[Mandy's Diary Today]
I lay there all night with swollen eyes from the constant crying, hugging my bolster, squeezing the blanket up to my chin. I know I was wrong. I'm a little regretful that I didn't tell her about the doctor's report earlier. But every woman in my position understands the pain, the dilemma, and the fear. On the one hand, I don't want to disappoint Justin so I can hide that fact and wait for time to fix things. And on the other hand, I'm afraid he'll be angry and hate me if he finds out. Now both have happened. I made him disappointed and angry.
Until now he didn't want to see me here. He would rather go and sleep outside this room than accompany me. This bed is so lonely without him. I'm not used to sleeping alone now. I am lonely.
