A part of me was still not okay with Carter's manner of approach towards Douglas and his younger sister. I felt nothing but guilt for having to go along with Carter's plan because I had no other choice.
What else could I have done to make him look at me? Douglas left me no choice. He brought what was coming upon himself.
Another person I should feel guilty for was Michelle but she made hating her and excusing my guilt easy. I don't hate people without tangible reasons. I mean, how can she walk past me like I was nothing in the scheme of things.
I knew she had been looking down on me ever since this dummy introduced me as a Secretary. She belittled me and that's the reason for my hatred towards her.
I felt like a shitty person for thinking that way but that was my solace. If I change my mind about her, I won't want to follow Carter's plan and like I said earlier, I have no other choice.
