He carries me to the bedroom and proceeds to chain me up on the bed. He doesn't remove the blindfold either.
He commands me not to say anything and I don't. I just listen his movements and I know he has sat down. I don't know what is going on in is head. I want to see him but I know best than to talk when he has told me not to talk.
After a while he just comes and removes the blindfold and un-cuffs me. I am not sure what he is doing I just watch, warily.
He is being unpredictable and I don't know what to do. I want him to forgive me but I don't have the slightest idea of what I can do.
I am a messed up person and Trevor has seen every part of my dark soul. He has helped me satisfy every single twisted dark desire I have and he has loved me. Him and I, we are messed up but then we love each other.
I just didn't know I would fall for someone else. someone who thought I was full of sunshine. Someone who happened to be Trevor's brother.
All I know is that when Trevor told me that I could leave, I couldn't make myself to. Yes he has hit me and has fucked up my mind but I love him I can't imagine being in separation with him. It's so sick and twisted and if I probably told this to anyone they wouldn't understand, but I do.
You know the person that accept you and the person that you both can be each other and just lose yourself like that, its Trevor. I know that he gets mad and then he gets physical with me, but I trigger him to do that. I know what I do and make him do that to me.
I just didn't think I could ever leave him, that's before I met chase. He made me question everything I knew about love. Until he knew who I was and basically ran away from me. He didn't want to hurt his brother but what he didn't realize is that his brother was hurting me and I couldn't tell him that without him thinking I'm lying.
Trevor has made me think that what we do, how he hits me is totally my fault and believe him. Chase showed me another side of love I hadn't seen before and I am caught in between. I am in between I don't know whether to choose the light or the darkness.
Either way, I don't win because if I ever chose Chase, I know for a fact that Trevor will kill his brother.
With the way Trevor is looking at me, I can't tell what's going on in his mind. I decide to go to him. I can never seem to be able to resist him. He wakes the side if me that I hate but also love.
I straddle him and I just sit there as we look at each other. We have issues, but we can just sort them through slowly.
I feel him start to bulge underneath me and I get excited. I unzip his slacks and his length stands free. He was commando.
"Why do you do this to me?" he asks in a whisper as he burrows himself inside of me.
I sigh as I sit fully on his length and start making slow circular motions.
"You do the same to me," I whisper back.
He wraps one hand around my waist and the other on my neck. His fingers splayed around my neck.
I rock on him and we both moan simultaneously. He raises his hips and starts pumping hard and fast.
"You are hurting me," I tell him but he ignores me.
I put both of my hands on his chest to push him back and he suddenly stops. He stands up with me in his arms.
"What are you doing? Trevor?" I ask him and he throws me on the bed.
He strips his clothes and I want not to want him so bad but I can't lie to myself. This is the game we play and the game we lie the most. I playing hard to get and him, chasing and he always gets to me.
It makes my blood boil in excitement.
"I am giving you what you want," he says when he pulls me on the edge of the bed. "I want to make you regret ever thinking of another man, even for a second."
He is not easy or gentle at all with me.
"I want to make you feel me when you stand up and when you sit, you will think about me," he promises and without warning, pushes himself in me.
I lose all my thinking senses. He is letting out all his frustrations on me and I let him because I crave this animalistic Trevor. I always want him lose and finally he has come out to play. But the game can be a bit dangerous.
I moan so loudly that my throat is raspy and I can't do it anymore.
"Did he make you feel like this?"
I let out a raspy no shaking my head. I can feel myself close to coming so hard.
I don't want this. I want to hate this so bad but I can't. I feel his fingers wrap around my neck and start to squeeze.
I try to slap his hand away, to tell him I can't breathe but he just continues moving inside of me as he watches me. The intensity that builds up is unimaginable that I think I am going to die as I have the most intense orgasm of my life.
I start to feel myself passing out and he doesn't even loosen his fingers. Just when I think that he is indeed going to kill me, he loosens his fingers just a little bit and the air I gulp helps little but not much.
I come and every single nerves in my body explode I feel like I am coming alive and at the same time dying from pleasure.
"If you really love me like you say, marry me," Trevor whispers in my ear as I see stars and I pray that it's my oxygen deprived brain playing tricks on me because,
What!