"Do you remember when we first met?" Arabella stares at me as she asks with an angelic look on her face.
Immediately before this, I was about to confess to her how I had betrayed her with Omega Kelly, but when she asked me that, it completely threw me off guard. I turn to her and fake a smile, because honestly, the last thing on my mind right now is the first time we met. Instead, all I can think about is how she will hate me when she finds out that I had sex with Kelly. Most of all, there is absolutely no way I can tell her how many times, because then she will know it wasn't just a mistake.
As the guilt builds deep inside, I try my hardest not to yell and state in a moderate tone, "Yes, I do. You were at the rave, where you were almost eaten." I fake a smile as my head starts to throb.
She opens her mouth to speak, and then says, "I remember seeing you for the first time and wondering why the other guys were paying such close attention to everything you said. At first, I didn't think too much about it, but later before I came to the castle, I had a fantasy about you being a mob boss and I was your girlfriend." She starts to laugh before continuing, "It's kind of scary that I wasn't that far off you know."
Remembering all of it, everything seems trivial now. I remember when all I wanted to do was to make her happy. Now, I have messed up everything. If I didn't have a conscience, I could live the rest of my life without telling her what had happened. Unfortunately, she may never forgive me for this transgression.
"I need to talk to you about something. It's important." I say quietly as one of the pups start to roll around in their crib.
I feel like shit, and if I don't get this out now, I won't ever tell her. Eventually, it will eat me up inside, and then somehow, she will find out about it one way or another. They always do, no matter how hard you try to bury it. The thing is I need to know if she can ever forgive me or not, and I won't find out unless I tell her the truth.
"Here goes." I think to myself before sighing and opening my mouth to spill the beans.
She glances up into my eyes and smiles before asking, "What is it? I know the pups are growing so fast, but did you find out from the doctor that something is wrong with them?" The worry in her voice makes me feel bad, so I assure her by shaking my head.
"No, no. It is something else." My voice trails off when I hesitate for a minute to search for the right words. When I find them, I continue, "You know the day before you had the pups?"
I gaze into her eyes as she nods slowly and waits for me to speak, "After the whole incident with Omega Kelly and you fell asleep on the bed, I went downstairs to the study. I had fully intended on sleeping, but I couldn't sleep without you by my side. I love you so much, but I did something I regret, and I just hope you will ever be able to forgive me."
The tears well up in her eyes before crying out, "I knew it. The next day, I could have sworn I smelled her perfume on you. Did you have sex with her?"
Nodding, I turn away for a moment as the tears start to fall, then I say in a whisper, "Yes, but I need to explain."
She stands up and yells, "Explain what? How many times you fucked her? This is unbelievable." She states before walking towards the door to the bedroom.
When she turns to me, I see the hatred in her eyes and for the first time in my life, I realize how badly I have messed up. This is all because I wanted to take vengeance for something that wasn't entirely Kelly's fault. If I hadn't allowed it to start in the first place, she wouldn't have been downstairs in my study with me at all. Instead, I would have been in bed with Arabella, and she would have been sleeping in my arms.
Now Arabella hates me, and I must face the facts. She might decide to take the pups and go back home to her parents' place. If that is the case, I can't let it happen and then we have come full circle back to just after we met for the first time. Was this a coincidence that she had just been thinking about that very moment, or has destiny played out its hand?
Shaking my head, I rush over to her and beg for her to stay. "Please, Arabella don't go."
If she walks out of the room, it is hard to tell what might happen. After all, there are those in the shadows still lurking around here, that wish to harm all of us. Also, what would become of the pups? They need their mother so much right now.
When she doesn't say anything and turns her back to me, she stands there silently brooding. Finally, she turns back around, before stating, "I have decided to stay. Only because we have pups together and they need me." She sighs and then continues, "You cannot stay in this room with me, however. Please arrange for other accommodations immediately. The fact that we have shared the same bed for weeks and you didn't have the common decency to tell me you touched another woman, appalls me to no end. Let alone touching Kelly, she has been with so many men. I hear everyone talk about the way she spreads her legs for anyone." When I gaze into her eyes again, I see the pain that I have caused her.
It hurts me more than anything in this world because I love her so much, I would give my life for her. But now she would rather I die than be near her.