My name is Yakusugi,
This is my story.
I dont remember much of my first life, not much about me anyways.
Aside from whatever cartoon was on the tv in that hospital bed there wasnt much excitement for me,
I dont know what I had but I know I was always sick, at first I got to go to school with the other kids but the hospital visits were more and more frequent and by the time I was in my teen years I pretty much lived in that bed and gown.
I know I had caring parents. And I know that they tried their best, but by my late teens I realized how lonely I was, how much I yearned for more interactions and intimacy than can be found between one of the employees of the hospital and me.
I knew before the doctors did that I didnt have much time left, the pain I felt was still the same pain so I dont know exactly how I knew it was close to the end, but I did. And just like that, less than a week later I went to sleep and it was over with.
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'The pain.. Its gone?'
I can hear the tweeting of birds and rustling of trees,
'Something.. Feels wrong.'
a cool wind snaps me out of my stupor and I open my eyes and take in the scenery around me
'A forest?'
'But its wrong. Everything's wrong'
Everything is huge and I feel as if Im being overstimulated by all my senses
[Greetings!]
Immediately I feel calmed, like how Id feel a bit after they gave me anesthesia,
Logically I know I should be freaking out by the words that appeared in front of me out of thin air, but Im perfectly calm.
[Welcome to your new life! In order to ensure your safety this wonderful System is designed to help you calmly and cooly process your thoughts!]
'System. System?'
[For certain reasons you have been granted this opportunity for new life! Be thankful and rejoice!]
'What reasons? Who are you? Can you explain anything? Where am I?'
[Goodbye!]
'What.'
As I try to look around again I realize something I feel I wouldve realized sooner if not overloaded with thoughts
'This isn't a human body.'
I want to scream but all that escapes my mouth is a horrific yowling noise
I look down to see fur, paws, claws,
'Im a cat.'
I want to be terrified, I want to shout more, but Im.. Calm?
This 'System' thing isnt even allowing me to have my fear?
The most I can do is know I would normally afraid, or angry, or maybe even a bit happy for another chance at life, but I cant actually feel those emotions
The most I feel is frustrated but its more of just thinking 'I should be frustrated' instead of actually feeling it.
*Grumble*
'Hungry.'
I stand
Correction; I attempt to stand
Everythings weird. Everythings wrong.
It only takes about ten seconds to stand steady but it feels like much longer
'I need food.'
I look around the greenery of the forest Im in before deciding on a random direction
As I take a step forward and stumble awkwardly I sigh inwardly
'This is gonna take a while.'