'Why would my father sell me?' thought Kanaya as she overheard the conversation.
His heart ached for the umpteenth time. The parents he loved, had the heart to do this to him. As it turned out, the treasure that was more valuable to his father was money. Not him, his daughter. Kanaya canceled her intention to go home, the woman was really in a dilemma. The house to be a place to live from when he was little turned out to be full of secrets he didn't know. Kanaya didn't want to come out of the room even though Bhishma kept calling her from outside. Kanaya was already frantic in her heart and mind. The woman wanted to be alone and did not want to be disturbed just yet.
"You spoiled son-in-law, from the start I didn't want my son to marry you!" rebuked Flowers from outside the door. Bunga made a lot of swearing.
"Never mind, Mom. Don't bother yelling at the ignorant brother-in-law. We'd better get out of the house, take a walk," Bella asked.
"Yes, you are right." Bella and Bunga finally left the house to the shopping center.
At home there were only Kanaya and Bhishma, Bhishma let Kanaya in the room without disturbing him.
Drt... drt... drt....
Kanaya's cell phone rings, signaling an incoming call. The woman looked at her cellphone screen, it was a call from her best friend.
Assalamualaikum, Kanaya. You're not going to TPQ now?' asked Ara.
'Waalaikumussalam, no. Today I have a day off first,' answered Kanaya from the phone call.
'Even though Hamdan was here, he resigned.'
Kanaya didn't care about what Ara said, the woman still couldn't forget the wound in her heart.
'What are you doing, Kanaya? You must be sick? Are you crying?' Ara was curious as she heard Kanaya's slight sob.
'I am alright.' Kanaya kept her sadness to herself.
Still, his best friend is looking for a way to get Kanaya to tell a story. However, Kanaya remained in her stance.
'Usually, when I tell Hamdan. You are the most passionate woman, why are you like this now?' asked Ara fishing.
'You forgot, Ara. I've become someone else's wife, should I still be happy to hear another man's name?'
Ara was silent, Kanaya wanted to keep it to herself. That was all Kanaya could do to cover up the disgrace she knew.
'I want to be alone first, Ara. Give me time,' added Kanaya.
'Yeah, sorry if I bothered you.'
Ara hung up the phone after saying hello.
***
The day changed, it was time for Kanaya to go home to her parents. Kanaya wants to live alone with her husband, once she finds out the truth. The woman wanted to end the marriage that was still at an early age. The woman is no longer in control of what is happening in her life.
"If you don't want to marry me, why do you agree to the match? After all, my father will not sue you for what happened," said Kanaya.
"You think you're the only one who's depressed? Me too! I have to pretend to be nice in front of your parents. This isn't the marriage I want. Plus, you and Vilia are prettier, Vilia!" Hardik Bhishma.
Bhishma raised his voice because he knew there was no one at home. Only the two of them remained. All of Kanaya's family went shopping.
Kanaya doesn't know who Vilia is. The woman didn't want to know either, she just wanted to end this marriage. Maybe, her life will be happy if she can marry Hamdan.
"Vilia is my boyfriend, I was stupid to leave Vilia just because of a woman like you," added Bhishma when he saw the confused look on Kanaya's face.
"I don't want to marry you either," said Vilia.
Not even a week Kanaya and Bhishma said they wanted to know more they were fighting. Complete with regret and disappointment that resides in Kanaya's heart. She didn't think that her life would be like this. If only at that time he had not agreed to his parents' request, perhaps this would never have happened. If she hadn't thought about her age and thought that she was an adult and had to get married, maybe she wouldn't have experienced what she's currently going through.
Kanaya chose to leave Bhishma alone at his house. The woman chose to take a walk in the park. He wanted to enjoy the atmosphere outside and forget everything he was feeling.
Kanaya went to the park where she usually went with Hamdan, her mind started to nostalgic.
"Alone, Neng. Usually the same mas," said Bu Yuyun food seller Hamdan and Kanaya subscriptions.
The woman only smiled at Yuyun. How painful it is when someone asks a question like that. Almost the sellers in the park thought that Kanaya and Hamdan were husband and wife.
"In this place, I'm used to being with Hamdan," thought Kanaya.
Hamdan and Kanaya went to the park to discuss activities at TPQ, nothing more. Besides the park being a cool place, there are also many people in the park. Moreover, in the garden, you can see the flowers that are blooming.
"What are the criteria for your ideal male, Kanaya?" asked Hamdan at the time.
The woman could only smile and mumble, that Hamdan is the man she likes. This time, Kanaya thought again and reminisced about it.
'If only I had been honest about my feelings, maybe he and I would have been the happiest husband and wife,' he thought.
"Huff...."
Kanaya took a deep breath. He continued to walk towards the seat that was usually their favorite seat. Under a shady tree, and a gazebo. Remembering everything that Hamdan and Kanaya had been through, made Kanaya smile happily.
"You are beautiful and kind," said Hamdan during a serious conversation about the TPQ children.
Even though he was half whispering, Kanaya heard everything. The woman could only blush when Hamdan seduced her.
Note: Neng is a nickname for Javanese women.