There is no bond between the two of them. However, they both have feelings for each other. If only Kanaya didn't remember herself as a woman, maybe she would have confessed her feelings first. Maybe even Kanaya will propose to Hamdan.
Kanaya still knows that she must have principles. Kanaya understands that what made Hamdan hesitate was because Hamdan felt prestige. At that time, Hamdan said that Kanaya could get a better man than Hamdan. Even though Kanaya herself didn't understand what Hamdan meant. But, Kanaya didn't think much of it.
"Hamdan, where are you now?" Kanaya said alone.
"Should I break my marriage right now, considering I am always thinking about Hamdan? It only makes me more sinful," thought Kanaya.
His mind was frantic because everything was about Hamdan. He still uses the pendant necklace Hamdan gave him when it was Kanaya's birthday. Hamdan gave it as a sign of friendship between the two. Hamdan spoke like that so Kanaya wouldn't expect Kanaya too much. Far from the bottom of Hamdan's heart. The man has feelings.
Kanaya took the cellphone that was in her bag, the gray bag that was given to her by Hamdan as well. The bag was given as a gift because Kanaya received an award for her achievements as the favorite Koran teacher. Kanaya opens the gallery and scrolls, it looks like their photos are still saved. "Kanaya, here's a photo with me!" invite Hamdan to graduation. Kanaya was not ready, Hamdan immediately pressed the camera button. However, they are about two meters apart. The memory managed to make Kanaya smile to herself. They had too many memories together. "Wow... looks like you two are compatible," said Nadia, one of Hamdan's friends. Nadia already has a husband. Hamdan used to tell Nadia about Kanaya. "It's Hamdan, if it's suitable, apply immediately. What are you waiting for?" Nadia added.
Hamdan just smiled shyly at that time. Kanaya thought back to why she was insensitive. If only he was sensitive, maybe at that time Kanaya would also make fun of Hamdan. There are many more memories of Hamdan with Kanaya.
On the other hand, at Hamdan's house to be exact. Hamdan also misses Kanaya, his decision to let go and classify Kanaya seems wrong. Kanaya is a special woman he has never met.
"I've been trying to forget him long ago when I realized that I and he are like heaven and earth. But, why do I still dare to play with fire?"
Hamdan's mind was full of questions he didn't know the answers to. Hamdan only knew that the woman he liked had become someone else's wife. In every prayer, he always hopes Kanaya will live happily.
"How are you now, Kanaya?" he thought.
All-day, Hamdan thought of Kanaya. Like Kanaya, Hamdan is also remembering when they were joking.
"Be aware, Hamdan. She has become someone else's wife!" Hamdan tries not to get carried away by the past he has been through. Hamdan admits his mistake, he also admits that his prestige is too high. However, it was too late. It's also impossible for Hamdan to ruin Kanaya's household just because of the feelings he has.
"Sincerity is indeed difficult. But, I'm sure it can be done if I want to learn it."
Kanaya returned home after she felt relief in her heart. The woman must return, there is still a husband waiting for her. Although, the husband was not the husband she wanted. Along the way, the woman kept thinking about the life path she had chosen. I don't know if he will be happy or not. The woman could only surrender and also try to do the best she could. It didn't take long, the woman finally arrived home.
Slowly, the woman walked. Luckily, his parents weren't home yet. Kanaya went into her room. Seen her husband was busy in front of the laptop, Kanaya did not pay attention.
"Looks like we have to have our own house even though we are renting it," said Bisma, starting the conversation.
Kanaya was silent, she did not respond to Bisma's words. Bhishma apologizes to Kanaya for what happened.
"You want to forgive me, right?" Bhishma asked.
Kanaya nodded her head, and she agreed with Bhishma's opinion to stay alone.
I've chosen it, whatever the reason I have to live it. I must be a good wife,' thought Kanaya. Kanaya lay down, the woman felt tired today. Not only his body, his mind too. "Knock... knock... knock..." There was a knock on the door. Kanaya opened the door to her room. "Here is a dress for you," said Santi as she handed the clothes to Kanaya. "Thank you, mom." "Sorry, yes. Mother disturbs the night," said Sinta. "It's all right, ma'am," Sinta said goodbye, while Kanaya continued to sleep. "You already told your family about our plan?" asked Bhishma with his back to Kanaya's body. "Not yet. Maybe tomorrow." The conversation was cut off, they both tried to close their eyes.'
***
Dawn had arrived, and Kanaya and Bhishma both woke up from their beautiful dream. On this Sunday, they already have plans for morning exercise in the town square. Just get to know each other and also understand each other. At least, they both want to try like husband and wife.
Kanaya is not cooking today, the woman is ready for a morning run.
"Are you ready?" Bhishma asked.
"I'm ready."
For the first time, Bhishma held Kanaya's hand. This made Kanaya shocked and also couldn't believe what was happening. At first, Kanaya wanted to ward off the grip. However, Kanaya realized that it was legitimate for her to be held by a man she had just met.
"So romantic! Where are you guys going?" asked Sinta.
"We want to go out, ma'am. While looking for wind," Bhishma replied.
Then, Sinta was happy with what she had just seen. Especially when two hands go hand in hand. There is nothing more that can be said for a mother other than praying for the best for her child.
Kanaya and Bhishma came out of the house, and they both walked very slowly. The two of them didn't talk to each other. Kanaya looks tired, and so does Bhishma.