What was I doing with my life? It's a question asked way too often and no one ever seems to find satisfaction with their answer, cause honestly, the truth hurts. I'm getting attached to someone I swore I would escape from, there are secrets he doesn't need to know, ones that Carlos and I have sworn to keep.
"What's wrong, love?"
He was already making this so much harder than it needed to be. I looked at him with an expression I couldn't quite explain myself. He looked confused for a second and then a brief flash of hurt came through.
"I thought you wanted this to work?"
I honestly felt so bad, I was leading him on and then running away once I felt myself getting too close, getting too tangled in the strings of emotions. I felt I was a puppet, a marionette, and he was my puppeteer.
"I-I don't know what I want."
I wanted him to get out of my life, but I wanted even more to be curled up in his arms and told everything was all right.
"Why Koi? I'm sorry. I-, look just please I don't want you to get too roped into this because I don't think I do want this to work."
I didn't want to see the expression that I might have caused.
"I knew it, I honestly couldn't imagine myself with you anyways, I'm glad my little spell worked though."
What? What little spell? I looked at him and saw the sweet mask of a sincere mate disappear, he was grinning, his canines extended. He was going to kill me, I knew it, he's going to gut me and throw me on the doorstep of my parents, just as I'd wanted to do to him
"What do you mean? What sp-"
I was pulled back by two very strong arms, I turned around to see one of the guards looking down at me, he was smiling as well. What was going on? I looked back at him to see a large needle in his hands, then I started to realise what's going on. This man isn't even my mate, his face started to morph, he now had dirty blonde hair, icy blue eyes and a scar going along the side of his face, more towards the cheek, missing the eye by an inch. He was admittedly handsome, but why was there a need to cover his real face, or pretend to be my mate. Why did he have a needle?
"I'm confused, why-"
"Of course you're confused, I didn't expect you to know anything, I'm severely disappointed however, At Alpha Knox's house you seemed to be quite cunning, it's honestly sad how this bond can fuck with your senses."
When was he at the Alpha's house? He started walking towards me, shining the needle in the light, almost admiring its contents. He looked back at me and smiled devilishly, Goddess he was handsome. Shut up Charlie.
He kept stalking towards me taking slow steps, dragging on the situation. Maybe he was trying to remember this moment as a trophy.
"Why? What do you want with me?"
He narrowed his eyes and smiled.
"Love, I don't want anything to do with you, Alpha Koi wants you. But I'm rather jealous, you're quite a cutie."
Oh please, get over yourself Charlie, now is not the time to soak in the compliments. What is wrong with me?
"What? Alpha Koi?"
He nodded and looked at me expectantly, as if he wanted to see me face when I put the pieces together, honestly so did I because I had no idea what was going on at all. He sighed, clearly irritated.
"Alpha Koi saw you in the forest, he felt the mate pull, and so did you. For reasons I cannot disclose, he asked me, a shapeshifter werewolf, to stand in his place. When he went behind the tree I stepped out as him."
I knew something was off, I've had a weird feeling the whole time I've been here, I just never wanted to be a bother.
"I have to say, thanks, I'm sure my garden will soon look fabulous, let's hope Alpha Koi gets the same done for him."
This wasn't his house either? What? He seemed satisfied with my obvious confusion.
"But why?"
"Like I said sweetheart, I can't tell you."
"What's in the needle then? Don't you dare come close to me with that thing."
His smile grew, from ear to ear, an evil mastermind if I've ever seen one before. He stepped aside and motioned for another guard, which I hadn't known was there, to step forward with a cloak figure. A very familiar smell hit me and I felt sick with realisation. Please let this be a trick of my senses.
"No…" I whispered to no one in particular
"Yes."
He pulled the hood of the cloak off to reveal a livid looking Carlos, he was struggling and thrashing like the biggest angriest butterfly pinned to a page. I wanted to throw up, pinch myself and see that this is all a dream. The mysterious man walked over to Carlos and held the needle to his neck, the contents were a scary looking black. I was scared to scream, that any sudden movement would trigger the man.
"Don't touch him please.."
He looked back at me, Carlos looked up slightly so we were making direct eye contact, he mouthed 'It's ok' but it really wasn't, what if that stuff kills him. The man slapped him across the face and I saw him spit blood onto the carpet.
"We found this boy lurking around the forest, we could smell your scent on him slightly, so we caught him, I must say he's a loyal one, we bent him senseless for hours and he didn't make a peep."
I started to cry, Carlos was tortured because I swore him to secrecy. The man turned to me once again.
"Now, how about you, what did you mind link to your friend in the car on the way to the flower shop?"
When I didn't say anything he smiled, I could take a beating, I'm not exposing either of us.
"I thought as much, look, if you don't fess up, this needle is going right into the boy's neck, I'd like to see what this stuff actually does."
My eyes widen in horror, I open my mouth to spill everything but Carlos stops me.
"Charlie don't you dare, you'd be putting the pack and yourself in danger, It's going to be fine, just do-"
The man kneed Carlos in the side and he screamed in pain, his body hasn't fully healed itself yet.
"No Carlos, I'm not losing you, the pack hasn't done jack for me for the most part, you've been my best friend since I was born pl-"
"Charlie STOP, If you really care you'll shut up, I love you ok, if this kills me tell Miriam I love her too and don't let her go rogue please."
He had tears in his eyes but refused to let them fall. I kept my mouth shut, please don't kill him. The man raised his eyebrows at us and looked honestly surprised.
"Wow, that was entertaining, I might cry myself, come on girl, spill or the boy gets it."
I kept my mouth shut, for the sake of my pack, for the sake of Carlos and for the sake of this man's cruelty. He laughed wickedly and then turned to Carlos.
"Any last words boy?"
Carlos looked at the man and then at me.
"I love you, don't let anything happen to Miriam."
And with that the man plunged the dark liquid into his neck. I screamed, screamed until my throat was raw.