The lifespan of people in this world, ordinary people is around 100-150 years, but those that are not 'ordinary' at the very least have 300 years lifespan.
To not even be able to live as long as ordinary people, that's such a sad thing. To make matter worse, when one is aware of it.
But…
"I am not interested in having a short lived friend" I cruelly refused.
It is so that I could protect my own self.
I am a human with emotion. I don't like to have ties with things that will not live as long as me. It will be me who will be emotionally scarred while the deceased will be peacefully departed only leaving their cold body for those that are still living.
Death, this final parting is such a cruel thing.
"Ruru, you're so cruel~"
She protest "But I will still stick to you, short lived friend… You already consider us as friend? I also consider you as friend"
And deliberately focus on what she like, she gave me a sweet smile while saying that.
This is going to turn out the way I will not like, it's a strong feeling that I have and I don't like this feeling.
The next day, the astrologist requested to meet me again.
And… why am I letting her meets me?
How the hell will I know!
I am irritated at myself.
I brought her to my room, I was reading books on incantation while she was doing her work on numerology. Thankfully, she didn't talk much and maintain the peaceful silence.
Used to the peace and quiet, I do not found uncomfortable with the silence that ensued between us.
Also I don't know how noble entertain their guest and in which room they usually meet up with and chat. Since mother didn't deliberately force me to learn etiquette, I won't bother learning as well.
I already have my hands full on learning sorcery.
And so, I treat my guest friend how modern me will do; bringing her either to the living room or to the bedroom.
After an hour or so, I rub my glabella.
The higher incantation books are always so hard and somewhat difficult to decipher. If I don't have a strong foundation on incantation, I will not be able to understand even a teensy bit of it at all.
I look the girl near me who was concentrating on some numerical problem?
Huh?
That resembles so much of math problem.
As I have known the language of this world as well as my previous world language, I can immediately relate those symbols with my previous world math symbol.
I got interested.
Although I don't know how those calculation can relate to astrology, that does not deter me from my curiosity of wanting to see whether she can solve the question of my previous life math question.
I wrote down a set of question, of course after converting to this world symbol, there are some symbols of my previous world that has no translation so I wrote an explanation of the symbol beside it so that she will understand what it is and the usage. It was a high school student question.
...Like the one she is solving.
Passing the paper to her, the astrologist looks up.
"Can you solve it?"
She looks down at the set of question.
"Ruru, do you know numerology?"
She asked, bewildered.
"I don't" I answered truthfully. I only know math, not numerology.
"There are some symbols that I have never seen before, it was a new term to numerology but I can feel it will be of great help in numerology" Her voice laced with excitement.
I became stiff "Don't ask much, I just happen to come across it"
Won't it be troublesome if they want to know the root of it?
What if the other celestial dwellers came and demand answer? Pestering me?
That's not what I wanted.
Let peace befell on me, forever.
The astrologist excitement also quickly cools down.
"If Ruru does not want to talk about it, I'll respect it… Hmm… let's see…"
She took the paper trying to solve them immediately.
"You are quite composed" I suspiciously look at her.
Discovering things that can bring a huge positive change is not something that can be brush off so easily.
The astrologist tilts her head "How do I say?" she rubs her chin and explain "As you can see, I am not going to live that long so I learn to take things as a pinch of salt. Being lukewarm to most thing, you have to learn to be nonchalant when others look at you with sympathetic or neutrally treat you since forever"
I guess that's one way to look at the world too when one life is limited; being completely unconcerned about everything.
The other way is cherishing every moment. The other-other way is to be completely hysterical about it.
I kept my silence and did not reply her.
Pursing my lips, I continue reading my incantation book.
The astrologist spends the whole day in solving the set of question.
"I would really like to have more knowledge and information of such kind"
She laments and waves me a goodbye before getting inside the carriage.
If you want to know more, go transmigrate to earth! I rebuffed silently.
"I will comes visit again the day after tomorrow"
The astrologer beamingly said.
I ignore her.
Don't come again, thank you very much.
Going back to my room, I pick up the incantation book.
By the way, while driving on a carriage yesterday, I suddenly remember my dream of wanting to fly. Like those witch with their broom.
I will work on that but not now.
I am not in a need to go out often anyway. If I do make, I will sell it on my store. It will sell really well, I am sure of it.
Tomorrow, I will look up on homunculus.
The going to be short lived girl gave me this sense of urgency on wanting to have another way of escaping death.
Homunculus can be of living or can be created as just a shell to be available for inhabitation.
Creating a new life means I have to be responsible for it and responsibility is never a light matter. It is a heavy burden.
So, I am going to merely create a vessel that I can inhabit if this body of mine gave up on life, not creating a new life that might contain a soul or spirit.
I want to smack my last night self.
Talking about creating homunculus so easily… TAT.
Do I think that creating homunculus is like creating jointed ball dolls?
Haha…
How naïve…
If only the past me knows better, she will not be so languid on her statement.
First, I will need an ovum of life bear by the world tree which I came to know from the incomplete creating process of homunculus scripture I have.
What is world tree? According to the record, it was the sacred tree of the elves.
The elves live in the eastern continent.
I have not even ventures outside of Allerick empire capital city much less to another continent. I don't even know where the eastern continent is, the way and where the elves will dwell in.
Creating the homunculus now became a long, extremely long term project that can only be look into when conditions are met.
I am still sensible enough to not ask mother to get me an ovum of life.
There is no channel with other continent. The histories of the western continent have little to no interaction with other continent.
Although that's my mere assumption, even from the book
I know that novels and book are mere surface level when compare to real life events. There might actually be a way to be in contact with them and someone might be in contact with the other continent too.
I'm a shut-in, what do I know? *shrug shoulder*
But for now…
Let's get stronger first, let's reach adulthood first.
We will think of travelling and seeing the outside world when this body grows up.
When night time came, I unnecessarily remember the astrologist who will come tomorrow.
I turn on my bed intending to sleep.
"Ugh…" Half an hour later, I open my eyes wide staring at the ceiling.
"Fuck it"
Taking a deep breath, I got up from bed, took the quill pen and paper and started filling them up with math of middle grade till high school grade.
As said before, I like math so I turn math textbook often.
My knowledge alter ego produced a clear picture of all the math pages that I've already ever solved and read up.
"Fuck…"
I am doing this just because I feel that I should share some knowledge of my previous life to this ignorant muggles.
Yeah, to satisfy my vanity.
Nothing more, nothing less.