Cheating is a choice..... no one can say that it wasn't, it takes two to tango as they say, but why cheat? if you can just move out to give the respect that your partner deserves?
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I'm in a hurry since Marc is waiting outside, he always remind me how precious the time is. "Riddle hurry up we still have 15 mins before 6 am." He shouted.
"Yah I know!" I wear my shoes carelessly and ride my bike which I always used as a form of transportation going to school instead of commuting, this way I'm able to save money for at least, the bike is much more convenient especially every morning as a form of exercise.
After a minute we arrived earlier as we expected, smooth travel. "Good start this morning," Marc announce while locking his bike while I was gasping for breath. No warm up today, quick ride just to save time and avoid being late. Whatever!
Later after we finish locking our bikes I saw my classmates outside. "Hey, why are you here? Does the schedule of our class change?" I ask.
"Nope, you haven't read Ms. Divina's announcement in our group chat I guess?" he answered.
"What announcement?" I asked.
"We have no class for today," He reply causing a bit of disappointment to me. I wake up this early for nothing? Tch." what a waste of time and effort.
"So what now? I'll go and see you around riddle ford." Marc said while giving me a crazy small smile.
"Are you trying to pissed me off marc?"
"Nope! it's better to be early than late." He reply with sarcastic smile then he waive.
I waive back to my classmate after saying goodbye, I decided to use my available time reading books in the library since I'm already here. "What a waste of effort for this morning!" I murmur.
While walking I was about to think what book I'm going to read, Do I need to read the books of famous novelist Nicholas Park today? to set my mood or read some educational ones? I enter the library having no idea of what book I am going to pick so I decided to look for something new. The room is very quiet this morning not until I hear someone whispering, I guess those are the naughty student who can't keep their wild feelings this morning. Well I think library is one of the famous place to be naughty.
"Ahhhhhmm, She sounded like they own this place and drowning in pleasure" Tsk, those cheap students! what a bitch." I rolled my eyes and try to ignore them since they seems happy and unaware of my existence here.
"Hey stop it! they might hear us, Fred!" The girl said that makes me stop for a while, my heart started to beat abnormally when I hear a familiar voice behind the shelves. A VERY FAMILIAR VOICE.
"I'm sure you like it, And I'll make sure that you will enjoy every little kiss I'll give especially this one babe." The guy said while yearning into a deep voice. While I was listening I try to calm myself.
It was Lea's voice. This can't be, But I'm sure it was my girlfriend's voice. I want to see if I was wrong, I want to see with my own eyes that the girl I badly love is cheating on me.
"Babe I'm tickled! stop it right now, I said stop!" He added with deep pleasure.
"Just endure it, I'll make sure that you will enjoy this babe." The girl said while her voice is full of yearning, her voice sounds very happy.
"Lea let's do this more often can we?" The man said. Now I'm so sure, It was lea. My dear Girlfriend. I peeked to see who was with her and it was Fred. Frederick Conception.
Frederick Conception, The leader of that Gang who ruin not only my life but also the purity of that girl! My blood heats up I want to shout and retaliate but daddy didn't raise me to be a scoundrel, I was educated unlike them. I took a photo of them while they are both drowning in their lust I can't watch them anymore, to save myself from deep anger I decided to left the library.
After taking the photo I went to the librarian and showed it to her. Of course, she was surprised and quickly went to them. I'm mad, at the same deeply time hurt. In all people why him? Did she forget what he did to us?! or Lea was flirt enough to chase that guy, a heartless one. There is no room for my anger this time, I was totally numb and clueless about the reason behind it.
"What's wrong with lea?"
I didn't know what to do next so I went to Lea's condo and wait for her. I took all my belongings and put them in a suitcase, I'm going to leave her and I'll never let my heart falls for her lies again, Not this time. I will guard my heart at all costs and she will regret doing this to me.
After packing all my belongings I started to remove all our pictures on the wall even the frames and stuff that I gave to her. I put it in a trash bin just like what she did to our relationship, she ruin everything we have. I think we don't have any reason to keep this stuff anymore after what she did until she suddenly came. She was surprised when she saw me with my suitcase. I think she's drunk.
"Finally you are here." I said while looking at her straight to her eyes.
"Hi, babe? what are you doing here? Do you miss me? Just tell me you missed me, Riddle Ford I wanted to hear your voice." She said. I took a deep breath with fear that I might be taken to her sweet voice and forgive her suddenly. It's already 6:30 pm, I waited for the whole day. I looked at the watch then I carry my suitcase, I pushed her gently I don't want to feel her skin this time.
"Babe, what was that? Hmm, I think there is something wrong with my room, this is my condo right? Did you clean the whole house or maybe I'm just drunk." She said while giving me a silent laugh.
I give her a smile, how funny that she doesn't even recognize that I removed all the pictures here. She looked at the trash can and immediately went there I think she finally recognized those stuff, Pictures, gifts, clothing, and love notes that I gave.
"Wait, what did you do Riddle? what's wrong with you Riddle Ford? this stuff is your gift! you didn't know how much I treasure this!" She shouted with anger. I think the spirit of alcohol left her already and finally understand what was going on.
"What's the problem babe? let's talk about it." She asked with a sweet voice. Her beauty attempt to reach and soften my heart again but I need to resist and control myself to serve respect on my side.
"Lea I had enough, I accept everything about you. Being a party girl, friendly and touchy, your sexy outfit? a bit drunkard, but not your cheating. Lea of all people why him?! I answered.
"W-what?? Riddle, babe I don't understand." She reply trying to pretend she did nothing wrong. I show her their photo while enjoying each other's arms.
"I ruin myself just to save you that night, Maybe I can understand if you find someone who can treat you right or someone better than me but why him? Lea, it's Frederick Conception! he try to assault you and kill us that night, But why? why him?! how can you smile and look at him like he did nothing wrong to us?"
"Riddle" She whispered, I saw her teary eyes.
"He ruin the life of an innocent girl three months ago have you forgotten it, everyone is laughing at you that night remember?!"
"Riddle, babe."
"Are you part of that crime? Did the both of you plan everything that night lea?"
"Of course not I did not know anything about that night believe me!"
I took a deep breath I try to give her a smile.
"Ride it was a mistake. We are assigned to finish our school works that time but----"
"But what?!" I can't let her finish her words because of anger.
"I didn't mean to do it but I need to. I wanted to stop him Riddle believe me." She answered with teary eyes.
"You wanted t stop him? Lea you we're smiling that time, you enjoy it!"
"Babe."
"Well, maybe because you think I can't give you the pleasure you needed because of my trauma, right? Lea, I thought you understand that I wasn't able to do it because of what happened last three months? I rape someone to save you but now you are happy doing shit with him. My conscience almost kills me day by day, every night I hear her voice but look? here we are. Crying and fighting because of him." I smiled sarcastically.
"Ride I'm sorry, I love you please listen to me. I have my reasons, please?" She answered but my heart is numb at this point.
I promise to protect her and love her day by day in every season of our life but maybe I can't do it anymore, not this time. From now on, I will love her silently maybe she needs freedom but I know I'm still the man who loves her unconditionally. I know to myself that I can love from far.
"Ride please? listen to me I can explain, don't do this me please you can't leave me." She beg.
"If you want him then choose him, I don't want to be an option, Lea. And I will never compete with him."
"What about your promise Riddle Ford?" She answers while crying.
"I promise to love you Lea so I'm giving you the favor. I will leave so you can do everything you want. Just be safe please."
"No please, don't do this, you don't know what you are saying Riddle don't do this."
"I think this is goodbye."
"Are you serious?! you are not going to leave me Riddle, you only have me. Remember?"
"No leah, after what you did? I still have myself."
"I know what you did, I will tell the police."
I was looking straight into her eyes. "I'm not afraid anymore."
"I'm afraid to lose you but it was happening right now, but lea if I try to keep you I will lose myself too. So now go and tell it to the police, I won't stop you so please don't stop me from leaving you."
"I don't know how to tell you but Riddle I'm telling you, every time that I said I love you all it was true, it was from my heart. If leaving makes you happy them I go, but please don't erase me in your life because I'm hoping that you one day you will listen and try to understand why I did it."
"Lea, I can't erase you in my life. After what you did? no. I will never forget it believe me." We are both standing and looking at each other. I wipe her tears and I manage myself to give her a smile, sweet bitter smile.
"I'm sorry Riddle but I think I was too selfish if I still ask to you stay, but that is what I want."
"Leah, I think this is goodbye." We are both crying like a child, but this is the best thing to do to serve respect for the both of us. Listening to her makes me more sick, I choose to move out this time carrying the pain and fear for everything that happen.
If she really love me, then she will never betray me.