I CAN'T TEAR MY EYES AWAY FROM THE WALL CLOCK AS I NERVIOUSLY COUNT THE TIME QUICKLY PASSING BY.
Will he make it? Will he come see me?
I just want to make things clear between us. I want to believe he loves me. I believe he does. But why? What is he scared of?
'What am I scared of?'
It's almost 30 minutes since the call. I glanced at Eisuke only to find him already staring and the bastard dared to smirk at me.
"What are you going to do, Youjin? Seems like Keita won't make it…" Eisuke started climbing on the bed where I'm lying. He's staring at me with this intent I don't want to acknowledge. "…Or is he even planning to go in the first place?"
And just like that he's already hovering on top of me, his face only few inches from mine. I could feel his warm breath against my lips. I just stared at Eisuke as if daring him to do what he threatened he'll do. As if.
"Don't you dare forget who's always been by your side every time some bastard hurt you…" He whispered in my ear before his face fell on the crook of my neck. I could feel the rising and falling of his chest against mine. I lifted my arms to hug this big baby's body.
"I know Eisuke… That's why you're my best friend, right?" I started ruffling his hair, which he likes so much. He shuffles his body and made himself comfortable while lying on top of me.
"Oh? But you're leaving me for Keita…" I barely hear his mumbling but I can still understand him somehow. I let go of a breathy laugh. He raised his head to look at me. "What's so funny?"
"No one can replace you Eisuke…"
Suddenly we heard the gate slammed.
"Oh your knight-in-shining armour is here…" Eisuke said nonchalantly not moving an inch from his position. He buried his face again at the crook of my neck.
"Eisuke? What the fvck are you two doing?!"
'Ahh… Keita's here.'
His shoulders were heaving as he panted. His shirt almost drenched from his sweat as if he ran all the way here.
Suddenly, I felt something soft and wet touched my neck. It traces a short distance but it's enough for me to know that it was Eisuke's tongue. I jerked up from surprise.
"Eisuke?!"
Eisuke who can't contain his laughter sat beside me. I touched the part of my neck he just licked. Keita looked furious and confused at the same time.
"What were you trying to do to Youjin?!" He pulled me away from Eisuke and enclosed me in one of his arms as if trying to shield me away from danger.
"You're late, Keita. I told you, if you don't arrive on time I will be the one to do what you can't do."
"What do you mean I can't do?" His gaze switched between me and Eisuke.
"E-Eisuke that's enough…"
"Huh! You can't even have sex with your boyfriend here."
Keita's eyes were now fixed on me. "Who said I can't do that?"
"Okay. Okay… Just prove it to your boyfriend because he's been worrying about it."
"Eisuke, just stop it." I could feel my face getting warm.
"I can do it! What kind of asshole would not want to sleep with the person they love?!"
"Yeah.. yeah" Eisuke dully said trying to humor Keita, "Do that but not here in my room."
Eisuke stood up, pushing both Keita and I towards the door. The second we were outside, he immediately closed the door between us.
"Eisuke?!!!"
"You can spend the night here some other time. I'll let you guys go now since I'm such a 'great' friend." He said from the other side of the door. "Ah. Keita-kun, sorry I wasn't able to hold back earlier. By-the-way, enjoy the night!"
"Huh?!" Keita and I said in chorus.
***
AS SOON AS KEITA AND I ENTERED HIS ROOM, HE QUICKLY SHUT THE DOOR CLOSE. The last thing I heard before an overwhelming silence blanketed the room was a click from the knob lock. I stood silent waiting for him to speak, or do anything.
Why did he bring me here?
Is he thinking that Eisuke and I will do something if he didn't arrived on time?
Or… will he really do it with me now?
I took a quick glance at Keita. He didn't even move a single step from where he first stood. He's not in his best mood so I don't think this is the right time to do anything. More so, talk about the issue.
I heaved a sigh of defeat before taking a couple of steps towards Keita, "I will go home for now. You should calm yourself first."
Suddenly, my body was pulled by a strong grasp. Then I found Keita pinning me against the door, the distance between our bodies were only inches apart.
"What Eisuke said is not true…" He said under his breath.
"What Eisuke said?"
"…that I can't have sex with you." His voice was trembling, "Of course I want to do it…."
"Is that so?" I reached to caress his crotch. I was not surprised when he instantly flinched from my touch. But when the realization hit him, he remained standing in front of me, tensed as if he's trying to endure something.
'You said Eisuke was wrong?' That thought alone was enough reason for me to storm out of this room. Out of this mess. Maybe save myself from yet another heartbreak.
My lips formed a bitter smile for Keita, but it was more for myself. I was ready to say goodbye but when I glanced up to look at his face, his eyes, already filled with conflicting desire and restraint, met mine.
I'm not sure which of the two overpowers the other for him but I know, for sure, my desire for Keita was already taking over my reasoning.
I caressed the bulge between his legs. My rubbing went quicker as every second passes and I could feel underneath the layered fabric his emerging erection.
He obediently followed me as I led him to his bed then I made him sit on the side. My eyes lingered on his face studying every expression he tries to make. He doesn't looked like he's forced or faking it instead it seemed like he's starting to succumb to the lust. But it's not enough. I know I can pleasure him more.
I got down on my knees which made Keita's eyes widened. He grasped what I am about to do so he spread his legs to give me access, to let me do whatever I wanted to do. I reached on the waistband of his jogging pants then pulled it down along with his boxers revealing his half-erect penis.
An overwhelming feelings of lust, desire and my love for him washed over my body. I've always been the one being touched by Keita and this is the first time I am actually touching him.
My fingers curled around his erection then slowly moved up from the base to the tip and then down to the base again. Slowly… Gently… Repeating my action. His now hard thing pulsating right in front of my face, can hardly wait to feel even more pleasure.
First drop of pre-cum was glistening at the top of his dick. I brush my thumb lightly over it while playfully circling on the hole where it came from.
"Youjin…" He said beneath his breath.
I glanced up at him. I found frustration plastered on his face.
"Stop… Uh…"
"Stop?"
"Stop teasing me."
I can't help but let go of a soft chuckle. "Excited aren't we?"
He looked at me with eyes filled with frustration and a hint of threat. I can't help but let go of a chuckle.
I lowered my head to his crotch until my lips touched the tip of his penis. I planted a small kiss on it before I darted my tongue out to get my first taste of him. I savor that sensation with a salty tang. And as my tongue swirls all over his 'head', my hands continue to work on his length and balls.
Hearing Keita's moaning, I glanced up to take a look at his expression. He's staring at me intensely with eyes filled with growing lasciviousness he had no bit of intension on hiding as if we're both playing who's hornier and who has the most desire with the other.
Originally, I wanted to tease him, make him more and more frustrated and to not give in too early. But as I slowly succumb to the lust that's taking over my body, I just wanted to devour him whole. And his taunting expression didn't helped much with my idea either. My desire to touch him and kiss him in every corner of his body overflowed in me, like a flooded dam.
In that very second, I formed my mouth into an 'O' then slowly make my way to his dick without breaking eye contact with Keita. I could feel his hotness from inside, along with his throbbing. My heart was pounding like crazy, I could feel it ripping my chest. His huge thing was filling my mouth even from halfway through. I tightened my mouth and readied my tongue to the next action.
My mouth, at first, gently worked its way down to his shaft, trying my hardest to suck as I feel the head of Keita's dick kissing my throat. Then I moved my mouth up until I almost reach the tip, maintaining the suction. I worked my mouth back and forth off of him, with every second, the sucking and movement become faster and hungrier.
Keita's moans echoed through the room while saying my name in between. It made me more turned on than I already had.
Both of Keita's hands were now on my head, impatiently pushing me to his full length, every time the tip of his head hitting the back of my throat. I had to remind myself to breathe and not to choke. He thrusted into my mouth a few times more and when it seems like he's about to reach his peak, he pulled his dick out from my mouth and at the very instant, hot cum squirted out his manhood landing some onto my face.
He pulled me up from my kneeling and made me sat on his thighs facing him, my legs almost wrapped around him. My dick, fully erected underneath my thin jersey shorts eagerly waiting to be freed, grazed against Keita's still hard dick which made me moan underneath my breath. I've been impatiently anticipating for this more than I realized. I was lost in thought that I didn't realize he already released my dick from the fleecy confinement it's into.
Both of our parts were touching as Keita's hand wrapped around it, jerking us both for dear life. I can't help but move my hips along while clinging onto Keita as the pleasure takes over my whole body. I can't think straight anymore. My whole being craves for him.
"Youjin…" He moaned.
I held his head with both of my hands as I brought my face closer to his. He was staring at me with desperation mixed with pleading as if saying 'Kiss me now'. And I did as he wanted.
There was no time to be gentle, we were both hungry and craving for each other. Our mouths nibbled each other's lips the very second they touched, with our tongues wrapping with each other in between. We can't help but let go of a moan every now and then.
We were kissing and grinding against each other until we both cum. The sensation was too good I just lost all strength in my body and leaned on Keita. Our chests were pounding heavily against each other.
"Youjin…" Keita whispered in my ear, his voice warm and gentle. He straightened up my body and lifted my shirt off then he took his own shirt off. I can't help but ran my hand across his now exposed chest. It is soft yet firm against my palm. His face down to his neck was beet red, I suddenly remember the times we were doing such indecent things before it lead to this. I used to ask myself who he thinks about but now I know and I am sure that I am the one he's thinking of, I am the one bringing him pleasure.
I brought my face at the nook of his neck, running my tongue against its skin and then stopping at every inch to suck on it so hard it'll leave a mark. I felt his hand running up and down my back as he felt the pleasure my mouth was sending him once again. I felt his thing poke against mine again. The way he calls out my name over and over was like music to my ears, it makes me want to pleasure him more but to my dismay he pushed me a bit, a clear sign that he wanted me to stop.
"Stop it…"
I looked at him confused and disappointed at the same time. "Why?"
Then he pushed me in one swift motion I just found myself lying on his bed with him hovering on top of me. His expression became a bit dark as he kept staring at me.
"Can I ask you something, Youjin?"
"Ah? What is it Keita?"
"Why? Why are you so good at this?"
"Ha?!" I think I know what he's getting at but I don't want to ruin the mood.
Then he suddenly pulled my shorts off which leaves me completely naked underneath him.
"Is it Eisuke? You've done something like this with him before?" His expression became so grim it's overflowing with jealousy. That was the moment I know we have to clear things up between us before going further.
I brought my hands up, cupping his cheeks. Then in my gentlest voice I speak with him. "You have nothing to worry about my relationship with Eisuke. We've been just friends from the start."
"Why was he acting like that to you?"
"That's just how Eisuke is. We've been friends since then and he's always been on my side protecting me. As a friend, he doesn't want me to be sad or hurt. He was actually testing you and at the same time he's having fun teasing you." I can't help but let go of a soft chuckle. "And it's your fault why Eisuke did what he did earlier. I was so anxious that maybe you're starting to regret choosing me."
"Sorry, Youjin. The truth is…" His face suddenly became redder as he averted my eyes.
"What is it…" I swallowed a lump in my throat.
"This is my first relationship with a guy and I have no idea how sex between both guys goes. That's why, I've been restraining myself. If you touch me I know, I won't be able to hold back. I'm scared that you might not like it and I'll end up hurting you. I'm afraid that it'll be pleasurable for me but not for you. That's why I asked Misao for advice..."
My nervousness gradually stopped. I could clearly see the embarrassment on Keita's face as he tried his best to explain. I wanted to laugh but I stopped myself thinking this is my chance to take my revenge. For making me worry.
"Misao?" He nodded. "What did he said?"
"He said… that I should just ask you. Or let you take the lead. I got a bit pissed with what he said that time so… I just stopped asking him."
Yeah. Now that he's recalling that time, his expression does looked pissed. I covered my face with my hands as I laughed so hard it brought me to tears. "You should've followed Misao's advice. Look carefully, Keita, I'll teach you how it's done…"
I leaned over to grab my bag and pulled out a small tube of lube from the inside. His eyes widened as I open the cap and poured the liquid into my fingers. Then I positioned my body comfortably as Keita sat in front of me then I brought my fingers at my bottom positioning my middle finger at the entrance of my asshole. I let my cold finger enter me gently. I've done this to myself many times before and yet I am feeling this much greater knowing that Keita is watching me. He's watching me intensely and it's turning me the fvck on. My middle finger was now all the way down my hole. I can feel my tightness and warmth from inside at the same time my dick has been twitching from excitement. So with my other hand, I reached for my thing and started jerking myself off, while my other hand was busy preparing my rear for Keita.
I was about to insert another finger when Keita stopped my hand and instead he took it off me. Without saying anything, he pushed two of his fingers inside of me and it made me toss my head back from sudden sensation.
"Keita… let me just—"
His fingers were teasing me from inside. With his every thrust and every pull all the while stretching me up, I can't help but arc my back from pleasure. My hips also started to move along with his fingers.
"Keita… put it in me now." I muttered underneath my breath.
"Are you sure?"
I nodded impatiently. "Yeah. Please…"
To my surprise, he suddenly pulled out a condom from under his pillow and tore the wrapper open. He was about to put it on him when he suddenly glanced my way.
"Why? You don't like using one?" He asked confused.
"No. I was just surprised…"
He just replied with a smirk as he positioned himself to enter me then I felt the tip of his thing touched my asshole. He was very careful, as if scared he'll break me, as he gently pushed himself into me. But this ponderous movement was just adding to the giddy pleasure I'm feeling. I can feel him slowly and cautiously filling me in – inch by inch. The thought of Keita's thing hitting the back of my mouth while I was sucking him off earlier came into me as I anticipated him reaching deeper inside of me.
"Youjin, are you okay? Does it hurt?" He said reaching for the side of my eye wiping a single tear that I didn't even noticed. His length was already all the way inside me, it's filling me up so much.
The pain was bearable but the euphoria of being one with him was overwhelming. My heart was about to burst from this foreign feeling of intense happiness.
I shook my head. "I'm fine. L-Let me get used to you for a minute…"
"Okay." Keita leaned down planting soft kisses all over my face – from my forehead, my eyes, my cheeks, and then to my lips. We savoured each other's mouth once again but this time gentler. Every time he adjusted himself on top of me, I could feel his thing hitting weird places inside me. I can't help but gasp from the sudden pleasure. His kisses traced down to my neck, biting on my skin and then sucking it so hard it'll obviously leave a mark. But it doesn't matter, I am his anyways.
"Keita… Please… move no—" I wasn't even done from what I was about to say when he started to pull and then shoved his thing aggressively as if he's been waiting for this moment his whole life. He's pounding into me quite intensely I'm losing my mind. The room was filled with sounds from our love making—the lewd noises the parts of our bodies made mixed with our moans and panting. Our parching body heat overpowered the once chilly room. Keita and I were both drenched in sweat.
His thrusting was going faster, rougher at the same time deeper. My body's going numb and yet I can feel my insides tingling with all sorts of sensation.
I fixed my gaze into Keita's face expecting that it shows what Keita's feeling. Hoping he's feeling good just as much as I do. And I wasn't disappointed. "Keita, kiss me…"
His lips crashed into mine in a split second. My body can no longer focus on a single sensation as he devours my mouth and thrusts into me at one and the same time. I could feel my body reaching its peak and I could see in Keita's face that he's about to cum soon too.
"Youjin… I'm about… to come…" He muttered in between his panting.
"Me too… Keita. Ah…"
Keita never slowed down, as if shaking a bottle of coke, the build-up in my penis was about to burst. And then my whole body just shuddered, my back arc and my eyes shut close as I felt intense pleasure washed over me. The feeling was too extreme and uncontrollable as if I just explode into a world of pure ecstasy and pleasure.
At the same time, I could feel Keita's thing spasms as he let out hot cum inside me. His body stiffened over me. After that pleasurable climax, he let his body fall on top of me – his face on the nook of my neck, our chest pumping up and down from breathing heavily.
We remained in that position for god knows how long, still sucked into the overwhelming pleasure we just experienced.
I ran my hands over Keita's back, feeling his body, trying to convince myself that this is real, he is here. Then I wrapped him into my arms, planting soft kisses on his head.
I'm so happy I could die.
"I love you, Keita…"
We did it again for a few more times in different positions until I could no longer remember what happened later that night. I felt like I just flipped a switch on Keita for him to lose all control of his reasoning. It seemed as though he's a beast who can't be satisfied.