"Kanaya, what are you doing?" asked Sinta.
"Bhishma and I are hungry, Mom," answered Kanaya.
"Why don't you take Bhishma too," said Sinta.
"Bhishma still needs time to adapt, Mom. So, just let Kanaya bring the food to the room," said Kanaya.
Sita also advised Kanaya, that Kanaya must respect Bhishma. Bhishma who is her husband now. Sinta also hopes that Kanaya and Bhishma can have a marriage relationship until they are old. Until they are separated by death, that's what Kanaya's parents hope for.
"You must follow all the wishes of Bhishma, the pleasure of Allah is in the pleasure of your husband," said Sinta. "Yes, ma'am." Kanaya doesn't dare to say much, she doesn't want Sita to know the truth. Kanaya covered it all. "I can't wait to hold my granddaughter, may your marriage be a blessing and soon be blessed with a child, Amen." Sinta's face is full of hope and prayer. Moreover, what will be awaited by Sinta, if not a grandson of the successor of the family. Kanaya could only smile at her mother.
"You also make coffee for Bhishma," said Sinta.
"Yes, ma'am."
Kanaya delivered food and a cup of coffee to Bhishma who was waiting for him in the room. The woman walked slowly, her mind lost. He thinks of all Sita's words. Words that are also advice for Kanaya.
"Is it possible I can keep this marriage? Marriage without love?" thought Kanaya.
'Crack....'
Kanaya slowly opened the door to her room, in her hand was a tray containing a cup of coffee and two plates of food to eat with Bisma.
"Eat first, and here's the coffee," said Kanaya.
"Thank you."
Kanaya and Bhishma eat together.
"Your cooking is delicious," said Bhishma.
"Thank you."
Hungry, Bhishma finished his food and coffee. Likewise with Kanaya, after that Kanaya took care of everything. The clock shows 09.30, and Kanaya and Bhishma are getting ready to rest. The bridal room that has been made up, just in vain. Nothing happened between them, they were silent until morning came.
'Kukuruyuk....' The sound of a rooster crowing.
It was dawn, and Kanaya got up from her bed. He carried out his duties as a Muslim. After that, he rushed to the kitchen to help Sinta cook in the kitchen. The woman did not dare to wake her husband, she let Bhishma sleep.
"How was your sleep last night, Kanaya?" asked Sinta.
"Shut up, ma'am."
Sinta smiled, even though what Sinta meant was not that. Sinta wants to know about Kanaya and Bhishma's first night. It was different from what Kanaya had in mind, her hair wasn't even wet because nothing happened last night.
"Bhishma is awake?" asked Sinta.
Kanaya almost forgot that her husband had not carried out his obligations. The woman rushed to the room to wake Bhishma. It turned out that Bhishma had just finished carrying out his obligations. Bhishma turned to Kanaya, her husband gave a smile.
"What is it?" Bhishma asked.
"When we're done, let's have breakfast first," answered Kanaya.
As usual, before the Kanaya family does their activities, they are used to having breakfast first. Bhishma is a thirty-year-old male, who is already working in a company located in the city of Malang. Bhishma is an economics graduate, his friendly nature makes it easy for him to make friends. After breakfast, Bhishma said goodbye to work. As for Kanaya, she has to approach TPQ students in schools. Not only in the prayer room but Kanaya also usually teaches the Koran in elementary schools.
Bhishma and Kanaya set off together, they rode Bhishma's motorbike.
"Sorry, if I can't be a good priest for you," said Bhishma as he drove his motorbike.
"Yes, that's okay."
Bhishma said that he wanted to be with Kanaya before he became her husband. Kanaya agreed to fight with Bhishma. At least they both have agreed to open up to each other. They don't talk much, that's all. Thirty minutes had passed, and Kanaya arrived in front of the elementary school gate.
"Thank you," said Kanaya.
"You're welcome. What time will you be picked up?" Bhishma asked.
"I'll call you later," Kanaya replied. Kanaya and Bhishma gave each other phone numbers, they both already had their phone numbers.
The atmosphere this morning is so bright, the sun is shining brightly. Kanaya stepped into elementary school. He passed every classroom corridor.
"Ustadzah Kanaya!?" called several Kanaya disciples at the same time. They all hugged Kanaya tightly.
Kanaya is liked by her students, they all think of Kanaya as their mother.
"Ustadzah Kanaya, where is Ustadz Hamdan?" asked Defi, one of Kanaya's students.
"Ustadzah doesn't know either."
Kanaya went to the office, and she thought about Hamdan. Kanaya looked for Hamdan, it was true, Hamdan was no longer there.
"Ustadz Hamdan has permission to leave this school, ustadzah," said Dian, one of the teachers.
"If you may know, the reason why?" Kanaya asked.
"He said he was busy."
Kanaya was silent, she was thinking. Maybe Hamdan's departure was because of him, because of the feelings he had expressed. Kanaya could not understand that Hamdan would resign. Kanaya was able to enter this school because Hamdan recommended it. Kanaya feels empty with Hamdan's departure. However, Kanaya still has feelings for Hamdan. It took time to love her husband for Kanaya who was hard to fall in love with. Remembering Hamdan is also his first love. I don't know how long it will take Kanaya to forget Hamdan.
'I already have a husband, I shouldn't still remember Hamdan. Why is all this happening to me? I who want to be happy together with the person I love, it turns out I married a man I didn't know before.' Kanaya's mind recalled the past with Hamdan.
"Come on! What's up?" asked Ara startling Kanaya.
"Ara? Are you here?"
"Yes, I am instead of Hamdan. I will be your partner from today onwards," said Ara full of enthusiasm.
In the room, Kanaya saw Hamdan's chair which was empty of Hamdan's things. Now there are only Ara's books there. His gaze began to empty, his heart also felt that something was missing.