Since the last time Aylin and I spoke, a lot has been going through my mind. I can't accept the fact that she can never be mine. The thought kills me inside. I don't see myself liking any other girl other than her. It is just so cruel that we have to get separated now.
"Lorcan,"
I turn around to find the brunette of the other night with Remus and Meline.
"Mysie, hey." I murmur forcing a smile to my lips. I swear this is not the right time. I hope she gets the hint.
"Where have you been man? You missed this grand tour of the Tombs with Haakon." Remus asks.
"I was just in my chambers resting." I lie.
"I came by but I didn't see you." he raises a brow at me.
"Anyway how was the tour?" I change the topic suddenly. I wasn't in my chambers and most of all I wasn't resting. Remus catches on something he doesn't press on. He understands me most times and I am thankful for that.
"Great. The place is a work of art." he answers enthusiastically.
"Come on Lorcan, I want to show you something." Mysie luckily pulls me away from the two. So I guess I was wrong for thinking she was wise.
"Where are we going?" I ask with a thread of patience.
"Patience. We are almost there." she smiles. I shrug. Spending time alone thinking about Aylin is going to drive me insane. Maybe going out is going to help me.
She leads me by the fireplace where a crowd surrounds. Some are dancing to the music while others are singing. Then some others are just seated watching. I wonder what the occasion is about.
"May I have this dance?" Mysie turns to me with a grin. I hesitantly stare at the crowd and then back to Mysie.
Fuck it.
Mysie and I join in on the group of dancers. It doesn't take a while before I get accustomed to the music and start enjoying it. Mysie seems to be enjoying too guessing by the grin she has on her face. She even looks more beautiful and intriguing. She surrounds her hands around my neck tugging me closer to her. We earn a couple of hoorays. It feels uncomfortable but who am I to complain especially when her fuck me eyes lock with mine.
When my gaze lifts to the other side, I notice a familiar gaze. No. She turns away quickly moving to the other opposite side. When I attempt to run after her, Mysie stops me with a daze. Shit. When did I become such an asshole in my life? Was I going to run after her and leave Mysie here alone with no explanation? That is really a dick move despite my intentions.
"Whee are you running off too suddenly?" she asks curiously.
"It is Remus. I need to tell him something." I lie.
"Okay. Be back in a while." she smiles. I nod before I run off to the direction I saw her move to.
I run inside the house catching on her scent until I reach the closed door. I quickly turn that knob only to come face to face with historical paintings. I notice her watching the painting at the other side of the room.
"She is beautiful, isn't she?" she murmurs her gaze still on the painting in front of her. It is the painting of the Great Tara. She is an ancestral Luna who died for her love for Lord Cassius.
"She is." I murmur. She was the most beautiful woman known in history.
"Why did you follow me here Lorcan. I thought I made myself clear." she turns with a stoic gaze to me.
"Why did you walk away when you saw us?" I ask.
"That question sounds ridiculous you know." Aylin scoffs.
"Does it? Were you jealous?" I raise a brow at her. I don't know what I am trying to prove here but perhaps I will get something from her. She gazes at me like I have lost my goddamn mind before she breaks into a dry laugh.
"Get over yourself Lorcan. You don't make me jealous." she declares. I search her eyes for something before I step forward. She scowls.
I step even closer this time so that I am hovering over her. She has always been shorter and smaller than me. I have always how I am able to tower her without even trying or how it was easy to carry her.
"Let us see if I don't." As soon as I finish my sentence, I lean closer to her face. She raises her most beautiful gray eyes at me.
"Back off Lorcan." she mutters in a hard tone. I even lean in closer so that my lips brush against hers softly. The spark. She feels it too because she jumps back immediately. This time my eyes meet with a menacing glare.
"Stop following me around like a dog Lorcan, it doesn't suit you." Aylin says.
"Maybe I will if you get in your senses and stop denying your feelings for me. We both know it is me you wish was next to you each night." I smirk when I notice her flinch. She glares harder.
"I am not doing this with you. We are done." she declares seriously before she turns to leave. I catch her in time before she flees away.
"Many people believe in Great Tara because despite everyone turning her back against her, she still fought for what she believed in." I push. Aylin doesn't turn around.
"Why is she a villain to me? It doesn't make sense why she even tried. The man he claimed to love betrayed her in the end. She died for nothing because she couldn't see how wrong her choice was." Aylin slowly takes away her hand.
"Do you think I am a wrong choice? What is good is it when you are going to be unhappy?" I question frustrated.
"If this is about approval from your parents, they are just unworthy of your sacrifices if they cannot see how much you have tried." I continue. Maybe that was uncalled for but I can't think of anything to stop her. Surely that was a mistake with the glare on her face.
"That is not for you to decide. Don't meddle in my affairs Lorcan. I don't want you to make an enemy of me." she threatens.
"Are you threatening me now?" I raise a brow at her.
"Take it however you want. I am going to make the right decision."
With that, Aylin walks away. I don't stop her this time. It is all for the best I guess. Nonetheless it hurts so much. With every space between us, I feel the hole in my heart gape even further.
Making deep breaths to calm myself, I walk out of the room. I walk down the hallway only to find Azriel. He is the last person I need to meet now.
"What do you think you are doing?" he stops me blocking my way. I scowl at him.
"You better stay away from her." he warns.
"I didn't take you for a man of threats. What are you going to do if I don't?" I raise a brow at him in challenge.
He stares down at me before he gives me a smoldering look.
"You will. Aylin knows what is best for her." he gazes.
"However if you try to be a problem, I won't hesitate weeding you out." he threatens.
"I am so scared." I mock.
"You should. I can do anything to protect my Alpha. That is what you should focus on other than chasing already taken women." Azriel murmurs before walking away.
I bite the inside of my cheek feeling myself at the brim of anger I might explode. I look back at him watching him leave thoughts of what I could do to him drive me insane. The only thing stopping me is because the reason we came to this pack or why Aylin is even marrying the idiot is because we want peace between the two packs.
Killing their Beta is not a good thing despite how irrational I feel. Freaking great.