"Mama's a little afraid to talk about this, but maybe it's the right time. Feli has a little abnormality that's not in you even though you're twins..."
Fera was still silent, hearing the story of the Mother with curiosity. Still, a little afraid, her forehead began to wrinkle, cold sweat began to feel from the tip of the foot, plus the cloudy atmosphere became cold and added to the worry that became more and more so, Fera was afraid that something was terrible for her twin sister.
"When Feli was born, she detected something in her breath when examined. There was a small sound like asthma when she was breathing if listened to using a stethoscope, she had a leaky heart, it was small, but it affected her stamina and immune system," Mama explained resignedly but seriously.
"Wh-what, Ma? You're kidding, right?"
Fera was shocked, her eyes wide open, her legs and hands instantly cold, plus the sound of heavy rainwater outside the house to support the atmosphere to be wrong.
Mama was silent.
"Mama's kidding me? As far as I know, Feli is healthy, yes occasionally, she likes to get tired easily or faint at school during ceremonies, but it's natural, right?!"
"Yes, it is. that's the effect of the disorder earlier, feli's eating is always tired quickly, quickly sick, can be called her immune system is weak."
It didn't feel like Fera's tears were flowing. It was like hearing a colossal lightning bolt and her limp body hearing this.
"So what we have to do, Ma? This is the worst nightmare ever,."
Feli said through tears.
"Relax a little. This story is not to scare you. Mama wants to tell the story so that one day Mama or Papa has been called by God, and you can keep her according to her condition and he with you. You love each other. Hopefully, nothing happens, Fera. She has to continue to apply a healthy lifestyle, reduce stress, and Mama asks for your help."
"Oh my God, I'm looking forward to this again, but I'm ready for my sister no matter what."
The sound of lightning and lightning appeared bigger and louder as if calling for a sad situation experienced by Fera to hear the news about her sister earlier.
"Does anyone's family know Ma? Why not seek treatment, or should also operate as long as Feli is healthy and normal."
"No one's family knows, Dear, who knows only Mama, Papa, and you," Mama replied.
Mama was carried away with a sad atmosphere and immediately hugged Fera tightly. Along with the sound of rain that is quite heavy.
"Mama loves you, you want you to stay together, and there is nothing that separates you other than death. Mama's afraid of losing you, please, while keeping this secret to Feli, Mama doesn't want her down or lacks confidence in what she suffered."
Mom cried and hugged one of her twins.
A few minutes later, Feli came home. Mama immediately rushed out of Fera's room while wiping away the tears on her cheeks using the tissues on the table.
Feli's thing is not a kind of disease, but rather like the genetic inheritance of her parents. There are no severe side effects so far, it may only be a little easy to get tired in activities, but still, Mama is worried about something unexpected happening later.
Because lately she always dreamed of things that were not good about Feli, she decided to tell Fera first to make her calmer; Mama did not even speak about this concern to Papa. He needs to calm down by confiding in Fera and asking her to take care of each other under any circumstances, especially what Feli is going through.
Fera was still silent on her bed, thinking about what Mama was telling me, and she returned to tears. Not long after, Feli entered Fera's room suddenly.
"Fer, I bought Samyang noodles. Let's eat! I'll cook yours. Fera, are you crying? Why?! What's wrong?" asked Feli, shocked to see Fera's eyes.
"What? No. I'm not crying," Fera replied while bowing to wipe away her tears.
"You serious? I'd love it if there's something that you want to tell me."
"One hundred percent sure. So, you want to cook my noodle? please add two chilies on mine, ok?"
"Hmm, ok, wait... "replied Feli with a slightly gloomy face.
Fera feels that her twins know that she is not good. However, she also knew that Feli had a trait that did not interfere with Fera's business.
The sound of boiling boiled water broke Feli's daydream, and she was confused and increasingly strange with Fera's attitude late this time.
On the one hand, he didn't want to ask too many questions, but on the other hand, he was getting curious.
Who and how exactly the nature and another side of Fera's twin did not know all this time.
There were so many questions on Feli's mind about her twin.
"Why the hell was crying?"
"Then why would she lie when I'm 100% sure that something is hidden.."
"Did I make a mistake?"
"What's my fault?"
"Does this all have anything to do with what Papa was talking about yesterday?"
"Andi, it was strange when I last asked about Fera."
That question is what always haunts Feli's head. He couldn't even sleep or work peacefully,
"Aaarghhhhh!" cried Feli inwardly.
She continued to cook noodles for her and her adventures with agitation and a wrinkled forehead.
"Fer, this is the noodles. Let's eat." Feli said as she knocked on Fera's bedroom door.
The two of them also ate in Fera's room with a strange atmosphere, clumsy and accompanied by the sound of endless rain.
This was the first time the two of them didn't joke at one point, strange enough for both of them, but they were confused to start the conversation from where plus the cold of the temperature in the room.
Five minutes later, the food was consumed by both. They went through mealtimes together without any conversation or jokes. The rain this time felt longer than usual.
After eating and washing dirty dishes, Feli continued to enter her room quietly.
"She let me out of the room without a word?! What the hell is this??!! I have to find out!" Feli said, upset.
Meanwhile, Fera was still silent, staring at the rain in the room. Even her favorite noodles didn't taste good. It happens because of all these situations and the burdens of her mind.
She knows that gradually this problem will peak and open up, but she still needs time to find the right moment until Feli knows everything.
Finally, Fera decides to call Andi tonight and ask for help because Andi has always been a listener. But this time, Fera's mind is deadlocked and needs the help of someone she trusts very much.
"Hello Ndi, are you sleeping?"
"Hello Fer, not yet. I reread the book. Here it's still noon hehe, why?"
"Wih very diligent, disturbed no?"
"No, relax."
"How I told you, Mama, was from my room. She kept telling me about Feli. The point is to say that Feli was sick..."
"What do you mean? How sick??" Andi cut off Fera's unfinished speech and was a little shocked.
"Not a disease, but like a mild disorder that can indeed be normal in the future but can be dangerous as well."
"Oh my gosh, keep going?"
"Yes, so I'm confused because Daffa's problem is not finished yet, because of this fact about Feli, I'm confused Ndi" Fera's soft voice with a small sob.
"Relax first, Fer, actually the one solution yes talked with Feli about everything, before it's too late or Feli knows this reality herself from someone else."
"Yes, but I can't afford to tell the same story Ndi, she is now very, very happy with the current situation. Daffa, graduation, all the things anyway, she's enjoying the moment."
"Yes, I know, but from later on? I'm afraid if there something happens, how? It'll be even more devastating if he only gets to know."
Fera and Andi had a little debate on the phone. Even though the time had shown midnight, Fera was not satisfied with Andi's answer even though he knew it was the best way.
In the end, Fera was tired. She will follow his best friend's advice. Likely tomorrow morning, she will talk one-on-one with Feli.
The next day, Fera woke up from her sleep. She hadn't budged out of her bed. She was staring at the sky of his pink room.
"God, I'm not ready to do this, but I have to be ready because it's for the good of both of us," Fera said.