over again. We start over. Maybe your dad might be happy with someone else, but I am there this time. No different from a life with two fathers."
She looks at me confused at first, then her facial expression widens with an aha moment.
She giggles softly to herself.
"Actually. It's really cool having two dad's. There's always someone there, they both work long days and rarely at home. It's perfect the way it is. Strange, but my real mother never makes me feel weird for it."
"Kaiya there has to be a version where even Kai will forgive me again."
"There is, but I'm sorry mom, there is nothing I would want to change with Rei. It's too late for me and you."
She lets go looking at me very shocked and afraid. I really wish I could remember all this, but I won't.
I'll never know Yachi as my mother. I will never know the hell of a life I was under.
"I'm so sorry Kaiya."
"I feel sorry for you. You made the mistake of falling for someone destined for someone else. Toya and Rei always end up together, and Rei is not with dad, she's not with them both, that's not the kind of person she is."
"Yeah, keep telling yourself that, your father is a liar and a manipulator, he's not the kind of man you think he is." She says crossing her arms, cross with me.
"I don't care, he's still my father."
"Really?!" She gives me a passive aggressive look after checking her tone.
"You trying to say something?" I ask crossing my arms.
"Your father is an evil psychopath and you talk about him like you would never trade him for the world, yet I am the mother you cannot wait to get rid off. Yeah, I have something to say, your logic makes no sense."
I glare at her, "At least dad was there, criminal or not, my father would do anything to protect me and be with me, you, you could never careless. So don't talk to me about logic, what the hell kind of logic is it for a mother to leave her child behind?"
She clicks her tongue looking away, "The kind of logic of being raised by a deadbeat mother."
"Excuses, excuses, excuses, do you think I want to hear your excuses? You did not have to become her, but you're worse then grand ma, you threw me to the curb. You broke my heart, you should love me unconditionally, with everything you've got, just like Rei, but you could never get past your pride and selfishness!"
I take a breath, I have always wanted to get that off my chest.
I wipe the tears away.
I feel so cold.
"Big sis Kaiya! No fair, I do not want to play anymore. You always hide here." Astrid whimpers.
"Okay, sorry. I promise I won't come here anymore. Let's go find the others."
"I already found them. It was very easy. Eri is no longer sick. We should go see her, hurry up." She pulls my hand into door number 1.
I kept my options open. I didn't lock anything in. Everything that has happened so far had nothing to do with me, except bringing my family back to life.
Now, I choose this one.
The other doors will turn to dust. When they have all disappeared they will wake up.