I was super nervous when Lisa stated we needed to talk. We had never went this long before with her being mad at me and I kind of knew that there had to be something else going on. It looks like she is finally ready to talk to me about it. I take a seat on the couch and just wait for her to start. At this point I don't have anything to say because I know this is a her issue and not an us issue or she would have already come to me.
Lisa looks like she is about to cry so it makes me even more on edge and I just stare at my hands because looking at her is no longer an option. I feel like she is going to break up with me, but for the life of me I can't figure why. It can not just be over Maria, who I don't even talk to anymore by the way, there has to be something else.
Lisa: Shae I need you to look at me...
I look up and her face still shows that whatever she wants to talk about I'm definitely not ready to hear. I give her my full attention and I look past her face instead of directly at it because if she's going to break my heart, I prefer not to stare at her while it happens. I love yous have been said multiple time since about our year and a half mark so this will definitely hurt if she says we should no longer be an us.
Lisa: I've had a choice to make since about 2 days after we had our fight. I've been trying to decide what I want, what I need, and what would be best for me.