Emerald's POV-
I stayed in my spot on the couch until Alpha Paul and the others left. Alpha Paul informed us that they would all be near town hall tomorrow night to celebrate the blue moon. I felt like I had been cheated out of an extra day to think and decide. I somehow slept in half the day and the other half was spent getting death looks from August. I wish I hadn't agreed to let Alpha Paul come over here. That Stefan guy was almost okay to me until he had to go and use that ridiculous name.
If there is one thing me and Anala agree on it's that 'baby' is the absolute worst thing for a guy to call you especially if it's right after meeting you. Keith used to say it, but I let him get away with it. A guy might as well be waving a flag that says 'I'm too ignorant to learn your name.' Not to mention that there is nothing sweet or sexy about being referred to as a baby, not to me anyway.
Alpha Paul's little 'test' was stupid and did nothing but put both of us in a bad mood. I don't know why, but I couldn't stop thinking about that girl grabbing August like that to sit by her. Who the hell did she think she was? She's in my house, on my couch, and she grabs my.. I mean August.. I shook my head to get rid of the thought and tried to focus on the real issue I was having.
I was still thinking about August's question.
Is there really anymore doubt that I'm his Luna? I wanted there to be. I wasn't ready for any more big changes right now. I wanted things to slow down or at least stop for a minute so I could collect my thoughts. The only way to get out of it would be to outrun August which would be impossible tomorrow night.
But I could still leave tonight.
"Emerald."
If I wait until he's in deep sleep then I could still sneak out and at least get a fairly good head start.
"Emerald."
Motorcycle would be loud, but I guess I could just travel in my wolf form. I wonder if my scent is stronger in my wolf form or in my human form?
"Emerald."
I jumped in my seat on the couch. August's deep voice was right in my ear and I could feel the stubble on his chin brushing up against my neck.
"What are you thinking so hard about hm?" He asked and I felt him drop his head and kiss my exposed neck.
"Nothing." I breathed, but he let out a low chuckle and kissed my temple once.
"You're lying. Tell me what's on your mind." He said dropping his voice and sending a chill down my neck.
"Is my scent stronger in my wolf form?" I asked and I felt him pull his face back from behind me.
"It's just as strong in either form. Why?" he asked and I felt him sit down next to me on the couch.
I scooted away from him for a minute, but looked up so I could face him.
"No reason."
"You could go now if you want." He said and I raised an eyebrow at him in confusion.
He kicked his shoes off and leaned back on the couch a minute before running his hands through his hair.
"You're wanting to try and run away from me. It's a natural response for a Luna especially since the blue moon is almost here. You can go now and run all night and all day tomorrow if it will make you feel better, but I will still find you."
My throat started to sting and bob at his words. I was going to be bond to August forever and my only duty in life will be to push out pups for him and to stay where he wants me to stay. When that thought came into my mind the sadness quickly turned into venom and anger.
"Okay, thanks." I said and stood up from the couch.
August let out a low growl and snatched my hand to pull me back to the couch.
"I thought you just said I could go if it would make me feel better?" I asked trying to shake his hand off my wrist.
He gripped it tighter and pulled my arm until I was closer to him. He sat up and moved his face impossibly closer to mine and our noses were almost touching.
"I'm sorry Emerald."
I could see the hurt and sadness in his eyes.
He dropped his head and closed his eyes and I almost thought for a minute he was going to start crying. I moved closer to him and pushed some of his silver hair back for him a few times. He moved more into my touch and let out a small sigh.
"Sorry for what August?"
My hand that was in his hair went still when he quickly grabbed my wrist harder then before. I winced in pain and went to jump back, but August wrapped his other arm around me and when I looked back at him I could only see solid black and white in his eyes. His mouth was partly open because his canines were out and my eyes went wide when I realized what was happening.
"August please!" I said and tried to snatch my hand back.
August moved his weight on top of me and tried to pin me to the couch. He let out a loud growl that made my ears ring and it made my body want to still, but I fought against the instincts and just kept thrashing.
"STOP AUGUST!" I screamed and I could feel his body trembling on top of mine as he pinned my arms down and dropped his weight on my legs.
"PLEASE! ILL BE GOOD I SWEAR ILL BE GOOD!" I screamed over and over, but it was like it wasn't getting through to him.
I tried to bite him or scratch him. I tried to focus and use my hands to try and burn him, but I felt too panicked to concentrate. My vision was blurry from the tears and I'd bang my head against the seat of the couch and tried to get free from him. I was sobbing at this point, but then I felt August let go of one of my wrists to move my hair back. I placed my hand on any bare skin of his to try and burn him.
He took his free hand and grabbed the top of my head and pushed down on me to keep me still and I felt his breath on my neck.
"NO! PLEASE NOT LIKE THIS!" I begged, but then everything just stopped.
It's like that wish I had been wanting to happen to make everything freeze and just slow down long enough for me to think straight finally happened. I felt this warm feeling travel from my neck into every vein of my body. I mean I could literally feel it snake down to my chest and my arms and my legs and all the way down to my toes. It didn't last but a few seconds before my body finally let me feel the excruciating pain of two long sharp objects cutting deep into my throat.
The only thing I could hear was high pitched ringing. Like white noise and everything else was just muffled. I couldn't see August or me or even the living room. All I could see were these fast visions of images flying past me. It was almost like it was when you let your wolf take over and you're just watching what goes on. Except I knew I wasn't in my wolf form, so what are these images? They were flying by too fast for me to focus on any of them.
Suddenly the muffled white noise was gone and the new sound was just this awful gut wrenching screaming. It was loud and it hurt my ears, but it wouldn't stop. Who is screaming like that?
Suddenly all my veins that were once warm were now boiling. I felt every inch of my insides light up and even my brain felt like it was on fire. My chest was vibrating from my heart pumping so hard, but all I could focus on was that awful screaming. Everything hurts and it's like I'm paralyzed in this weird place where I can only see blurry pictures and hear a screaming girl pleading for someone to stop.
Who is screaming like that? Why won't anyone help her? Can't they hear how scared she is?
Then darkness swallowed the blurry pictures. Everything went black and sleep stole me away from the screaming girl.
I was running, not for my life, but I was running fast. I was in this large open field surrounded by tall trees and these thick green viny bushes. I was running close to the tree line, but when I passed by the bushes my small white paws came to a stop and I turned back to them. Strange looking yellow flowers were sprouting from the vines that I had never seen before. There were big fat bees swarming around them and some of the flowers were yellow and some were white. That's not why I stopped though, I stopped because I smelt something amazing coming from the bushes. I sniffed them for a minute and one of the strange flowers was low enough for me to smell. They were sweet, but not overly sweet. They smelt good enough to eat, so I took a bite of the low hanging flower. I spat most of the petals out, but it did leave a warm sweet feeling in my mouth. I started to run in and out of the bushes making the vines shake the yellow flowers down to the grass and when there were enough I rolled around in them and licked up any of the sweet nectar that I could find. I didn't leave this area for some reason and I ended up curling up hiding behind the thick bushes and yellow flowers listening to the sound of buzzing bees.
I could feel myself trying to wake up, but I kept my eyes closed and rolled over onto my pillow before bringing the blankets over my head. My head was pounding and my body felt heavy for some reason. Maybe I'm sick I thought to myself. I snuggled deeper into the bed and tried to fall back asleep. I wanted to go back to that field and see those flowers again. They were so strange looking growing on those green vines like that. I could still smell them.
I opened my eyes and took in a deep breath through my nose. I really can still smell them.
I pulled my blanket down from my face and groaned from being sore as I tried to sit up some in my bed. I looked around my empty room and I was alone in here. August wasn't in my bed and I wasn't sure what time it was. Come to think of it I don't even remember coming up here and going to bed last night.
I rubbed my temples a minute and closed my eyes trying to remember. It was like I had a really bad hangover or something and last night was a blur. I tried to concentrate hard on the last thing I remember, which was sitting on the couch thinking about if I should try and make a break for it while August is asleep.
Then nothing. I don't remember for some reason. Did I fall asleep down there and August brought me to my room? If that were the case why isn't he in bed with me? He was the night before and I highly doubt he's changed his mind about me being his mate. Or maybe he did? He did admit that Alexis was pretty and she's going to be a Luna too.
Did he realize she's his Luna last night? I don't know why but that thought physically hurt my chest for some reason. I went to pop my neck to the side to try and get rid of some of the tension, but when I did a burning sensation was felt and I hissed in pain.
I put my hand up to my neck.
"Ow! Fuck." I whispered to myself when my fingers grazed against what felt like an open wound.
"What the.." I started to unroll myself from my blanket and stood up from the bed, but when I did I quickly sat down again.
I dropped my head to my hands and closed my eyes for a minute to groan. It really did feel like I was hungover and standing up sent dizzy spells over my senses. I kept my eyes closed and stood up slower this time before trudging to my bathroom. My neck now felt like someone was pouring alcohol over it sending a stinging sensation deep into my veins.
I flipped the light on and immediately closed my eyes from the brightness and tried to guide my hands to the sink to steady my balance. I let out a deep breath to prepare my eyes for the bright light and slowly pealed them open. It was much too bright, but I forced my eyes to open and blinked a few times to let them adjust.
When they did I grabbed up all of my curls in one hand and tried to examine my neck to see why it was hurting so bad.
My heart dropped into my stomach and I had to grip the counter to keep my balance when I could fully see it. On the outside of my neck was large bite mark with deep wounds. Small chunks of flesh were missing and you could tell by the freshly pink skin that it happened recently. It was huge. I mean it started from the middle of my throat and stopped at the back of my neck. It was disgusting looking.
I couldn't believe it. I didn't believe it. I mean I was staring right at it, I could clearly feel it, but I just couldn't understand what I was seeing.
'Anala what happened?' I asked her as I grazed my fingers along the mark again.
'I'm sorry Emerald, but he just couldn't wait anymore it was hurting him.' She said and then instantly the images of last night hit me all at once.
I backed up from the sink and could remember trying to comfort August. He apologized. Then his eyes changed.. he was on top of me.. screaming. I remember hearing this awful screaming from this... me. It was me screaming for help or for him to stop and.. he didn't.