I closed my eyes as I took in a deep breath. Today was the day I had to go back to school after are two-day weekend. Saying I was dreading it was an understatement. After what he did to me, he's probably talking nonsense to his friends, and I honestly don't know how I'd react seeing him in the halls. His "Perfect "smile, his golden-brown skin, the way he attracted everyone's attention, Infuriated me. If only others knew who he truly was behind his plastic doll like smile. Nothing he led on was true, not even the kind words that came with his hoax personality. Ever since that day I haven't been the same and it's all because of him. But the worst part is that I'm probably the only one who repeats that night in my head over and over again. Asking God why, why me. Why does it have to only be me who suffers? I hate how life gives me no reason to stay. I feel very unwelcomed.
"Lilly come on! You're going to be late for school!" "Coming!" I yelled as I ran down the stairs to the kitchen. "Thanks for the toast and jam Madison!" I yelled out of breath as I ran past her, grabbing the toast as I ran out the door. "Have a good day at school!" I heard through the thin walls as I shut the door locking it behind me. Because of how close I lived to the school; it was normal for me to walk. All I needed to do was take a couple lefts and rights then I'd be at my destination and plus It's a good time to just think and be in my own head. I remember when Madison was completely against it. It took many arguments to talk some since into her. So, we came up with an agreement, I text her when I'm there and or on my way home. Ever since then she has been happier about it. Once I had arrived at school the eye's I normally felt now had an intensity to them. One that could make anyone shiver in fear. But what was going on? Did I do something wrong or say anything to offend another?
"Lilly finally I found you! Did you hear the rumors?" Chloe catechized, panicked and stressed. "What are you talking about? What rumors?" "The one about you and Alex, I over herd others talking in the bathroom about how you tried throwing yourself on Alex Friday at the movies. I know they aren't true so don't worry, but others do. Everyone's talking about it." Chloe softly said into my ear, face burning with rage. What was she talking about? Why would someone say that? I did nothing of the sort. My heart dropped, was it him? Did he do this? I swear if it was him..."Do you know who said that?" I asked, voice steady and calm. "Well, I don't know for sure, but I have an idea of who it could be." "It's fine thank you though I'll find out, I think I might have an idea as well." I sighed; I really hope it's not him. If it was, I don't know anyone who would believe my side of the story. {smack} "Oh, sorry I didn't see you there Lilly" Renée let out a peal of laughter. A stinging sensation could immediately be felt all throughout my arm. Chloe stood their fists clenched by her side and rolled her shoulders back glaring at Renee. "Care to do that again? Was last time not enough? Want another smack in the face?!" Chloe threatened, voice ruff and intimidating. I had to calm her down before she took out everyone around her. I wasn't so sure of why she was so mad; I mean It was me who was hit not her. I took a deep breath and looked at Renee. "Leave." I said, eye's numb and cold. I could see the fear in her eyes when she met mine. I said nothing, still looking at her the same way waiting for her to leave. "Wh-What's wrong with you?! Your eyes!!" Renee stuttered, as she ran way with her tail between her lags. "What the heck was that? You're just going to let her leave?" Chloe yelled angrily. "It's fine, can you drop it? Think about it. Even If I did make a big deal out of it nothing would change, we would just get in trouble" I explained. "So, you're just going to let her continue?" "It's not that bad, it was just a little shove I could barely feel it." I lied. "Ya, keep telling yourself that, just wait and see if any of it changes, she's never going to stop until you teach her a lesson." She antagonized. "You don't understand! Can you please just leave me alone? This has nothing to do with you." I choked, tears streaming down my face. I was tired of this. I just wanted to go home and pretend none of this happed why can't she just drop it? "Understand what? Don't you see I care about you?" "But why? No one should! There's nothing to like about me, I don't even like myself! Just breathing in my own skin is a nightmare, so can you just drop it and let me pretend to live a perfect life?" Why couldn't she just give up? I hated it when people would tell me they liked or cared about me. I know from experience that's about impossible If they knew about what went through my head they would all just leave anyway. "What are you talking about?" Chloe asked eyes widen in shock. I didn't even fully understand what she was talking about until I realized...I said that out loud...crap. "Never mind pretend I said none of that. Welp look at the time, I have to go, I'm already late for class!" I stuttered in fear of what I said.
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