"Hey kid, how was the get together?" My mom asks. She's about to go to work soon, it's only 9 pm.
"Both terrible and good at the same time." I reply.
"Why's that?"
"I learned that Jugyeong likes Suho."
"I know you like her but did you really think you had a chance with her? She's model levels of pretty and if she liked you ever you missed your chance when you gave up and started eating alot from depression."
"I'm trying to change. I started going to the gym and I'm going on a borderline keto diet."
"With that kind of diet I doubt you'll survive. You're ITALIAN son, the one ethnicity that's very existence stems from carbs, carbs and more carbs. Have you told your dad about your diet anyway?"
"No, I'm giving the kid that bullies me my breakfast pizza so he doesn't swirly me."
"Can you trust him?"
"We shook on it. He's an evil potentially inbred jerk, but he goes by his word."
"I won't tell him then. We can talk more later, I gotta go to work son. Love you."
"Love you mom."
I practice my elbow technique for like an hour while blasting music. Then I down some Diet Joke to wash away my misery. It has no calories. Not like it's gonna make me fat. Don't judge me!
{You're 17 and drinking Diet Joke, only moms drink that crap.}
"How did you know that I said don't judge me!"
{I'm in your mind idiot! Of course I would know. I have to hear your endless babbling and you talking with your stupid friends and getting into cringy situations! JUST KNOW I WILL ALWAYS JUDGE YOU... And love you}
"That's a weird thing for a mind system to say. Most systems don't have personalities."
{I do so shut up!}
"You're a tsundere."
{Says the sussy baka.}
"Stop being cringe."
{Says the cringelord}
"Ugh!"
{Be happy I'm not pissed.}
"Why?"
{When you fail a punishment you'll know why hehehe.}
I already forgot what the punishment for failing a punishment is.
{GOOD!}
"I hate you sometimes."
{I hate you more :)}
"I'm going to sleep."
{Enjoy crying yourself to sleep about Jugyeong ;)}
I go to sleep. And I'm sad to admit this but I do cry myself to sleep thinking about Jugyeong. Her beautiful face. Her long black hair. Her deep brown
Okay that's enough thinking for one night.
The next day I walk to school. Give up my pizza, and get beaten up like usual.
I walk into my English period and plop next to Jugyeong like I do every school day. We say hi and stuff.
"Hey. Did you get the results for your eyes?" she asked me.
"I forgot to go, I'll just go during passing period." I reply.
It got awkward. We didn't hug. Didn't handshake. She didn't grab my arm. She didn't freakily massage me. None of the normal weird stuff Jugyeong does. I didn't say anything because I think she knows I overheard. I'm like 99% positive she knows I like her, which after me overhearing her say what she said last night probably made it weird for her to act all touchy feely.
"Man he's been cold to me since yesterday. What's wrong with him? Dummy. Hmph." Jugyeong said in her mind.
Class starts and we sit quietly. She doesn't kick me, distract me, or anything really. She's always bored out of her mind. She's been acting weird.
"I dunno if I should go full fire on his coldness right now. Maybe today's not the best time." Jugyeong said to herself.
I go to the nurse during passing period and she tells me what I was expecting, no cancer.
"You don't have to smoke weed kid. Congratulations." Nurse Jin said.
"Thanks."
"Go to a psychiatrist."
"Nah."
"Enjoy blockage."
"It's fine."
"Man that kid definitely has some form of psychosis. He looks like he's in HaHaLand all the time." Nurse Jin said to herself.
That lady doesn't know anything. It's just the system on my side!
Skip the next two periods like usual, it's not dodgeball season, so nothing to see here. Math is just Dowoon and I reading manga while the teacher goes over stuff we don't care about. At least he's acting normal.
I go to the table with my friends. I sit next to Dowoon instead of Jugyeong mainly just because I'm still miserable and want her to see my misery, and also because Dowoon is acting normal. I have no classes with Suho because he's dumb, so I dunno if he's weird right now. He has all benchmark classes and his PE period is my English period.
Suho definitely acts weird.
He whispers to me: "Hey sit back in your seat please! I'm scared of Jugyeong!"
"You owe me." I told him.
"I'll get you a 2 liter of Diet Joke."
"Fine."
I go back to sitting with Jugyeong. She looked hurt that Suho didn't wanna sit with her for like half a second then she smiled when I came to sit with her. That's weird, she was acting weird earlier.
"Hi." I tell her.
"Hi." she replies.
"Dang, I'm nervous as hell! Should I do it or not? I'll wait a bit." Jugyeong said to herself.
She's probably disgusted at me or something. She probably only smiled because I'm her best friend and she knows that she won't be able to sit with anyone else since all the girls hate her and she's afraid of the other guys besides us.
We all eat in silence.
"You know what? Screw it! I'm gonna do it!" Jugyeong said to herself.
She randomly breaks the ice by laying her head on my shoulder. I'm dumbfounded by that since she's only ever done that twice in my entire life.
"You okay? You only do this when you're scared." I ask her, genuinely concerned. I mean, she's my friend! I may be miserable because I love her, but I can't not care y'know?
"You're acting weird." she says.
"You too." I reply.
"Let's just stay like this for a bit."
"Alright."
Meanwhile Suho texts Dowoon...
"I thought she meant me! She likes Hyun?" He sent.
"How did you get to that conclusion?" Dowoon replies to Suho.
"Did you see that twinkle in her eye? This is some Beauty and the Bigfoot type stuff man."
"You noticed it too? I noticed it yesterday. But I've had a gut feeling about it since middle school."
"Hyun wasn't fat, just big at that time right?"
"Yeah, girls liked him at one point in time."
"That's weird, I only know fat Hyun, you knew normal Hyun."
"Yeah but look at them. Neither of them know that the other likes them."
"Should we tell them?"
"Nah it would be cute to see them figure it out themselves."
"I thought you liked Jugyeong, why you shipping them already?"
"She's already far too off the deep end. There are other girls I like, so it doesn't matter."
"I'm just relieved that crazy girl doesn't like me."
"Must be hard to be an aromantic model."
"How did you know?"
"Dude, you only stare at girls, I've never seen your heart flutter. I've only seen you look at hotties and smile creepily."
"Bro you're the antigen of all denseness."
"Why do you think my favorite monitor brand is Hydrogen?"
"That makes a lot of sense now that I think about it."
"Yeah."
Back to Hyun next chapter...