I was too scared because of my relationship with Nate and I had no idea what this Victoria lady was like.
'I'll go get her.' The plump lady looked Alicia and I over before closing the door.
I felt very uneasy. I wanted to run but my legs refused to move. Alicia turned to me and mouthed the words 'you're doing great.'
I knew that was a lie. I was doing very badly.
The door opened again, this time, a dark skinned woman opened it.
Her cornrows were very neat and she smelled like coconut oil. She looked very athletic but the frown on her face made me very nervous.
The door opened again, this time, a dark skinned woman opened it.
Her cornrows were very neat and she smelled like coconut oil. She looked very athletic but the frown on her face made me very nervous.
'Hi.' Alicia said. I was very grateful she said something.
I couldn't find any words to say to this young woman before me and worse of all, my throat felt very dry.
It was an awful feeling of guilt that gripped me.
'Hi, how may I help you?' Her voice was smooth like butter.
It did not compliment her facial expression at all. She sounded sweet and nice but she looked very angry.
'We want to talk to you about Nate.' I did not think before talking.
I said the least things she wanted to hear. I wanted to swallow my words and run but they were there already, creating extra tension.
She rolled her eyes in a way that suggested she had done it over and over.
She stepped back and my eyes caught a glimpse of an anchor tattoo below her belly button.
The shirt she was putting on was loose and it moved with the rhythm of her big breasts.
'And what makes you think I want to talk about Nate? If that is all you are here for, I would advise you to leave.' She sounded as sweet as she did the last time.
It felt like she really wanted to talk about Nate and at the same time, she wanted to avoid the topic like a plague.
'Please listen to us.' Alicia said.
I wanted to explain to Victoria that we meant no harm and we just wanted to talk to her to know how she was doing after the incident but she looked like she was going to slam the door at us anytime.
'Are you his victim?' She pointed at Alicia. Alicia was his victim and his sister.
I knew she was not going to tell her that Nate had no heart and went ahead to rape his own sister so she just shook her head.
'You're Kassy, the one in a sorority, right?' She was pointing at me.
My heart sank.
Was Nate using my sorority membership to get with girls?
Was he that desperate?
'Yes, I am.' I held Alicia firmly.
I could not believe Nate was using me to get people to relate with him.
I felt dirty all over, it was as if I played a huge role in his sins. I was the bait he used to get his victims. I was his trump card.
'I thought he was all for women's rights and stuff. Did you not educate him or that is not what your little sorority is focused on?' I could hear the pain in her voice now.
'Can we talk? Please.' I wondered where those words came from. I did not think about saying them but somehow they were there and Victoria obliged.
'We'll sit here.' She pointed to some chairs on the veranda.
Alicia and I took our seat but Victoria stood for a bit longer. It was as if she was contemplating talking with us or sending us out of her house.
She sat down on one of the empty chairs and stared daggers at us and it was very uncomfortable.
The silence lasted for a few seconds until Victoria said, 'I hope your big brother is still in jail. He needs to understand the weight of his actions.'
I was glad he was in jail and so was Alicia. At least at that moment, the three of us shared something in common.
'He is. I'm Alicia, Nate's younger sister and as you know, this is Kassy, my younger sister. We just wanted to check on you really.' Alicia sounded very shy.
She barely even looked at Victoria as she spoke.
'Good. Uh, you guys did not think to check on me after he got jailed. Why now? Three years later? Are you tryin to get him out of jail?' She moved her eyes steadily from sister to sister.
'We did not get any information on his victims till now. We're not trying to get him out of jail. We really just want to know how you are.' Alicia was getting better at talking to Victoria.
I was still trying to think about the appropriate questions to ask and the offensive questions I should not bother asking.
'Your brother drugged me that night. He took me to a party across town and drugged me. You asked how I am, I am not fine.'
'I still cannot get over the fact that I woke up naked on the bathroom floor of a clubhouse with your brother beside me, naked.' She slumped into the chair.
I could only imagine how she must have felt that day. She probably felt used, like a piece of rag that was used once and then trashed.
'We are honestly sorry that happened to you. I really do understand how you feel.' Alicia was holding hands with Victoria now.
A tear dropped from Victoria's eyes. I could not put myself in their shoes. It would be useless trying.
I could never understand how they felt and frankly, it was not my wish to. I just wished at that moment that Nate had made better decisions.
'He did not call me back after then, he did not even apologize. Even I wanted to know what really happened but he did not take my calls or reply to my texts.'