I have been racing restlessly making sure to dodge a vengeance Remus, a cunning Niamh and a tactical Terelisa. As for Lorcan, he is far behind. His steps are further away from the rest of the others even though I know out of all the people, he is the biggest challenge I have.
Is he letting me off that easy or is he just a coward? I don't like being favored and he knows that. It is in between my thoughts that I am knocked off by the other dark wolf that tackles me from the side abruptly sending me off balance to the ground with a small growl.
Freaking hell.
"Gotcha." Haakon smirks before he takes the flag that just dropped out of my mouth. Sly move. I wonder how long it has taken him to come up with that plan. I watch him run away earning the attention of the other opponents. Why am I not running after him? I know I can easily catch up with him however fast her runs.
Suddenly Lorcan hovers over me carefully.
"Are you alright?" he mind links.
"I am." I get back to my four legs avoiding him. Even if I am not, I will be in a little while. Tissue regeneration is one perk of being a werewolf. He catches up to me in a second.
"I am sorry..."
"I don't care." I cut him off.
"You let me win." I accuse this time facing to look at him. His fiery eyes meet mine once again and I feel a little tension leave my body.
"I didn't. You were always the faster runner remember?" he replies.
"Don't give me the bullshit Lorcan. I know what I saw. How long have you been letting me win?" I bark.
"I haven't..."
That is all it takes before I tackle his larger form to the ground. I don't care at this moment if he is stronger or larger than me, I am an angry wolf.
"You fucking idiot. You have been lying to me for how many years?" I paw at him heading direct for his head. I won't mind getting a scratch at his pretty face even if it lasts for a minute.
"I hate you." I claw at his stomach and fight to get a bite on his neck.
"Aylin stop." Lorcan orders. I am oblivious to his threats now. I continue clawing at him before I am tagged down to restraint with his limbs. Freaking son of a bitch.
"I said stop, okay." he growls his eyes a darker shade of the usual amber colour. I find it hard to turn my gaze away from his. His eyes have that effect that I don't want to stop looking at them.
"You won, period. Not contented with it, let's race it." Lorcan suggests.
Feeling the closeness getting to me, I wiggle out of his hold to my feet with an angry growl and glare in my eyes.
"Alright." I race away before I even give him time to prepare himself.
"Cheat." he complains. I smirk his way running as faster as I can to the direction of the river.
I stop at the bank staring at the running water. Lorcan catches up to me in a minute.
"Contented? You won." he mind links me as he walks beside me.
I don't know if I still believe this because what I saw was different.
For a while we stare in silence before I realise his gaze on me.
"I have missed you." he mutters. I turn my gaze away from him not sure if I want to answer that.
"How is the training going?" I change the topic.
The last I left the pack, he was trying a couple of first time shifters.
"Great. You should see Sammy now, he has really evolved so much." he replies. Sammy is my cousin and the closest person in my family I had apart from Remus.
"That's great." I glance at him. I run at the opposite side of the bank with Lorcan beside me. I shouldn't allow this much contact with him. It is not going to help my heart especially if I am going to be married to someone else in seven days. I stop by the river before I turn to stare at him.
Lorcan stares back his eyes softening. He walks slowly closer to me his larger form hovering over mine before he leans his head to my neck. Resist him.
Even when my brain tells me how wrong this closeness is, I have been longing for it. I have missed him so much that it hurts. We stand there quietly enjoying the closeness as long as possible. Even without words, we both know what all this means. We can always know what the other is thinking.
"Don't marry him."
Lorcan mind links. I step away from him turning my head to the river. I wish his request was that easy.
"We could come up with a way of joining the two clans without the marriage." he coaxes.
I don't reply. I just stand stoically my gaze never leaving the running water. Even if it kills me to marry Haakon, I can't be so selfish. This is one thing my parents want from. I know it is my chance to show them that I can be of use despite Remus.
"Ay..."
"Stop Lorcan." I interrupt.
"This between us is wrong. I am getting married in a week. It is time for us to move on from our childishness." I continue. His ridiculous stare is bewildering. I know it is unfair but what can I do?
"We shouldn't see each other again and for real this time. Haakon is not a good man and we both know what will happen if he finds out. You might lose your position as the Beta."
"I don't care about being a Beta Aylin." Lorcan argues.
"I care. I know how much you worked for your position." I interject. And it is the truth, he worked so hard to earn his position. His smile when he was announced Beta was so wide. Everyone could tell that he felt honored and happy. I can't let him lose it for selfish matters.
"You will meet another woman. You will fell in love again..."
"The only woman I want is you." he growls.
His declaration makes my heart throb. I was convinced he was the one for me for so long. Now I don't think that is true at all.
"We are never work, can't you see it?" I retort.
"Look at us. We have to sneak around to be together. Aren't you tired of this because I am." I reason.
"Then we don't have to sneak around anymore. I will tell Rem.."
"No!" I growl with a glare.
"Isn't that..."
"No! We are done Lorcan. You should accept that. We will never be meant for each other."
I run away after that. Those words hurt but still hold a truth to them. If my brother finds about our relationship, he is going to be devastated. He will resent him and strip him of the Beta title. I don't want to get started on my parents or Haakon. We are doomed for disaster either way. I won't bare seeing that. I can't let the happen.
"I don't believe that."
Lorcan mind links me as I race away. I don't think I believe that too.