Seeing the person i love the most willing to kill for me makes my heart melt and flutter.
I can still see when kailey kicked the man a few more times., she seemed to be very angry.
I could have breathed a sigh of relief but I stiffened when a speeding black SUV suddenly stopped in front of Kailey and three armed men pointed a gun and quickly picked up the man lying on the road while kailey on the other hand ay tila hindi na nakagalaw sa kanyang kinatatayuan dahil sa gulat.
She was standing still, she seemed to be stiffened because of the sudden appearance of those armed mens and pointing their gun's directly at her.
Literal na tumigil pansumandali sa pagtibok ang puso ko, fear consumes all over me,. i was scared that they might hurt Kailey and when that happens, I surely can't forgive myself.
Tila nakahinga lamang ako ng maluwag nang maisakay na ang kalaki ay tuloyan nang humarurot palayo ang sasakyan, hindi nakaligtas sa paningin ko ang pagkuyom niya ng kanyang mga kamao nang mag angat siya ng tingin sa kinatatayuan ko, mukhang may sinabi siya ngunit dahil sa may kalayuan ang distansya namin sa isat isa ay hindi ko na nagawang marinig ang mga iyon.
Sumenyas siyang bumaba ako at buksan ang gate and so i did, i ran fast downstairs to open the gate and let her in.,nang makapasok siya at makita ang hilam kong mga mata at panginginig ng mga kamay ko ay mabilis pa sa alas kwatro niya akong niyakap, she hugged me too tight its as if she was trying to calm my shits down.
I won't deny that the warm that was coming from her body makes my heart gets back to its normal breathing, her wamrth makes me feel safe and secured..
There was no doubt how much i love this woman caging me at the moment, i felt like we were breathing in the same air, i could feel how much she loves me, how much she cares for me dahilan upang muling mamasa ang aking mga mata dahil sa kapanatagan at sayang aking nararamdaman sa kasalukuyan.
She was caressing my back softly while kissing the top of my head gently.,napapikit ako at lalong dinama ang init ng kanyang yakap, I wish we could just stay like this holding each other while feeling the warmth of each other's hugs.
"I'm sorry for leaving, i should have known that this would happen" she whispered.
I shook my head and hugged her even tighter.,god i missed her., i opened my mouth to speak but there was no words that wants to come out so i just close it again and buried my face even more closer to her., i could smell her scent i was addicted to and god she still smells so good..
Huminga ako ng malalim, tinuyo ko ang basa kong mukha at dahan dahan nang kumalas sa mahigpit niyang yakap,,
"Thanks to ate Naiana, she called me to come and check the two of you" she said,umangat ang isang braso niya at hinapit ako sa bewang dahilan upang muling magdikit ang aming katawan.,nahigit ko ang hininga ko sa biglaan niyang kilos but i still manages to hid it from her.
"S-She did?" i asked
Tumango tango siya at saka ako muling niyakap ng mahigpit,she even kiss my temple that cause me to shiver, my heart beats quickened and the butterflies in my stomach suddenly flies altogether in my insides.,hindi kaagad ako nakapagreact dahil sa biglaan niyang pagkulong sa akin sa kanyang mga bisig once again.
" you had no idea how much i was scared earlier, i can really kill when something bad happens to the woman i love the most " her voice trembled as she spoke those words to me,i could feel her voice full of fear that makes my heart flutter and stunned.?what did she just say? the woman she ever love the most? tama ba ang dinig ko?
I slowly lifted my head to see her face but i was stiffened nang salubongin ako ng mga nangungusap niyang mga mata, she was staring at me intently it's as if she seemed so scared of losing me on her sight.,i bit my lower when i suddenly felt my cheeks heated nang mapadako sa mapupula niyang labi ang aking mga mata., napalunok ako at sinubukang iiwas ang tingin but she just held my chin up focusing to her.
Bumayo sa pagtibok ang puso ko nang dahan dahan niyang ibinababa ang mukha niya sa akin, ohhh god is she going to kiss me? heto na ba iyon? pipikit naba ako? damn.. Wala sa sariling napalunok ako nang unti unti niya nang isinasara ang kanyang mga mata until i finally felt the softness of her lips against mine, nakadikit lamang iyon na tila dinadama pa ang lambot ng aking labi until her lips began moving that gives a tingling sensation all over me.
Hindi ko magawang ipikit ang mga mata ko at sagutin ang bawat hagod at galaw ng malalambot niyang labi, nanatiling dilat ang mga nanlalaki kong mga mata, i still can't believe that i am already tasting her sweet and soft lips at the moment., pakiramdam ko nakalutang ako sa alapaap kung kayat tila nabato na ako sa aking kinatatayuan at hinahayaan siyang angkinin ang mga labi kong kaytagal naghintay at umasam ng kaykatagal na panahon.
Marahas kong naitulak si Kailey at tila nabuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig nang makarinig ako ng tikhim mula sa bungad ng pintuan..,nakangising mukha ni ate Naiana ang sumalubong sa akin.,my face heated na tila nangamatis na sa tindi ng pula ng aking mukha, that so damn embarrassing,,my sister caught me kissing with my best friend.. what the fuck.!
"You seemed fine now, but we will be staying here tonight okey? mag uusap tayo bukas" sabi niya nang nakangisi at saka diretso na silang umakyat ng pamangkin ko sa taas kung saan ang guest room but before that i caught her wink at kailey before she turned her back at us.
Pakiramdam ko pulang pula ang mukha ko lalo na when i heard kailey's chuckling beside me..she reaches for my hand and gently caresses it.,nag angat ako ng tingin.
I heaved a heavy sigh.
I wanted to ask her why did she kissed me ngunit masiyadong kumakalabog ang dibdib ko at tila hindi pa kumakalma sa ginawa niyang paghalik sa akin kanina..,but god i loved it, her lips was so sweet. damn!
Bakit nga ba niya ako hinalikan? pinapaasa niya ba ako sa isang bagay na matagal ko nang pinapangarap na maabot?what the hell..she's confusing the hell out of me.
Did she already know about my feelings for her?
"can i sleep over here too?" her voice takes me back to reality, she was staring at me as she was holding hand na kanina pa pala niya hawak., bumuntong hininga ako at saka marahang tumango. "with you..... in your room?" dagdag niya pa.
What the...nasanay naman na akong nakakatabi siya sa pagtulog but why i felt awkward now? pakiramdam ko lalong uminit ang pisngi ko at aminado akong panandaliang nawala sa isip ko ang nangyari kanina, kinakain na ang sistema ko ng kilig at saya kasama ang babaeng muling bumubuhay sa mga paruparo sa sikmura ko.
Tumikhim siya nang wala siyang mahintay na sagot mula sa akin, nang muli kung ibalik ang aking mga mata sa kaniya ay ang kunot niya nang noo ang nabungaran ko.
I sighed.
"is it because of what i did earlier? that i kissed you?" kapagdakay tanong niya, lumamlam ang mga mata niyang tumitig sa akin, mababakas ang sakit at takot sa kanyang mga mata.,bumuntong hininga siya at saka niya dahan dahang binitawan ang kamay ko..,she slid her hands inside her pockets..,nakasuot na pala ng usual pajama niya na ginagamit niya pantulog at black sando na medyo may kaluwagan but nevertheless she still look sexy in my eyes.. what? where was that came from?
Bumuka ang bibig ko upang sana ay magsalita at sagutin ang tanong niya nang siya namang talikod niya sa akin na ikinakunot ng noo ko.
I grabbed her wrist, she turned to me stunned, I just smiled at her and then pulled her up the stairs to my room where my iana was peacefully sleeping.
Halos magsalubong ang kilay niya ngunit ang mga mata niya ay nagniningning na tila masayang masaya siya sa ginawa kong pagpayag na patulogin siya sa kwarto kasama kami ng anak ko.
"I'm not sorry for the kiss Shan" kalaunay basag miya sa katahimikan.,we were already lying in my bed, facing the ceiling quietly na tila pinapakiramdaman ang isat isa at naghihintay kung sino ang babasag sa katamihikan sa pagitan naming dalawa.
I sighed.
"w-why did you kissed me?" i asked,on my peripheral vision i saw her turned to me, she was staring at me.
"I-I don't know.!?" alanganin niyang sagot..
So that's it, sabi ko na nga ba hindi dapat ako umasa..
Bakit kailangan niya pang gawin iyon, sa ginagawa niya lalo lang niya akong binabaon sa pagmamahal sa kaniya.,she's making me fall deeper without her even knowing it.
Loving my best friend is not that easy, there are many things to think about, many things to consider and just one wrong move of mine can ruin our friendship as we have nurtured and deepened over the years and I am afraid that one day we will lose our friendship, maybe in just one wrong move from me i would lose her forever and I can't handle that, i just can't.
I took a deep breath and slowly turned my back at her, humarap ako kay iana at pasimpleng pinunasan ang luhang namalisbis sa aking pisngi..,god i want to confess and tell her how i really feel but i am afraid, natatakot akong mareject at masira ang pagkakaibigan namin..lintik na.
Nagsunod sunod ang bagsakan ng mga luha ko at hindi ko na namalayang humihikbi na pala ako,,naninikip ang dibdib ko.,marahan kong ibinaba ang kumot na nakatabing sa katawan ko at dahil ako ang nasa gitna ay madali lamang para kay kailey na pigilan ako sa pagtatangka kong pagbangon.,she grabbed my arm and held it tightly, she got up and then sat on the bed, she leaned on the headboard of the bed while her eyes focused on mine.
"are you mad that i kissed you?" kapagdakay tanong niya.,
Nakayuko ako ngunit ang mga luha ko ay nag uunahan parin sa pagtulo mula sa aking mga mata, pesteng mga luha bakit ba kung makabuhos akala mo wala ng bukas.. kainis.!
Umiling ako., nag angat ng tingin.
Kinuha niya ang kamay kong nakahawak parin sa comforter na nakabalot parin sa kalahati ng katawan ko,dinala niya iyon sa ibabaw ng kanyang mga bibig.., she planted a soft kiss at the back of my palm,tinitigan ko siya ng mariin gamit ang mga nagtatanong mga mata.
She smiled weakly.
"i-i love you Shanaia, matagal na at nahihirapan na akong kontrolin ito k-."
"W-what? am i dreaming?" i cut her off.
Lumulundag ang puso ko sa saya,ang mga paruparu sa tiyan ko nagsusimula na namang magising at magliparan sa loob ng tiyan ko.,she loves me too.,the woman i love the most loves me too..
Ganito pala ang pakiramdam, tila ako dinuduyan sa alapaap dahil sa labis na saya,ganito pala ang pakiram marinig sa wakas ang mga salitang kaytagal kong pinangarap na marinig mula sa matalik kong kaibigan.,ang sarap sa pandinig.
She lifted her hands and gently cupped my face.
"m-mahal kita higit pa sa kaibigan shan,you are my home shan, you had no idea how much i love you, i was lost when u left me. ...baby" pumiyok pa siya sa huling salitang binanggit niya, now she's crying infront of me after confessing her feelings for me..and i must admit that my happiness at the moment were overflowing..
I finally heard the magic words that i have been dreaming to hear it from her and now i don't know how to express how happy i am at the moment pakiramdam ko umaapaw at labis labis ang sayang nararamdaman ko.
Sinakop ko ang distansya naming dalawa at mahigoit siyang niyakap, i hugged her tightly.
"god how i wish i am not dreaming,,i love you too kailey....i have loved you for a long time" i said sobbing..,kung panaginip man ito ay ayaw ko nang magising pa, kung panaginip man ito sana habang buhay na lamang akong tulog.
Mahina siyang nagmura, hinalikan niya ang tuktok ng ulo ko habang ang mga kamay niya ay nakawak na ngayong muli sa mga pisngi ko and the last thing i knew we are already kissing passionately while our tears never stopped dripping down our cheeks..tasting and savoring the moment with each others arms.