How many women have you been doing this to huh? Alexander. How many women have you led to this bed?....Listen to me now and listen carefully. You're mine alone and only me is allowed to touch you. No one else, not even those damn women. I know I've not given myself to you and it's unfair of me but I just don't want you doing this to other women, please..please don't do this to...." She said as the tears she had been holding back came gushing out.
Alexander was stunned for a moment. Was that the reason for her anger. This wife of his was just too possessive of him and he loved it. He loved her possessive side.
Alexander moved and placed her head on his chest. "Don't cry, wife. You're different from those women. Do you know why?... because you're my wife. Ever since I got married to you, I've not seen any other woman except for you, my wife. If you're still not ready I can wait though." He said but Elen shook her head. She couldn't take chances anymore. She was going to fully give her body to him. Her heart belongs to him and she'll give him her body too. She wouldn't let some lousy woman take her husband away from her!!
"No Alexander, I'm ready. I'll give you all of me but promise you'll give me all of you. Promise me Alexander."
Alexander was stunned again. He couldn't promise that. He couldn't give her his heart. His heart was dead and it had nothing to offer except for countless and series of endless pain.
"I can't give you my heart, wife." He said and Elen's heart broke into a million pieces. Why couldn't he do that? Why? He was her husband so why couldn't he give her his heart. Was it too much for him to give her his heart? Or does his heart belong to someone else? The last thought made her entire system shut down. How could she forget that he was not in love with her. He's just carrying out his duties as her husband. Perhaps, his heart belongs to someone else and there's nothing she could do about it.
"Why? Does it belong to someone else?" She asked, she wanted his answer to be negative but there was a very low chance of that happening.
"Yes." He said and Elen's whole world abruptly stopped. She couldn't feel, see or even hear anything except for the words 'yes'.
"But she's gone. Gone forever." He added and Elen didn't know why she felt the urge to cry. Was this the reason her husband was usually cold? Was it because he had lost his first love and it had broken him into a million pieces? She couldn't even start to imagine herself if she loses him! She would be an empty vessel...Is he not capable of falling in love again? Is she not able to breath life into him? Did he really make his heart turn into an unbreakable stone?
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to ask. I didn't know that you -"
"It's okay...that was a long time ago and I don't want to talk about any of it." He said.
"I understand."
The room was enveloped with silence. Both of them, lost in their own thoughts. Just when she's willing to give her body to her husband, all of these things happen?!! Why did her jealousy get a better part of her? Why couldn't she control it? But how could she control all of these feelings when they were new to her? How could she control the things she's never felt before?!!
Alexander on the other hand was thinking about the incident that led to his beloved death. He knew that sooner or later he would tell his wife everything about his past because she needed to know. He'll tell her everything when the right time comes and that would be very soon. His wife would know everything about him before the danger that awaits them befalls.
"You're not able to give me your heart?" Elen asked again.
"Yes."
"How are you sure about that."
"I don't know, but I'll make sure of it." He said and a tiny drop of tears fell her cheek.
"Do you love me?" He asked her causing Elen's eyes to widen for a moment. As much as she wanted to say those words to him, she couldn't do it now. Not when he's still reminded of his past. She's going to slowly ease the pain in his heart. She won't force him to forget his first love but she would make sure she awakens his dead soul, and when she does that. She would confess her feelings to him.
"I don't know."... she shrugged. "What if I do? What if I don't? What would you do huh?" She said the exact same words he had told her earlier that day.
"Then I would advise you to disperse any feelings you have for me because -"
"You won't love me." She continued his sentence.
"I understand and I would make sure not to fall for you." She added. Her heart clenched when she said those words. What could she do to stop all this pain in her heart?!
The room was enveloped in silence until Elen broke it again.
"Since you can't give me your all. Can you give me your body?" She asked him, causing Alexander's eyes to widen. He didn't see that coming. Elen didn't know when she became this bold towards him, but it was a good thing she no longer feared him anymore.
He heaved a sigh before he spoke. "I'm your husband and my body belongs to you." He said causing Elen to give him a slight smile. A smile that spoke of many emotions.
"Then kiss me Alexander." She said causing the man's eyes to widen again. His wife was suddenly becoming bolder by the day. This was just unbelievable. His wife was offering herself to him without even thinking twice! But the sexual thrill he was feeling had suddenly died down and he wasn't in the mood for this anymore. He knew that if he started, he wouldn't be able to stop. He would become an uncontrollable beast. He wouldn't stop until he was able to find some of the feelings, and he didn't want to do that to his wife. He wouldn't do anything to hurt her just for his own pleasure!!!
"I'm sorry but I can't anymore. Not today, Helena." He told her in a firm but calm tone.
"Why? You don't want me anymore?" She said as she moved closer to him. Her breath was caressing his skin but he didn't feel anything this time. She moved her lips and placed them on his ears.
"You can't give me your heart and even your body too?" She said as she slowly unbuttoned his coat. Her gaze never leaving his. She didn't know where she picked this courage from but she liked it so far.
She slowly unbuttoned his coat until the last button was off. She removed the coat from his shoulders and flung it to the other part of the room.
She looked at his chiseled chest and she couldn't help but gape at the sight before her. She had been longing to run her hands through that chest and today was her perfect chance. She was going to do just that. Alexander let her finish all of her work but the funny fact was that he wasn't feeling anything or was it because he didn't want to feel anything. He took a deep breathe and closed his eyes but before he could open his eyes, her hands had started to run through his smooth chest, and that was when he finally lost all of his senses.
"Kiss me Alexander." She uttered in a seductive voice.
"Don't hold back anymore. Do what you want to do. I don't mind...just don't hold back anymore... please." She pleaded. She never expected that she would be the one pleading to him on their first time together, but here she was, looking like a desperate woman who wants nothing else but this one thing.
She brushed her lips lightly against his and that was when Alexander's self-control came bursting out like a volcano.
He grabbed her closer and slammed his lips against hers. He kissed her with pure hunger and desire. His kiss was fiercer than the other types he had been giving her.
Elen believed that if she made love with him today. It won't be impossible to make him fall for her. She just believed that if he gives her his body today, he's also giving her his heart and that is why she would never let this opportunity slip away. Never!!
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